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Before pointing your finger at me please check if your own plates are clean. Don’t start shit. Live and let live.
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In case someone hurts me tomorrow based on the same pattern. It is not a misunderstanding. And I don’t think it would be forgiven as well. Forgiveness is overrated and subjective.
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My whole life people were acting out of misunderstandings and preconceived notions. Hence I’ve let it go. It’s water under the bridge. The trauma is still there because whatever I went through was real and legit. The intensity of the trauma has reduced but I need time to forget things. I have cleared, explained, clarified…
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I’ve been extremely clear about every single thing. Before making me as your nemesis. Please understand whom you are dealing with. Later don’t tell me that I didn’t warn you.
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I don’t have certain human emotions. If you fuck with me you are signing up for your own destruction. You cannot destroy a person with God’s presence. I always rise above the drama and shit. With me the truth will always come out. Please check my track record. Please maintain the peace and harmony. Please…
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If you don’t like me. Please block or ghost me. I would really appreciate that. I don’t consider people as my enemy when they don’t want to be my friend. Until and unless someone does me dirty, it’s not betrayal. Please don’t play twisted stupid games. Please don’t start shit. Please maintain the peace and…
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Please don’t ask me questions when you already know the answers. If you are a friend. Behave like one. I don’t appreciate the acting. I’m not interested in playing pretend. If my community really considers me as a friend. They will understand the fact that it’s not humanly possible for me to be friends with…
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Another thing with Chinthu is that. He has a habit of leaving before he gets left. This stems from his past experiences. So if in case he was really enquiring. When I confronted him. He doesn’t have the ability to work through the conflict or take accountability. Hence he pushed me away to protect his…
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Chinthu and I have been my friends since 2022. I’ve already spoken about him previously. I spoke to chinthu 2 days ago. He intentionally started asking me gaslighting questions while texting. When I confronted him he said that, he was just enquiring and he doesn’t know what’s going on with me and if I’m going…
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The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday forever and ever. What the fuck is going on? Why am I still being taunted? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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The truth is already out long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. What exactly am I waiting for? I’m sick and so are my parents. We really need to see a doctor. What’s going on?
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I forgot to mention, mom and I haven’t fought in a really long time. It’s because we both are sick and we don’t have money that we had a conflict. These things are normal under such circumstances. Our family is doing good otherwise. We love and respect each other. Conflicts are always going to be…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. Most people are creepy fans and they have a leverage. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. It’s all fun and games for them. Some of them smile a creepy twisted malicious smile when they see…
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I learnt how to speak because of doing youtube for 3 years. I got that fluency. But since the last one year I haven’t been speaking at all. I stopped the youtube thing as well. Now I’m back to square one. I lost that touch. I spoke to my therapist just now. I was struggling…
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The truth is already out long ago. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. Please put an end to this. Thank you. What exactly am I waiting for?
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I’m going mad after seeing Ginny’s Instagram profile picture. My heart is beating wildly. I’m physically unwell. I just can’t. She’s so fucking beautiful. I can’t. I miss her so much. I can literally feel my blood rushing inside me. My hands and legs are going numb. I cannot handle this distance. I miss her.…
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The truth is already out long ago. What exactly am I waiting for? I really need to see a doctor. I need to take my parents to the doctor as well. We are sick and suffering. The whole world is benefitting out of me. And this is what is going on with me. What the…
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I wouldn’t know what’s going on until and unless you tell me. I can’t read minds. Please remember this. __ People are bullshitting in front of the world. Everything is theatrics. They are twisting my words, taking it out of context, exaggerating, lying and manipulating. __ Don’t believe anything you hear about me. Unless I…
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Please don’t glorify the perpetrators. That’s exactly what they want. They want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. They don’t give a fuck about me. It’s a win win situation for them. Don’t give them what they want. Don’t support them as well. When you support them, you are enabling such behaviour.…
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“There’s a hero in all of us” “When the devil comes at you, you know you’re doing something right” “I’m always lowkey angry” “I’m never a victim. I’m either a hero or a misunderstood villain.” “If you fuck with me, I’ll definitely be a bitch.”
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Here are a few videos that I like.
“Without the joker what’s the batman” “Be curious not judgemental” “Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan” “Words and ideas can change the world”
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I want justice for every single slander and lies. every single harassment. every single sexual assault. every single false accusation. the ragging in college. whatever happened in Askaban and the Ministry. whatever the person who was controlling my surroundings and content did to me. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to…
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I know I’m repeating myself. I’m sorry. The trauma. God. It’s way too much sometimes. I don’t know how I’m keeping it together. Also, I need to see a doctor, dentist and my ENT doctor. I’m beyond fed up. I need to speak to my therapist. Please put an end to this.
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A lot of people tried to silence me my whole life. A lot of people. The person who was controlling my surroundings and content was the real demon. There was so much internal manipulations and power clashes as well. People wanted to keep their good name in front of the world at all costs. They…
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I don’t think anyone in the history of the world had to prove themselves so much. Whatever I went through because I’m bisexual will go down in history for the monstrous barbaric atrocity. I just wanted to tell my side of the story. I just wanted to say it. People could have just let me…
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When whatever happened with Pettigrew last year. I clearly explained that she’s not my friend. Whatever she has is para social. But people ganged up and started torturing me and gaslighted me brutally without mercy. After everything that we went through together. A random stranger lied and this is what people did. Everything that I…
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Every single time something happens. People always gang up and start torturing me and silence me. Based on lies and manipulations. It’s like people desperately need something against me to satisfy their demons and desperately want to pull me down. They always glorify the perpetrators and throw it on my face. No one asks me…
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I’ve said it before saying it again. Some people when they meet you for the first time. They dump their trauma and trash on you and call you best friend. No man. This isn’t friendship. You don’t need a friend. You need a therapist. I said what I said. Friend is a valuable word. It…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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I’ve cleared every single miniscule thing. I have left absolutely no room for misunderstandings and doubts. If tomorrow someone tries to lie about me or tries to turn tables again. You can clearly understand that it’s a lie. __ In case something happens tomorrow. I expect maturity and basic decency. __ People are bullshitting in…
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You should fight for a relationship or friendship only when there’s a connection and rapport. Connection meaning both of you are interested and invested in it. Ted Mosby explains it better.
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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I just wanted to tell my side of the story. I was desperate to finish writing. I had to fight death to say it. God.
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. No matter how much I shout it’s of no use. Because I was treated like an animal even recently in the emergency room when I was suffering. People have…
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I’ve written 4 thousand blogs. I’ve used so many fucking analogies. But people are sticking to the word chess. I don’t even understand why. Also, people are not even reading the blog properly. They don’t read properly and lack comprehension and just go berserk like cavemen. I’m not playing chess. The devil is playing chess.…
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I don’t know why women blame men all the time. Because women are equally capable of being a monster. The way women have been behaving my whole life, even before I came out and after I came out, is horrendous. I don’t feel safe even with women. Not just men. I’ve already spoken about everything…
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I humbly request vulgar aunties, behenjis and uncles to stop staring at my cleavage and body whenever I step out. This has been going on for many many years. Minimum 5 people ogle at me every single time I go out. Minimum 5. Minimum one person always turns their head 180 degrees to look at…
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You need to calm down.
I don’t like every single Tom, Dick and Harry. I’ve been extremely clear about my bisexuality. I humbly request women to stop behaving questionable with me. Please don’t try to lure me. Please don’t make a move on me. Please don’t sexually assault me. Please don’t force me to go to your house. Please don’t…
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You need to calm down!
We all got crowns. Can you just not step on our gown? You need to calm down!!
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Louder for the ones at the back please.
Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t mean I will like every single Tom, Dick and Harry. If I want it, it’s easy and effortless. I just have to pick my favorite. I humbly request vulgar aunties, behenjis and uncles who are beneath my standards to stop jumping. Before you jump please look at a mirror and…
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Stay the fuck away from me.
Please don’t show the fucking audacity to text me and use words like “good friend” and try to rekindle. I don’t have amnesia and I’m not Jesus Christ to forgive endlessly.
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Now do you understand why I was listening to the Fight Song by Rachel Platten all these years? “Do you believe me now?” – Cassandra
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For all we know our universe might be existing inside a tiny speck. We might even be exiled on this planet that’s why there’s so much unending suffering. There’s literally so many hypothetical theories. We can go on and on about it forever on end. But there’s no definite answers. Because some things are forever…
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Before doing something unethical and shady. Please think about the consequences and think about things from a bigger picture. Please use your brain that God has blessed you with. Your mind can work beautifully if you know how to. Don’t waste your precious life. YOLO.
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We don’t have to trust each other. We don’t have to like each other. We don’t have to even agree with each other and see eye to eye. We don’t have to be each other’s best friends. No. We don’t. __ But we can have basic platonic love and respect and basic decency towards each…
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An author who deserves more hype than she gets. Jessa Hastings. Her books are like crack. So fucking addictive and destroys you in the best way possible and keeps you coming back for more. Bookstagrammer who deserves more hype than she gets. Daphsreads and Hannah Azerang. I absolutely love their book reviews. It’s so fucking…
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A song I was crying to the entire 2023 and starting of 2024. Because my throat was fucked and I was going to die and I was regretting not going to Ginny’s house.
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My throat was finally fixed after suffering for one year. After whatever happened last year. Sometimes I don’t feel good in my throat. I feel suffocated sometimes. I cannot eat certain food. Sometimes it feels really weird. It passes after half an hour or so. But yeah. The damage is done. I need to see…
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If rashmi, rohit, draco and neethu want to be friends again. They can reach out. I don’t have their number. So they have to reach out. I think about them sometimes. There’s literally no way for me to talk to them. So I’m putting it here.
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What exactly am I waiting for? The truth is already out long ago. Why am I still being taunted? What’s going on?
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Also, Just to be clear. Everyone always gets attracted to me. Everyone always has a lowkey crush on me. Everyone always likes me. I have that thing about me. I’m not interested in anyone. I’ve been extremely clear about whom I like. Voldemort knew that I was really good. She was burning with jealousy. That’s…
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Everyone is a little gay. Most women if not all are bisexual. They are lying if they say otherwise. Bisexuality might be lesser in men. But women are definitely bisexual. If they have been aroused by a woman even if it is only online, it makes them bisexual whether they like it or not. Everyone…
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I’ve already said everything and repeated it. Millions of times. I’ve already proved the truth as well. More than enough and necessary. I’m not interested in speaking about it anymore. So I’m not gonna. Do what you may. According to me this case is closed. I’ve already proved my innocence. I’ve proved myself more than…
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The truth is already out long ago. Everything is already said and done. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. The liars are already exposed. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday forever and ever. How much will you drag this? What’s going on? You didn’t drag things when you wanted…
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Omg. She is so fucking hot. I’m sure everyone who knows her has a lowkey crush on her. I keep stalking her from dad’s account. I miss her so much. Also, I’m sick. I’m just a lump under this blanket. And she’s actually interested in me? How did I get so lucky? Aaaaah. I’m going…
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After seeing her Instagram picture my heart has grown three times its size and it’s beating so hard. Feelings are overflowing inside me like waves in the ocean and bursting out through my pores. I’m unable to contain my feelings inside me. I love her so much. I want to shout from the mountain tops…
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When we were in college. Voldemort used to tell me whenever she has conflicts with friends she says sorry even when it’s not her fault. That’s how I got that habit. When whatever happened with Voldemort. I kept saying sorry to end the conflict. Even though I didn’t do anything wrong. I still have the…
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My throat was finally fixed after one long year of suffering. But because of what happened last year because of Pettigrew. My throat feels weird at times. Sometimes in the night and whenever I eat certain things. It passes after an hour or so. But it feels weird at times. I really need to see…
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The one time that I went out in the middle of this year was also chaos. I asked my sister in law for money. I was literally losing my mind. When I had my lunch before stepping out. I choked on the spicy dish. My throat got fucked. And well. My throat was fucked the…
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I’ve been on the verge of dying the majority of my life. Hence I don’t back down when things go round. I’m good at surviving catastrophe and chaos. I face it head on. My whole life I didn’t understand what’s happening. It was just chaos. The last one year had so much clarity because everyone…
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Ginny was always so sweet. She knew I was scared to travel alone at night. So she always dropped me home. I miss her so much. I miss looking at her when she drives. She didn’t know it though. But I kept looking at her. That was the only time we were alone. Otherwise we…
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Whenever I’m meeting someone, I tend to go there one hour early. So yeah. Ginny wasn’t late. I was very early. Also, we were bad at coordinating time to meet because we lived in two ends of the city. Plus the traffic. It’s always a hassle whenever I go out. Because I live on the…
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I’ve had so many near death experiences. I was on the verge of dying literally most of my life. I have no idea how I’m still alive and how I became normal now. Hallelujah.
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In 2024. I was in the auto on my way back home from indiranagar. The driver took a wrong turn and he went to some random unknown place. I was in my own world so I didn’t realise it. It was late in the evening. When he kept riding deeper in the unknown place, I…
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When I met Ginny after her birthday, I had abruptly stopped my medicine. She came a few hours late. Actually I was very early. She came one hour late. That’s fine with me because I had my kindle. Anyway. I was blacking out on and off that day. I could hardly hold on. I kept…
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I’ve left no room for misunderstandings and doubts. I’ve cleared every single miniscule preconceived notion and slander. I’ve repeated my boundaries a million times and I’ve been extremely clear about it. If there’s any kinda shady unethical behaviour from anyone ever again. I’m going to be extremely vocal about it. Next time in case someone…
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. I’ve cleared every single miniscule thing. More than enough and more than required. I have left no room for misunderstandings and doubts. I don’t want to participate in this anymore. Thank you.
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I’ve already exposed the liars. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. The truth is already out long ago. Please stop torturing me unnecessarily and wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy. And hurting me for no reason. I’m already suffering and extremely sick. I really need to see a doctor. Please put an…
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The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on? If this is how the law works. It honestly sucks. So does psychiatry and therapy and everything else. People really need to rethink on a lot of things.
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After everything that we went through together. A random stranger lied and this is what people did. All it took was a random stranger to lie and everything that I built for 2 years with blood sweat and tears was thrown away in a second. __ Now that the truth is out and the real…
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What exactly am I waiting for? Why am I being taunted unnecessarily? When people wanted me dead and tortured me based on lies and manipulation, you didn’t drag shit. I kept screaming I’m not attracted to women IRL. Please ask me what happened. But everyone was jumping right? The truth is already out long ago…
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I really need to see a doctor. I’ve been sick for the last 5 months. Please tell me what’s going on? I don’t think I can hold on much longer. I don’t feel very good.
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. Most people are creepy fans and they suck. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They are burning behind their facade. And they have a leverage. I’m helpless right now. I’ve already cleared, proved, clarified and…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. I’m setting an example to the world. I want people to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. I want people to clearly understand that they…
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I haven’t forgotten anything that anyone did or said. Please don’t show the fucking audacity to text me and use words like “good friend” and “close friend”. I don’t have amnesia and I’m not Jesus Christ to forgive everyone. Stay the fuck away from me.
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Please fact check everything that I have said. I’m speaking the truth. If you want to know something. You have to ask. I’m not sure what exactly you want to know.
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I haven’t spoken about any personal information about Ginny, Will and others who were good to me. I don’t speak about my personal life to anyone. I’m a private person. I don’t think the specifics are required. Whatever I have written here is the truth. I have spoken about everything that is important and crucial…
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You can ask Dumbledore and mom what was going on with my medicines in 2022 when I was dating Ginny. Fact check everything that I’ve said. I was also constantly screaming at mom asking her what really happened in the past and was trying to find answers. It was a really difficult time.
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I tried being friends, we were not friends. There’s a difference. Also, she wasn’t interested in being friends. She just wanted to fuck me. Whatever she was feeling is para social since day one. I’ve already spoken about it multiple times.
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I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to countless people in my life. I’ve made plans with people numerous times. There have been so many casual people in my life. So fucking many. But very few friends. I don’t use the word friend loosely. __ My definition of friendship differs from Pettigrew’s definition of…
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I’ve already spoken about everything and repeated it a million times. I cannot keep speaking about the same things forever. I’m done. __ I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. Please put an end to this.
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Since I tried being friends briefly after she gave me something to eat. And asked Pettigrew to join me 2-3 times when I was stepping out. That’s why she is using the word friend. __ But this doesn’t qualify as friendship for me. I’ve already given you my definition of the word friend. I don’t…
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You should have self respect and self love but you should not have an ego. When you love someone you should not show ego. If you show ego that’s not love. But your self respect and self love should be stronger than your feelings.
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People always try to find faults with me because I’m different and I’m in the public eye. They don’t really stop and introspect on their behaviour and faults. Before pointing your finger at me please check if your own plates are clean. Stop being a fucking hypocrite. This is what was going on till now.…
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My feelings are so back. Warmth is swishing everywhere inside me. It’s oozing out from my heart and I’m filled with it. I’m going mad. I miss her so much.
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Whenever I’m with Ginny, I start feeling dizzy with butterflies. When she holds me or does anything of those sorts, I can’t focus on anything. I had way too much feelings. That’s why I didn’t pay attention to the bill. I can’t focus when I’m with her. I forget everything and everyone. I forget how…
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I was suffering and going to die because of my throat for one year. After one year, I met Doctor Mahesh Meda who saved my life. Just because he helped me, I would never ask him to come to my house. That’s a psychotic reaction to help. I’m not a lonely sex addict. __ Pettigrew…
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The truth is already out long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. What exactly am I waiting for?
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Just because I was regular to the restaurant, it is not an invitation for the staff to encroach on my space and boundaries. She cannot approach me because I’m a familiar face, this is not a college party. When someone is saying no, you are supposed to stay away. She was not taking no for…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. I’m not the fucking problem. Most people are creepy fans and they suck. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. They are burning behind their facade. And they have a leverage. I’m helpless right now. I’ve…
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Whenever something happens, I always speak the truth on day one itself. Always. No one asks me what happened or my side of the story. People always gang up and start torturing me and silence me. __ Do you believe me now?
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I didn’t understand why I was being sexually assaulted last year. I kept repeating I’m not interested in women in real life. Please ask me what happened. I kept repeating that Pettigrew is not my friend. You can read my blogs again. __ Do you believe me now?
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The only thing I did was ask her to take my picture. She immediately called me “really hot”. She followed me to my place and dumped her trauma and trash on me. This is para social. __ She was lusting, forcing and projecting and seeing everything in that light. __ Para social. So scary man.
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I had uploaded a friendship bracelet with “take me home” for Ginny on my Instagram. That’s why she was constantly asking me to go to her house since day 2. This is para social.
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The only thing I did was ask her to take my picture. She stuck to me like a parasite and a leech. She was constantly forcing the friendship since day one. I was constantly pushing her. When she gave me something to eat forcefully. I returned the favour and tried being friends for a brief…
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People are forgetting that this song is in the POV of the hero. The villain is playing games and he is fighting to stop him. I was thinking about Voldemort and the death eaters when I uploaded this song on my Instagram. Pettigrew was just a random ass side character in my story. I didn’t…
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I learnt the meaning of the word patriarchy after watching barbie. I watched it with Dhruv. He explained it to me.
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When I was dating Ginny. Dumbledore was switching my medicines because my prolactin was higher than normal. Also, I abruptly tried to stop my medicine as well. These things were happening in the background. __ When we met after her birthday, I kept blacking out because I abruptly stopped my medicine. I didn’t want to…
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The truth is already out long ago. I’ve already proved my innocence and cleared my name. Does anyone want to explain why I’m being taunted unnecessarily even now? Why are you wasting my time? When people wanted me dead and tortured me based on lies everything happened so damn quickly. At that time no one…
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This is Dobby. Pettigrew is not even fit to wash his feet. Please stop disgracing his name. Whatever Pettigrew has is called para social relationship. Nothing else. I love Dobby. I wish I had someone like him in my life. __ END OF DISCUSSION. Thank you. I’m not interested in wasting anymore of my precious…
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence more than enough. I cannot do anything more than this. Taunting me now is pointless. __ I learned the meaning of the word “ego” in 2020 because of Nikita Metha. She taught me a lot of things. I learnt the meaning of the word betrayal in…
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I don’t know if Dhruv betrayed me. Unless you tell me what’s happening, I would not know. If he betrayed me. I want him to face charges for what he did. If he was just stating misunderstandings. Let him be.
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I’m kinda a little bit like my mom and dad. __ Mom is selfless, she doesn’t have an ego, she loves unconditionally, she keeps making jokes, she has a lot of ideas and she’s strong. Dad enjoys solitude, he always minds his own business, he’s also strong, he always makes jokes and he is hard…
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After whatever I faced in life, I want to get this message across to the world. Don’t support a woman just because she is a woman. Don’t support people from the weaker sections of the society just because they are weak. Don’t support a disabled person just because that person is disabled. Don’t support old…
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The porn that was watched on my phone when I was with psycho divorcee and Bellatrix was watched by them. They watched it on my phone. I didn’t.
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I don’t feel good. I need to see a doctor soon. I cannot hold on much longer. What exactly am I waiting for?
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I keep thinking about Ginny. I don’t feel very good. My heart aches so much. I cry every day. I miss her so much. I’m extremely sick as well. I need to see a doctor. I feel physically unwell. The heart ache and the sickness. Sometimes I get slightly turned on randomly thinking about her.…
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If Draco wants to reach out. She can. I have not blocked her anywhere. After whatever happened with Pettigrew, I think about her sometimes. I think our friendship is severed. But we can start over if she wants it too. I don’t know. I would be able to do justice to the friendship if we…
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Will and I have had conflicts too. I was a mess sometimes. Because I was crazy. So yeah. But he has always been there nevertheless. I feel safe with him. I’m able to do justice to the friendship now because I’m normal.
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My therapist kruti has helped me more than what her job description requires her to do and I can never ever forget that. I’ll always be grateful for her. She came into my life like she was God sent. She went above and beyond and she has been a rock and pillar in my life…
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Will is not my ex. We didn’t date or meet for a very long time. We were best friends who were in love with each other. He moved on years ago. After he got married, I cried for a long time. I moved on a couple of months before I met Ginny. When we met…
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Please don’t develop a para social relationship with me. Please don’t encroach on my personal space and boundaries. My boundaries are non-negotiable. If there’s any kinda shady unethical behaviour from anyone, I’m going to be extremely vocal about it. If you encroach on my personal space and boundaries that makes you a creepy fan. If…
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I had already done the work in 2022. I was at my prime. But the world kept pushing me down again and again and again. So I had to teach the work that I had done to the world. Along with clearing all the immense bullshit and misunderstandings. And breaking the vicious cycle that Voldemort…
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Voldemort is not an ultimate evil archetype. She was a regular angsty 20 year old who made all the wrong choices. She had regular human emotions like jealousy. Literally anyone is capable of doing what she did.
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I’m not a fucking victim. Never. I’m fucking Khaleesi the mother of dragons. You can be rest assured that I will never start shit. But if you start it, I will thrash you. Ethically. Before fucking with me please understand whom you are fucking with. Please check my track record. Don’t awaken the khaleesi in…
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I decided to take up therapy in 2020 which changed my life. I decided to change the narrative of my life in 2022 which changed me for good. I learnt the meaning of the word betrayal in 2022 because of taylor swift. When Nikita Metha told me why people are speaking to me in a…
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Humans have a lesser tolerance for pain. Their threshold for pain is really low. I’ve noticed a pattern. My threshold for pain is really high. This is what makes me different. I know how to heal myself. Also, when I love someone I love them unconditionally. __ This is where things went wrong with Voldemort.…
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Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? I’ve been sick for the last 4 months. My parents are also sick. We need to see a fucking doctor. My family is suffering without money. The truth is already out long ago. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. The…
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Whenever something happens, no one asks me what happened or my side of the story. People always gang up and start torturing me and silence me. I had to fight death to tell my side of the story. __ The person who was controlling my surroundings and content is the real demon. So many people…
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My parents were continuously torturing me without mercy at home. Everyone knew about it. I didn’t want to sit at home. That’s why I was constantly going out. I was extremely fucked and suicidal and my throat was fucked. I was on the verge of dying most of the time. I just wanted to be…
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In 2023, I went to blossoms and bought a bag full of books. It was hot and the bag was heavy. I was suicidal and fucked. I didn’t know where the bus stop was back then. I asked someone and he intentionally gave me the wrong directions. I walked in the wrong direction. After sometime…
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On my birthday in 2023, I didn’t want to be alone. My parents were continuously torturing me. I was talking to a guy from the dating app. I said to him I just want to be friends and we met. I was extremely heartbroken and suicidal. I wore my new dress and I was planning…
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I don’t know if I’ve said this. I was going to die in 2022. I was drinking something and walking on the road and I choked. I almost died but I immediately swallowed. So I didn’t. In the beginning of 2023. I was extremely heartbroken and suicidal. Ginny said she doesn’t love me. My life…
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I want to hug Ginny so badly. My heart keeps aching. I keep thinking about her and get slightly turned on randomly. Slightly because I’m not taking that additional medicine. I miss her so much. I’m physically unwell. I’m not okay. I don’t really feel good. Also, I’m sick. I’m not okay. I’m just a…
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I want to take an x-ray of my brain and see what’s happening inside. I don’t know how I became normal. Also, I’ve been sick for the last 4 months. I need to see a doctor really bad. I’m struggling. I need to take my parents to the hospital as well. I’m so fed up.…
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I don’t know how I survived whatever happened, tbh. I don’t know how I became normal. This is beyond me. My therapist kruti, Ginny, Doctor Mahesh Meda, Taylor Swift and Dumbledore helped me immensely. Also, God. Also, random people here and there. I just wanted to finish writing. That was my only goal. I was…
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I don’t know if I spoke to 250 men. That’s just a random number. But I spoke to so many fucking men since 2019. It feels like 250. I haven’t counted. But it was a lot. A lot. God.
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I didn’t know the world knew me. I kinda embarrassed myself in front of the world. I was so cringe. Aah. I had no time to process the embarrassment as well. There was honestly no time. It was a question of life and death. My only goal was to finish writing.
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In retrospect, I think Dhruv was in love with me. I’m not sure though. I was so lost in my head thinking about Ginny. I was also extremely suicidal. I wasn’t paying much attention. I shouldn’t have said I love you to him. I have a habit of saying it to all my friends. All…
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I have a habit of leaving people in whatever delusion they are in. I tend to silently remove myself from situations, conversations and people. I take a step back and move on with my life. I’m okay with being misunderstood. __ I didn’t know about all these preconceived notions and slander that was spread about…
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God bless Nikita Metha and my therapist rahul whom I spoke to 3 years ago. I was struggling my entire life. I was on the verge of dying my whole life. I just couldn’t understand why people were speaking to me in a special way. I just couldn’t understand. I kept asking Dumbledore again and…
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Men tend to like me because I focus on being their friend. I’m a bro like Robin Scherbatsky. I cut the drama. They tend to always have a lowkey crush on me. I think this is the reason. I’m not sure, tbh. But this is how I see myself.
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According to me, Marriage is not the end goal of life. I’m okay without it. I want to marry Ginny. I know she’s the one and there’s no one else for me. If she wants to get married too, then yes. If she doesn’t want to, I’m okay without it. I’m okay with whatever she…
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I don’t get into a relationship easily. I take time to trust and feel ready. I go with the flow. I try to build the connection and trust. __ Most of the men that I rejected. I said no after the first meeting itself. Or the first call/video call. __ I’ve already spoken about it.…
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Psycho divorcee is the only person I had sex with. I regret it so much. So much. I regret it to this day. Because having sex is a huge deal for me. I don’t feel like doing it unless I’m in love. I made a lot of mistakes initially when I started dating. I learnt…
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My close circle is sacred and a temple. I trust people in my close circle with my life. Because I know for a fact I can. I feel safe with them. __
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I was watching a reel of a woman who was talking shit about men. She was saying how much she hates men who accept the fact that they look good and say it out loud. And this same influencer made another reel talking about how pretty she is. __ This is called double standards. __…
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I feel people are going a little bit overboard with feminism. It’s kinda getting toxic too. Feminism stands for men and women to be treated equally. But we’ve gotten to a point where women talking shit about men and stereotyping them is being normalised. Feminism is required where it’s required. i.e. in parts of the…
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Don’t start shit. Learn to take a step back and maintain the peace and harmony. Don’t cause any man made problems intentionally. Live and let live.
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Moving through life is like crossing the street. Whenever you cross, you have to look left and right and watch your step. If you are reckless and don’t watch your step. You will be run over by vehicles and even die. No, I’m not asking you to be cynical. I’m asking you to always watch…
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I don’t gloat. I have never said that I’m king or God as well. Those aren’t my words. People consider that. People are placing unrealistic expectations on my shoulders. I have just said that I’m a public figure and youtuber. __ Pettigrew asked me to look for a job when everyone clearly knew things worked…
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I miss Ginny so much. I’m not okay. I cry every day. I’m so fed up. So fed up. My heart aches so much.
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I keep feeling that I’m normal. I don’t think I have anything. I’m a bit different because I have so many problems.
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Honestly I don’t even know what schizophrenia is. Everyone was calling me crazy for so and so reasons. So I cleared it. That’s it. I know I’m different from everyone else. I might be neurodivergent I think. Who knows what I have.
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It’s not Dumbledore’s fault. He was just doing his job. This is how psychiatry works. Honestly it sucks. Even therapy, legal system, education system, the intricacies of getting married etc. Everything needs to be revamped.
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Next time in case something happens. I expect people to handle it better. I expect maturity. Please have the basic decency to ask me what happened. Unless and until you know both the sides of the story please for heaven’s sake hold your horses. Before hurting me based on someone else’s lies and manipulations please…
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Whatever connection you feel with me is one sided. I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m not your friend. I’m a public figure. Please be mindful about this. Please don’t encroach on my personal space and boundaries. My boundaries are non-negotiable.
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After I started dating, I spoke to around 250 men. But I fell in love just twice. __ I’ve had an extremely social life. There have been so many casual people. So many. But very few friends. __ What I’m trying to say is. It’s really hard to find people whom we connect with. When…
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Everyone always likes me and has a lowkey crush on me. I have that thing about me. My imperfections have nothing to do with my allure. Men never know how to keep it platonic. Apparently even women. __ I’m not interested in anyone. I’ve been extremely clear about whom I like. I request everyone to…
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The truth is already out long ago and the liars are already exposed. Taunting me now is unnecessary and a waste of everyone’s time, efforts and energy. Understand when things have reached its due course and put an end to it.
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence more than enough. I request people to please stop taunting me and leave me alone. I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday that’s already been cleared and clarified. Please put an end to this. Thank you.
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I’ve already cleared why I used the word “win”. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. I’m not interested in speaking about this anymore. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. Thank you.
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I don’t want Dumbledore and Draco to face any charges. I don’t know if Dhruv was just stating misunderstandings or what exactly he said. If people were acting out of misunderstandings and preconceived notions, it can be forgiven. If they had malicious intentions, I want justice for it. I want justice for the sexual assaults…
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Most people are not bad. There are some people who aren’t good, yes. But most humans are inherently good. But they act on misunderstandings and impulses without stopping for a beat and reflecting. They make reckless mistakes. Sometimes there’s no going back. They repent, regret and waste their precious lives. This is the true story…
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I’ve spoken about where everyone is going wrong. I’ve given you solutions as well. It’s free advice. You can take it if you want to.
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Also, People are always sparring and ready for combat. Because most people have an ego. They take everything to court. They want to fight. They want to destroy. They want to win. __ Most of the things can be resolved verbally if you just sit down and speak about it openly and have a one…
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When someone has a misunderstanding and they are speaking about that incident to people. They should say, “This person did this and said this. I’m not sure what exactly they meant by it but I reacted this way.” This is so much appreciated. __ Instead they confidently state it as a fact or confidently lie…
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I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. I’ve spoken about everything and repeated it a million times since last one year. I’m done. Please put an end to this. I’m not interested in speaking about this topic anymore. I want to move on with my life.
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After whatever I faced in life. No one in their right mind would be jealous of me. No one in their right mind would hurt me. But people are still jealous and they still intentionally hurt me. Most people suck.
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Pettigrew is a random ass side character in a random ass restaurant. I didn’t know she lied. I didn’t see it coming. According to me, I had finished writing and everything was done. She caused so much drama and trauma. When I got to know she betrayed me. I started writing once again and cleared…
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I fought through death to say my side of the story. I’ve said it. __ When I got to know the law was involved and I was framed, I started giving proof as well. I’ve given proof for whatever I can think of. __ I’ve said and done everything. I’ve already cleared my name and…
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Please stop hurting me based on the false narratives of a lonely sex addict. She is so vulgar and looks like a fucking ugly potato. I cannot believe people thought that I’m so cheap to do the things that she falsely accused me of. I’m glad I was able to clear my name and I…
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I hate to break it to you but most people are stupid. I mean most people I’ve interacted with. I’m not that smart but if the world is filled with such people, I might as well be smart. __ People lack comprehension skills, they lack attention and clarity, the ability to understand a context, the…
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I wrote on my blog 2 times while this incident was going on that, “Pettigrew is not my friend and I felt like I was making all the efforts, so I’m taking a step back” I was trying my best to make her understand that I’m not interested and we are not friends. I was…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Taunting me now and dragging this is not only unnecessary but a waste of everyone’s time and energy.
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I don’t think anyone in the history of this world had to prove themselves so much. The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on?
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly is happening? Why is this being dragged unnecessarily?
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I want closure. I want to know what happened to everyone who wronged me. I want to know what exactly is happening. Why are everyone keeping me in the dark? Why am I waiting this way?
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Everyone needs to understand that I went through something very serious. I was on the verge of dying numerous times these last 3 years. I went through numerous near death experiences. I need to speak to my therapist or someone daily and talk about everything that happened. Verbally. All I’ve been doing is writing here.…
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I miss Ginny so much. I keep thinking about her everyday. My memories are fading away and they seem distant. My heart still aches though and I still cry. I don’t feel very good. I miss her so much. I’m not okay. I’m not okay at all. I’m so fed up and tired. I’m holding…
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I had called the delivery agent and asked him why he did that, while I was having a panic attack. He said sorry. I complained to big basket because I wanted them to ask him what exactly was his intention. People usually don’t tell me their intentions directly. So let them ask him and understand.
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I’m so disturbed by whatever the delivery agent did to me. I ordered from big basket because I was really hungry. After he left, I had a panic attack and I could not calm down for a long time. My hunger vanished. I couldn’t focus on anything. I’m already suffering and this person stabbed me…
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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I’ve been ordering from big basket since many years. No one has done it till date. The delivery agent intentionally stopped me and said “What is your name” and smiled. He did that intentionally. He did that to trigger me. I don’t know why anyone would do that. __ What exactly am I waiting for?…
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After whatever Dudley did to me. She was also trying her best to make me jealous of her pathetic life. __ After whatever happened at the Ministry with Varsha Vinod. No one asked me what happened or my side of the story. People assumed I was jealous of their pathetic jobs. They ganged up and…
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I ordered from big basket just now. They never ask names whenever they deliver the order. Big basket has never done it till date these last 3 years whenever I order. But today when the man delivered, he intentionally stopped me and asked me my name. He did this intentionally. I know it was intentional.…
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Whenever you check something that I watched from my internet history. Please make sure you check the watch time. I have a habit of clicking on random things. I’ll be in my own world thinking about something, I don’t realise it. __ Whenever I watch porn. I just watch the beginning 5-10 seconds leading up…
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I was scrolling through xhamster the other day. It’s a porn website. There were so many videos with the title “teen”. I didn’t open it. I’m not sure what’s going on. This is illegal I think. The cops need to take a look at that website.
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Dudley was burning behind her facade 3 years ago. Because I was hot, confident, successful and really good. I was at my prime. I was everything she can never be. She was extremely jealous and insecure. I started speaking to her friend organically. She was doing everything in her power to keep me away from…
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I always reuse old gifts as a last minute gift. Also, I love giving and receiving thoughtful gifts. __ When I was speaking to Savita Nair, I got to know it was her birthday last minute. So I gave her my new bookmarks that I had displayed on my shelf because she loves to read.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for the ragging at college. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. I want justice. __ Don’t support the…
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I want you to take away every single glory and perks that were given to the perpetrators because of me. Every single one of them. Let them earn their good fortune by themselves. Don’t support people just because they are from the weaker sections of the society or disabled or something of those sorts. They…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want every single person who did me wrong to get their karma.
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Most people suck and they are creepy fans. But because of the reality that I’m existing in they have leverage. They feel it’s okay to cross my boundaries and do whatever fuck they want. Because with me they don’t have to face any consequences. They do whatever fuck they want and conveniently turn the table…
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I want Dudley to get her karma. I pray to God every single day that karma hits Dudley and her family on their chest with full force. She just wanted the attention and glory that comes attached to me. She had ulterior motives. She has been sucking glory like how she has been sucking her…
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I’ve been sick for the last 4 months. I need to see a doctor. My parents are also sick. We need to see a fucking doctor. I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Does anyone want to explain what exactly am I waiting for?
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There is an account on Instagram “kids getting hurt” which has around 7M followers. I don’t understand why people follow that account. I was stalking a famous celebrity and I saw that they follow this account. I was shocked to see this kind of thing exists. It’s sadistic and dark and not funny at all.…
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I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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I used to not look good in the past. Everyone used to call me ugly and body shame me all the time. I’ve heard so many things growing up. Boys used to speak to me only because they were interested in my girl best friends. I was invisible. My friends have called me inconspicuous. That’s…
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When I started dating in 2019. Everyone I knew, my family and friends back then, asked me to settle for really ugly men. They said since I have so many problems, I have to compromise. But I said no. __ I spoke to a lot of men. So many men. It wasn’t working out. Even…
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Some people have sparkly golden retriever energy and personality. They are always kind and sweet. They are like that with everyone. I’m kinda like that when I’m in a good mood. Depends on my mood. __ Sometimes it’s not love bombing. Some people lack social experiences and interactions. They are deprived of kindness and empathy.…
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I’ve already shared everything that I know and understand. I’ve shared everything about my life as well. I’ve recounted everything to the best of my memory. I’ve shared what makes me different. There’s nothing left to say. I’m speaking the truth. Please fact check everything. I don’t remember certain things clearly because so many things…
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I observe and notice more than people realise. I’m good at reading expressions and body language. I’m good at reading people to a certain extent. Sometimes I don’t understand things because I can’t read minds. But I’m good at it. I don’t say anything. Because I never start shit. It’s none of my business. I…
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I have negative thoughts too. I don’t like certain people. Some people annoy the shit out of me. Sometimes I have valid and legit reasons. Sometimes it’s something petty. They are random people whom I know or random people on the internet. (I don’t dislike people for their looks or imperfections. I dislike them for…
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Most of the problems in this world are, Firstly because people act on misunderstandings. Second because people act on their impulses. __ In the heat of the moment people don’t think and reflect. They just go go go on their thoughts. This is where people are going wrong. Later they repent, regret and even waste…
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I gave Pettigrew multiple chances to take a step back without complaining to her manager. I was polite from day one. I tried helping her till the last minute. If she had taken a step back, all these things wouldn’t have happened. But she was misguided and she started shit and she betrayed me. I…
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I’ve said it a million times. Unless and until someone does you dirty it’s not betrayal. So my advice to people is this. __ If you don’t like someone, that’s okay. It’s not possible to like everyone in this world and everyone won’t like you either. When you don’t like someone because you are jealous…
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I’ve said it before saying it again. If you want to be in a relationship with someone or be friends with someone, You have to get to know each other, interact, spend time etc. Until and unless people do this, they cannot decide if they want to be friends or want to be in a…
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When people ghost me or block me, I don’t carry any hatred or animosity towards them. When someone stops being my friend that doesn’t make them my enemy. __ For example, Nikita ghosted me recently. Rohit blocked me. I have absolutely no hatred towards them. __ They had their reasons to disengage. I respect their…
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I want every single person who spread slander and lies to face charges of defamation and false accusations. I want justice for what happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for what the person who was controlling my content and surroundings did to me. I want justice for the smear campaign. I…
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I want justice for every single miniscule unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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Definition of a friend according to the Oxford English Dictionary, a friend is a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, a close and informal relationship of mutual trust and intimacy. No. Pettigrew is not my friend according to this definition. She is not my friend according to my personal definition of…
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I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to some of them on calls, met them outside, taken pictures etc. But I still don’t consider them as “friends”. I don’t use the word friend loosely. They were casual people whom I knew at one point in my life. Acquaintances, colleagues, classmates, neighbours etc. That’s it.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Every single miniscule thing. I’m setting an example to the world. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want everyone to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. I want everyone to clearly understand that they cannot spread slander and…
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I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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People are bullshitting in front of the world. Everything is theatrics. They are keeping their good name in front of the world at all costs. There’s always immense BS, manipulations and lies. Don’t believe anything you hear about me. Good or bad. Unless I say it.
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In case something happens tomorrow, before going berserk like cavemen and jumping and ganging up and torturing me, please have the basic decency to ask me what happened like a normal person. Please show some maturity. Until and unless you know both sides of the story, please fucking hold your horses.
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If there’s any kind of shady unethical behaviour from anyone, I’m going to be extremely vocal about it. I request everyone to please behave.
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I will not be responding to force and desperation. I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m not your friend. I’m a public figure. I expect the convention and respect of a public figure. I have my problems and limitations. So I expect my boundaries and privacy…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. I have already explained everything. I want you to understand this. I have explained the complexities of existing in this reality. I’m not the fucking problem here. Please put an end to this. I want a normal and…
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I have already cleared and clarified all the preconceived notions and slander. Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t mean I will like every single Tom, dick and harry who comes my way. I’m extremely picky when it comes to my romantic likings. I’m a woman of class. When I like someone I directly say it, I…
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People didn’t know me before. Now you do. Really well. I want to maintain my privacy after this is over. I want my space, boundaries and privacy to be respected strictly. I’ve had an extremely difficult life so I want a quiet life after this is done. I’m so fucking tired.
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I might not be rich and perfect. But I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. Voldemort threw mud on my name and paved the way. The death eaters effortlessly followed and dragged my name through mud. Only I knew the truth. I was desperate to say everything. I’ve said it. In case something…
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I read in Lily Collins biography that she compliments strangers on the road and smiles at them. That’s how I got that habit. __ In the book P.S. I love you when Gerry falls sick and gets cancer he mentions how growing old is a privilege or something along those lines. That stuck with me…
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I kept asking Dumbledore since day one. “Why are people speaking to me that way?” This was the only thing stopping me from telling my story. I was on the verge of dying my whole life and I kept repeating the same thing. Once I got to know why 3 years ago, I had to…
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I clearly speak the truth on day one itself. __ When whatever happened with Voldemort, I clearly kept repeating she was speaking about me. But everyone ganged up and tortured me and silenced me. __ When whatever happened with Lucius, I clearly said she betrayed me. But everyone ganged up and tortured me and silenced…
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If I want it, it’s easy and effortless. I want everyone to clearly understand this fact and get it inside their fucking heads. I’m not interested in anyone. I humbly request vulgar aunties, behenjis and uncles to stop jumping. You need to calm down. I already have someone that I love. I request everyone to…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out. No one wants anyone dead? Where are all the barbaric cavemen who created riots on the road? Where are you man? Why is it so quiet?
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When someone has feelings for you and they lust on you. They have a habit of projecting their feelings and they see everything in that light. Most humans do this. I don’t do it because I’m different. But most people do it. I’ve seen a pattern. __ Most people have an ego so they don’t…
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I don’t know who was stating misunderstanding, who filed a complaint and who had malicious intent. Based on whatever I have understood. I have spoken about everything and proved and cleared it. You need to question the people in question and take action accordingly. Because I don’t know the exact situation. Unless and until you…
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In retrospect, I think I understand the misunderstandings that Dhruv had to a certain extent. I was keeping it platonic. I liked him as my friend. But I think he was attracted to me since day one. Idk what exactly he said about me and if he had any malicious intent. Literally everyone calls me…
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I want even Lucius Malfoy and Lockhart to get their karma. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me.
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The person who was controlling my surroundings and content is the real demon. I want justice for every single thing.
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I want Dudley, moana shree, varsha vinod, ance jose and every single person who did me wrong to get their karma. Don’t believe people if they say they have changed. Some people are jokers in a white cardigan. I want justice for what happened to me. I want justice for every single thing that happened…
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I want Rachel Catherine and her kitty party to get their karma for what they did to me. I want abby jimnez to get her karma for calling me an ugly gargoyle in her book. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me.
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Dear Diary.
It’s getting colder by the day. I love winter so much. Christmas is round the corner. I hope this gets over before that. I’m tired of waiting. My throat feels a bit weird sometimes even now. It doesn’t hurt like before. It’s a mild pain rarely every now and then. I need to see a…
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Don’t follow my advices blindly. I’m not always right. I’m definitely going to change my mind when I gain more knowledge and understanding. We need to keep adapting and growing with changing times. There is a possibility that my advices will become outdated because there will be other pressing issues in the future. I’m okay…
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Forgiveness is overrated and subjective. Don’t obsess so much about it. Focus on healing your pain and anger when you are hurt. Forgiveness comes later. It’s possible to place the burden down and move on without forgiving.
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You should have self respect but you should not have ego. When you love someone, you should not show ego. If you show ego, that’s not love. I said what I said. I stay away from people who have ego. I really don’t like them.
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I have spoken about everything and cleared my part. I don’t know who said what exactly. I don’t know who had malicious intent and who were acting out of misunderstanding and preconceived notions. Please ask the people in question why they did what they did. And take action accordingly.
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I believed in God during my childhood and spoke to Him when I was mute. But now that I’m older and have gained maturity and understanding. Sometimes I doubt my belief. Sometimes I have moments when I think, What’s the point of all this? Why are we here? Does our existence even matter? Are we…
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I wasn’t 100 percent sure if Pettigrew was really bisexual. It was an intuition based on her behaviour and the way she kept calling me to her house and moaning. I didn’t want to say anything I wasn’t 100 percent sure about. Her energy was off. That’s the main reason I was constantly pushing her.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Every single miniscule thing. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. I’ve already cleared my name. You need to question the people in question and ask them why they did what they did. And take action accordingly.
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When women publicly bash men. Everyone supports it. But men aren’t allowed to speak ill about women who wronged them the same way. Because everyone starts speaking about feminism and women’s rights. But what about men’s rights? Don’t you think this is double standard? Men who are good silently take this shit from the society…
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Whenever a woman and a man break up. People automatically assume that it is the guy’s fault and take the woman’s side. Because she’s a woman. This is a stereotypical behaviour and it is not always the case. There’s always two sides to the story. I’m well aware of what some bitches are capable of.…
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I think it makes sense why Draco is not reaching out. I took revenge and took out my anger towards her. She hurt me and I hurt her back. I guess our friendship is severed. After whatever happened with Pettigrew I’m no longer angry at her and I think about her sometimes. I hope she’s…
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Children should be taught life skills in school. Like rejection, difference in opinion, agreeing to disagree, sex ed, self respect, self love, emotional regulation etc. Meaning of sexual assault and rape. I wish someone had taught me these things in school. I learnt self respect and self love because of therapy. I learnt about sex…
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I’ve said it before, saying it again. I’m completely okay with people ghosting and blocking me. If you don’t like me, please block or ghost me. This is so much better than defeating me, destroying my life, trying to kill me and constantly being passive aggressive. I’ll be happy if someone ghosts or blocks. I’m…
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Just making plans and exchanging numbers and following each other on Instagram doesn’t make you friends. I’ve done that so many fucking times throughout my life. There have been so many casual people in my life. So many. As I mentioned before, I’ve had an extremely social life. People keep coming and going. There have…
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I always have a “I don’t give up” attitude in life. I never give up even when life throws shit at me and I’m faced with adversity. This attitude has always helped me. This is why I persisted and I’m still alive. This is why things worked out with Ginny because I kept fighting for…
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I kept fighting and didn’t give up. I’ve already proved that she’s a liar. She’s really not a good person. __ I’ve already proved myself more than enough and cleared every single miniscule thing. I’ve given you whatever proof that I can think of. I’m speaking the truth. I always speak the truth. Everyone knows…
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I don’t get along with people who have ego. You should have self respect but you should not have an ego. __ Pettigrew has a huge ego. She’s a narcissist. I noticed it. Her energy was off since day one. She was constantly overstepping my boundaries. I tried my best to tell her I’m not…
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I’ve already explained what causes misunderstandings and how to handle it. I’ve explained projection. I’ve also explained everything else that I have noticed and understood about human psychology. It will help you. I’m good at certain things that everyone is already aware of. I’ve shared it with the world. I’ve spoken about everything that’s crucial…
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Last year after things worked out for me. I opened Instagram and I saw a reel on my “for you” page. It was an edit of taylor swift at the eras tour that said, “Taylor Swift won in life” I think it was meant for me. Because Ginny was going to come back and things…
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Note. You can read this blog again. All sentences are positive in it. I’m saying, “God is always with me. My consciousness is always clear. I always think from a place of love. I might be the holy spirit.” And I said, “my move is always going to be checkmate.” Meaning. I’m not playing the…
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I’ve already proved that I was not horny during 2023 and 2024. Until and unless I take the additional medicine I don’t feel horny. Because my prolactin level is higher than normal. After I saw the white thing in my underwear I stopped the additional medicine. Because it was the side effect. This was in…
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I don’t have certain human emotions. Hence I always rise above the drama. I’m not saying I’m better than everyone else. I don’t dislike people who have those emotions as well. Because I’m aware everyone has them. It’s just me who is different. I do like people who are close to me even if I’m…
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Instead of constantly taunting me. You should question the people in question. And fact check everything that I’ve written here. Because I’ve already cleared my name.
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I’ve already proved myself more than enough. I’ve cleared, clarified and proved every single thing. I’ve given valid and legit proofs for everything. I’ve cleared everything with solid proof. I’ve given proof for whatever I can think of. I’m speaking the truth. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I cannot…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want people to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. There’s going to be severe consequences even with me. I’m fighting…
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I had uploaded a picture on my Instagram for Ginny with a friendship bracelet saying “take me home” That’s why Pettigrew was constantly forcing me to go to her house. She’s a creepy fan with main character syndrome. __ Anna from the crochet workshop is also a creepy fan. I had spoken about how Ginny…
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When I was dating Ginny in 2022 I was not confident. I was really shy and awkward. I was also crazy. I didn’t know how to speak properly back then. Also, She is so fucking hot. I cannot look at her face and speak at the same time. I get butterflies and start feeling dizzy.…
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Based on whatever I saw online and what I’ve understood from my interactions with Pettigrew. I feel she has trouble understanding the code of conduct and also she’s misguided. I also feel she lacks social experiences and is deprived of kindness and empathy. From whatever conversations I had with her I feel she has trouble…
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If I want it, it’s easy and effortless. I’ve said this a million times. I want you to understand it. Because it’s true. I’m not really interested in a disgusting filthy creepy waiter. Also, It wasn’t written on her forehead that she’s bisexual. This is not what one expects when you go to a restaurant.…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. I’ve spoken about every single thing and repeated it multiple times. I’ve cleared, proved and clarified every single thing more than required. I’ve already proved that she’s a liar long ago. I’m not interested in speaking about this anymore.
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I want justice for what happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for every single slander and lies that were spread about me. I want justice for every single sexual assault. I want justice for every single harassment and assault. I want justice for the smear campaign. I want justice for every…
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I know I’m repeating myself. I’m literally losing it. I miss Ginny. I need to see a doctor. I cannot exist this way anymore. I’m tired of waiting. I’m so fed up. I’m holding on because of the hope that this will end soon.
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If I want it it’s easy and effortless. I’m not deprived of physical intimacy. I don’t need anything from these vulgar and disgusting women and a boy who looks like an insect. God. I might not be rich and perfect but I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. I cannot believe I had…
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I think Pettigrew’s definition of friendship is different from my definition of friendship. Maybe she considers everyone whom she speaks to as her friend. I need to feel a sense of connection and rapport and trust and safety to use that word. Because a friend is a valuable word for me. Also, We barely spoke.…
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I didn’t understand what was happening when it was happening. This is the only reason I survived whatever happened to me in the past. My mind was not developed. I didn’t know the meaning of sexual assault, rape, betrayal etc. I didn’t know people wanted me dead. I doubted my own sanity for a decade…
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For the record, I don’t have unconditional love for everyone in this world. I had unconditional love when I was young but now I’ve grown up. I have basic platonic love from a distance as a part of my community and society. There is a boundary there. Because I don’t trust everyone and sometimes I…
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I don’t think Draco will reach out. Because she doesn’t have the ability to put her ego aside and apologise for what she did to me. She doesn’t have the audacity to text. Her ego is bigger than her head. Even Rohit. He doesn’t have the ability to put his ego aside and apologise. It’s…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!!!
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After whatever happened with Pettigrew, I honestly miss Draco sometimes. She is open minded and cool and inherently good. Even if we had problems and she bullied me. Most of our problems were because I didn’t have self respect and self love back then. I accepted the doormat treatment silently until one day I couldn’t…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Taunting me now is a waste of everyone’s time and energy. Please tell me what exactly am I waiting for?
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Next time in case something happens, I expect maturity and basic decency. I expect people to handle it better.
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This is what was happening till now. I have explained, cleared and clarified every single thing. I have given proof for whatever I can think of. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I cannot do anything more than this.
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. You need to understand this. I’m not the fucking problem. Most people suck. __ They are creepy fans but because of this reality that I’m existing in they have a leverage over me. They take advantage of my…
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I have not shared any personal information about Ginny. I have not shared any personal information about people who were good to me as well. I have not shared their secrets. Their secrets are safe with me. Irrespective of the fact that we still speak or not. I just briefly spoke about them. __ There…
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I don’t think we should stop using social media. In this day and age, it is a really important and powerful medium to stay connected with the world and stay updated on what’s happening in the world. And other uses that I mentioned before. Just don’t drift away from the purpose of it all. Try…
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People need to introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. Because my reactions and retaliations are valid, normal and justified. 100%. I want people to be held responsible for their actions and behaviour. Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support such behaviour, you are enabling it. When you enable it, people will have…
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My reactions and retaliations are normal, valid and justified. 100%. The way people have been harassing and torturing me to forgive the aggressive stalker was inhuman, barbaric and cruel. I despise him to the core of my being for the harassments and pouncing and the theatrics. I hate him every time I see his bloody…
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I’ve already proved, cleared and clarified every single miniscule thing. I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Please stop wasting everyone’s time. When people wanted me dead and tortured me, everything happened so damn quickly. The truth is already out long long ago. Why the fuck is this being dragged unnecessarily? What the fuck is…
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Little context to why my mom hit me on the day I went to the hospital. It sounded bad when I said it, so I would like to give some context. __ Whenever my parents fall sick, they wait for a few days for the illness to go away on its own. If it still…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me starting from prison school up until the unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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My reactions and retaliations are valid, normal and justified. Please stop hurting me for the benefit of the perpetrators. I have not done anything to deserve it. With me no matter what happens, it’s always a double edged sword. People hurt me, I react, the world hurts me for my reactions. Whenever something happens, the…
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I have nothing against the old man in my apartment. He said sorry and he seemed to be repenting. I’m just not interested in engaging with him or speaking to him. And when he constantly stalks me and harassed me, I feel repulsed and I start despising him. Because he is just a neighbour and…
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These days whenever I google something online, I see overuse of the word “aggressive”. __ When whatever happened with the monsters at the Kauvery hospital emergency ward, I came back home and cried. I spoke to Will cause I couldn’t handle it. When I opened instagram after talking to him, I saw a meme that…
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The person who was controlling my content and surroundings was the real demon. Because that person was constantly torturing me based on lies and manipulations and calling it karma. That person was constantly trying to silence me and bury the truth. That person was constantly psychologically assaulting me and trying to control me. That person…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life, shit will continue forever and ever. You need to understand this. Most people suck. I’m not the fucking problem here. I’ve already explained everything. __ I want convention. Only then I would be able to take control of the situation better. Problems won’t stop.…
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I request everyone to please keep it platonic with me. I’m not interested in anyone. I already have someone that I love. I’m definitely going to reject you. You are not going to like it when I reject you. So please behave. __ I request everyone to please stop looking at my cleavage and body…
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Most women if not all are bisexual. They are lying if they say otherwise. The person who is controlling my content has been giving examples online by using men in my place in situations. If I use your logic, Does that mean most women are actually men? __ Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t make me…
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I didn’t speak to anyone during my formative years. I was speaking to only God. Hence I don’t have certain human emotions. Because of this reason, I also have a lot of problems and limitations. I cannot do a lot of things that others can easily. I learnt how to speak a few years ago,…
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I just wanted to finish telling my story. That was my only intention. I fought through death to say it. It was a long difficult meandering road. Now that I’ve said everything and cleared my name. I’m okay with dying whenever it happens. I want to experience life with Ginny before that. I want a…
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