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If the world is speaking so much for them and they care so much which is quite irrational considering there wasn’t anything good to hold on to. They might miss me because I silently took their shit and probably no one else did that. But this is getting too tiresome. So yeah. They can reach…
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My experience with them since day one till the very end wasn’t good. There has been nothing but abuse, disrespect and other ugly things. It was extremely unhealthy throughout. Also, I do hear and acknowledge their insecurities and I refuse to partake in it. If they are insecure they need to work on it themselves,…
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I hear and acknowledge. The truth isn’t going to change though that there wasn’t anything of that sort between us. Even with Draco. The truth of what I faced and went through isn’t going to change. But if they care and want to build that, they can reach out and redeem themselves. They can walk…
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I am speaking the truth since day one. There was barely anything between us for the world to obsess over it like this and give the label of groot or dobby or someone else. I went through hell for no fault of mine as well. My reaction and whatever I’m saying is valid and justified.…
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I know for a fact that everyone loves me and knows I’m innocent and I mean well. People’s mind games don’t work on me. I know things and I can read the room. I’m definitely not stupid. Not liking someone when they do you wrong and when something serious happens to you, is normal. My…
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I don’t want the world to speak on behalf of people, they can do it themselves. Whatever I see and hear, I acknowledge and understand. But people need to do the work themselves. Just like how I put in the work to clear my shit. I don’t entertain this leeway because if things go wrong…
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It’s not in my nature to remain helpless. If you think I’m gaming no matter how many times I tell you the truth, I will humour you. I’m going to take that as a challenge, write a fucking game plan and show you bloody gaming for real. Before you mess with me, please understand who…
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So yeah. Break a leg. 😈 “Baby, let the games begin.” (Taylor’s voice with a touch of villian laugh like bwahahaha) (“This is fun, yeah no for real”, Khaleesi smiles. She is wearing a sparkling black top and fluffy white skirt with a cream oversized cardigan and sipping on her matcha tea.)
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Whoever the world is advocating for didn’t have that kinda rapport, connection or friendship with me that’s even worth advocating for. Their inability to reach out and clarify, apologize and fight for the friendship clearly proves my point. The world is just blowing things out of proportion, but whatever. I’ve done everything I can do…
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Just because the world feels I should be friends with someone doesn’t mean I should listen and obey. Everything that I said that everyone did is true 100%. My words are just 20-50% of what they did and the suffering that I went through. If anyone cares so much I’m encouraging them to reach out…
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I’m sorry I’m being repetative. I’m kinda losing track of what I’m saying. I don’t remember most of things I’ve written here as well. I’m literally so fed up.
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I’ve said this before and I’m going to say it again. If you carry love in your heart and when you learn to love everyone from a distance, I feel majority of the problems can be solved. It’s not possible to like everyone because everyone aren’t for everyone. There are billions of people in this…
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I have faced so much serious bullshit in life. All this silly problems are just gibber gabber. I see no point on sitting on the ground to break it down to such minute details. But yeah, I still did that because people were misunderstanding me. ….. I do understand the position I’m at now. I…
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I do think about things from every perspective and POVs. …. I do understand where Winni is coming from. When I was her age, I used to get attached to everyone who spoke to me and called them my bestfriend too. Now that I’m older and I have this experience of people not being permanent.…
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I remember that Bellatrix and I kissed in cab once and she made me hold her dick. I was really disturbed and fucked. I didn’t know what was happening because I was a retard back then. I didn’t know anything back then. Didn’t know to say no and end things. I knew nothing about anything.…
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Please watch my old YouTube videos. I clearly remember talking about trees whenever I went to Indiranagar, I remember continuously speaking about parks and trees and even the MDP tree and trees in Koramangala. Not just speaking but even showing it in my videos. I think I’ve done this even before the Dhruv incident. I’m…
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Quote of the day.
“I would very much like to be excluded from this narrative” – Taylor Swift✨ “I do not want to be a part of this circus. I befriend dragons not jokers.” – Khaleesi.
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No one is dead. Stop obsessing and cribbing like a two year old about forgiveness, pack your bags and move on. Forgiveness will happen organically on a random day in the future if it has to happen. Don’t force it. If you care and love. Put in the efforts, make it right and show the…
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Even if I suffer everyday till my last breath and die alone. Even if I’m called a villain. The truth is not going to change. I know my truth and God saw it with me. Whatever the world is doing is man made. I know for a fact God will take care of things, even…
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I had an expressionless face in the past because I was tortured in all forms in an inhuman way, it’s called “normal reaction to torture”. People like Dhruv constantly staring at my body with his mouth open and eyes bulging out and an extremely disgusting expression on his face like a deranged hyena is called…
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I’m not holding any grudges. I spoke about what happened and what people did because the world made me speak about it. I sat on the road and dissected each and every thing about the accident even if I wasn’t keen on it. I no longer wish to sit on the shit and crib. I’ve…
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My anger because of what happened and what I faced is justified. If I want to forgive or not is subjective and I do not wish to obsess over it, as I already mentioned. So called friends’s inability to reach out and clear things, their lack of effort and lame excuses proves that we never…
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The characters in my story might play a different role in their story or someone else’s story and might have different realities and narrative. But this is who they are in my story and this is my truth. If anyone cares enough and loves me, they would put in the effort to clarify and clear…
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I lay face down on my comforter everyday, close my eyes and think about her. I hug the comforter and imagine I’m hugging her. This is my story since two years.
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I refuse to be conformed, controlled and forced in a confined space like a lake when I’m the fucking mighty ocean. I want to flow like the ocean water free, strong and resilient. The world can give whatever label they wish to give me and say whatever the fuck they want. It has no effect…
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I haven’t looked at her face more than 3 seconds in each interaction. I have never thought about her at all till date. Even when I went to the pub she was never on my mind. I don’t find her attractive in any way whatsoever. She is definitely not my type. Even when I was…
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I said good things about Kreacher initially because I tend to see and speak good about everyone. But now that I know the truth about the betrayal and evil, I don’t like her and I never will again in this lifetime. I don’t care if the world calls me a villain but she is the…
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I choose to suffer every day and die alone than sugarcoat shit and betray myself. I cannot fake it. I’d rather die. I refuse to conform and I refuse to be controlled and forced to accept something that doesn’t serve me or my peace of mind. I’ve already spoken about everything. If the world is…
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Winni isn’t Dobby, she’s Kreacher. This truth isn’t going to change no matter what people do or say. And even if this continues till I die and I’m constantly tortured. Even I’m called a villain and I die alone. The truth prevails. She’s Kreacher. Because I know what happened and what I experienced. The world…
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I have never shared music in an attempt to convey what I’m feeling towards that person. I did that only with Ginny though because I’ve grown up these recent times and I understand these things. I have also sent angry Taylor Swift songs to people I dislike. Other than this there hasn’t been any indirect…
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I ordered sweet recently and after eating that my teeth started hurting really badly and even my throat. I had it the next day again to check and the same thing happened again. I had the same sweet that sister gave and that was good and nothing happened. Also, the bowl of food that I…
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Dear Diary.
Today I was thinking about throwing eggs at couple of my nemesis like Augustus Waters and friends vandalising the ex girlfriend’s car. But my therapist felt that ain’t wise. So I settled with doing that in my imagination. Right now my throat is kind of fucked after eating something spicy. It’s been like this the…
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When I said I’ve done things, I meant only till second base. Just clarifying. I’m not deprived of it. I don’t crave it anymore too. Also, after a certain age it’s like bleh and I want a meaningful thing with the man I’m in love with. I’m done with the casual stuff since I got…
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Deepak GS is 100 times better than Dhruv. And I didn’t even kiss Deepak GS. So you can imagine. I have standards man.
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Even if Dhruv was my age, I wouldn’t like him. I’ve rejected so many men who are 100 times better than disgusting Dhruv. Dhruv lacks a lot of thing. His personality and character sucks. ….. Also, I used bumble when I was bisexual only for a month or so. 2 years ago. Out of the…
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Honestly I do not know what people want from me. I don’t know if people think I’m manipulative or they are calling someone else in my life as manipulative. I do see things. I’m not being smooth as well. This is how I think and speak. And there’s nothing much that I can do about…
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I don’t know why all those things were there in that book. I think I am thinking too much into it. I don’t know. I’m sorry I reacted all shitty. These days I’m losing it little bit. I don’t know what I’m saying or what’s happening or anything. Sometimes I’m unable to make sense of…
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Please forget what I said today. I’ve already spoken about everything millions of times. I got triggered while reading so I repeated it again. I deleted those blogs. Leave it. I really wish people would stop tampering books because it’s triggering even if it isn’t intended to. I’m not if it isn’t, but yeah. Please…
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Just because I’m different doesn’t mean I’m wrong. And just because I was able to clear my name doesn’t mean I’m a mastermind. I have clearly spoken about everything that happened as well. I don’t know what more do people want and why this is prolonging. If whatever happened to me would have happened to…
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Also, I wasn’t really interested in anything or looking for anything because I have been in love with Ginny since I met her. Deepak GS was just a random man I met on a matrimony app. He did not care that I didn’t love him. He didn’t care that I don’t like talking to him.…
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Another reason I didn’t kiss Deepak GS is because I haven’t kissed anyone after I got tonsils. I was no longer interested in casual stuff. Also, after I got tonsils was the exact time Ginny said she in love with me. After that I haven’t really kissed because I wasn’t interested. I kissed only one…
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If someone is insecure about themselves it’s not my fault. I respectfully ask people to stop projecting their insecurities onto me. If I had the same experience that I had with Winni with Modi ji. I would say the same things. If Modi ji starts telling me all his problems after saying hi, I would…
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When someone has changed and grown as a person. And is putting in the efforts and trying. Please don’t bring up their past and taunt them. Please don’t address them based on something they did long ago as well. You can ask for a clarification if it’s bothering you. But once you are done talking…
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If Ginny didn’t have the qualities that I like about her, her looks wouldn’t have impressed me. I think I fell in love with her when I met her for the first time because we spoke continuously for 2 weeks before meeting. She had me with her calls and whatever we spoke. And when I…
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I’m always minding my own business, like always. I don’t think about anyone I meet or know and I’m most definitely not interested in their business. I mean personal life and stuff. When I speak to them, I just keep the conversation going and love them. Later I forget. I have my own priorities and…
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When I’m not comfortable opening up to someone I usually speak about random things to keep the conversation going. I throw in compliments here and there. My friends in the past have complimented me a lot too. I have a lot of experience socializing in my life casually and not casually too. I’m extremely open…
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I have been extremely clear from my end. Everyone knows I always speak the truth. You can fact check everything. I have given all possible proof and put forth points and questions for the world to ponder over. Everything is done from my end. You need to question the integrity of people in question instead…
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When something is hurting me or bothering me or when someone says something to hurt me. Initially I do feel hurt and get fucked even. But I do not like to stay sad about it forever when it keeps prolonging. Simple thing I have learnt is to take away the power from it to hurt…
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I knew Ginny loves me and I was happy just knowing that because I didn’t expect anything. The only thing she has said directly is that she is getting married. Unless she says it, I don’t think we are together? Now I know she wants to be with me and I want it too. But…
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I’m not being the “mad king”. It is extremely clear to the world who are though. My anger and retaliations are justified based on the suffering that I went through. Also, it is just 20-50% of what I went through because of those people.
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Even now Ginny and I aren’t together. Because she hasn’t said anything. I do feel the love. She kinda said it and then she didn’t. Unless she says it and we talk about it, we aren’t. …. I’m saying everything as it is. …. I also asked people to reach out and redeem themselves if…
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I’m not going to lie and say, Ginny and I were in a relationship because we weren’t. We were still getting there. Same way, I’m not going to lie and say, I was friends with Winni because we weren’t. We’ve never had that kinda conversation or even met outside or anything of that sort. The…
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Just because the world feels I need to be friends with someone, I don’t think I need to agree to it. Because I know what was there between me and that person. I’m aware of the experience I had with that person. I know the shit I faced. The world is being extremely hypocritical by…
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I’m the kinda person who lets a lot of things slide, give the benifit of the doubt and see the good in people. I continue to love. I always ask for a clarification before letting go. But once the damage is irreversible there is no going back from there. I can go back when there…
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The world can glorify the demons and call me a villain. I don’t care anymore. I’d rather die as the villian than fake and conform to societal pressure to normalise mistreatment and forgive those who don’t deserve my forgiveness. I forgive only those who deserve it. The truth isn’t going to change even if this…
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Anyone can say they love and care. I value those words only when I see it. I’m the better judge of deciding who stays and who doesn’t because I have first hand experience with everyone. This is prolonging for no reason. But whatever fuck it. I know my truth and God saw it with me.…
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Kreacher knew gaslighting is harassment and it is abuse because I had clearly mentioned it in my blog multiple times. Everyone had stopped gaslighting me back then and things were going good. She knew what she was doing when she was stabbing me savagely. She was smiling a creepy sadistic smile the entire time she…
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Whoever is responsible for all this shit and doing this bullshit. Standing ovation to you man for killing my innocence.
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When you push an innocent person too far, this is what happens. I’ve said the truth a million times but if people are refusing to listen. And you are calling me a villain when I didn’t do anything wrong. I’m moving into my Villian era. I think I understand now when Taylor Swift said she…
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Quotes of the day.
“I’ll be the actress staring in your BAD DREAMS.” – Taylor Swift✨ “I keep my side of the street clean,You wouldn’t know what I mean.” – Taylor Swift✨ “Fuck harmony.” – Khaleesi.
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God made me start YouTube, He sent Ginny at exactly the right time, He gave me this platform to tell my truth and kept me alive to finish it. Whatever people are doing is man made. Wait and watch when God does it. People killed Jesus too. The same way I’m suffering.
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I take back my forgiveness from some people. Some of my nemesis don’t fucking deserve it. Go fuck yourselves and rott in hell you bullshit fuckfaces. IDGAF. I don’t feel love or hate. It’s indifference. If you come near me, I’m going to punch you and throw eggs on you. So stay the fuck away.
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I know I look different but everyone who speaks to me knows that I’m innocent, sweet and harmless. It’s because I spoke about the wrong doings of people that they are bitter. So they are turning the table and highlighting my flaws and using my past misunderstandings to bring me down. It’s extremely convenient for…
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I have never behaved like I’m superior to anyone. I’m always kind, sweet and empathetic to everyone. I love and care about everyone from a distance. Everyone in my community are my friends. But I’m extremely mindful about whom I allow in my life and close circle. I like to keep it healthy and respectful.…
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I’m not saying whatever I’m saying about Kreacher because she is a waitress. It’s because of her personality and the way she behaved with me. For me all are equal. I treat people based on the experience I have with them. People should introspect and think about their behaviour before spreading accusations and insinuating something.…
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God was with me and he saw what happened. He saw me suffer for no fault of mine, when I always meant well. Even if the world refuses to see the truth when it’s in front of them. Justice will be served by God. I’m sure of it. He is seeing the unjust that’s happening…
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She might be good to 100 people but to me she was Kreacher. Constantly cribbing, abusive, disrespectful, backstabbing and extremely sadistic.
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She’s not Dobby, she’s kreacher. Betrayal is her second name like how Kreacher betrays Sirius.
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I never asked anyone to worship me and I didn’t say I’m superior to anyone because everyone knows me and there are books and movies about me and stuff. All I’m saying I expect to be treated like a human being and conventionally. Because I worked hard for it. Gaslighting is harassment and psychological abuse…
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If people are doubting the 19 year old bumble thing. Please create a fake lesbian bumble account and use it for one month. You’ll get to know what happens there and what I was speaking about. I’m not really interested in young people if that’s why this is happening.
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My parents are good now. I don’t hold them accountable for anything. I want them to be peaceful and happy because they are old. I try my best to put in the efforts. I love and care about them. I just wish they reciprocate it and meet me halfway. I wish my mother would forget…
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My truth is out in the open and I’ve cleared all the misunderstandings as well and proved myself. I don’t see a point why people are interfering in my life to this extent anymore. Whatever is happening is happening without my consent. And it needs to stop because it’s wrong. …. I’ve spoken my truth.…
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I will be good to my mom all the time. I have been since I forgave them. I keep trying to talk to her and make conversations. I try to maintain peace and love. She never talks much. But when I shout after mother triggers me, mother always says, “you became so distant, I lost…
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The waitress lied and the lie worked out in her favor, so she stuck to it and used it in her advantage. She isn’t Dobby. And she can never be in this lifetime. …. The truth isn’t going to change even if I’m considered the villian and if this continues till I die. ….. Every…
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Mother has been trying to trigger me since quite some time now. I have been noticing without giving a reaction but today the same thing happened where she stabbed me. I shouted at her and confronted her and she got what she wanted. Later father came running and started boiling and was going to hit…
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If people are considering Draco Malfoy to be Ron. They are wrong because Draco is Draco. I already said a lot things about him. (Please refer previous blogs) I met him in my engineering college and I was bullied by him and Reshma the entire time. They weren’t good to me the entire two years.…
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I don’t feel good since Ginny blocked me. My heart is aching. On top of that, my health isn’t completely fine. I’m getting disturbed repeating the same thing over and over again. I’m losing track of what I’m saying. I don’t feel good at all. Please just let me be. I do not understand why…
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How many times to tell the same thing? Like what do people want? If they are on my side and supporting and understanding and all that stuff. What is the point of all this things that’s going on? Like what is expected from me? For fucks sake what do people want?
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I don’t understand what people want from me? Why are everyone supporting me and also at the same time wearing white and talking about playing? Like what is expected from me? This is madness. I’m sure everyone knows I’m innocent but like WTH do they want? OMG.
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I’m speaking the truth and I’ve already spoken about everything. If the world is doing this because of the so called friends. I have clearly shown the truth to the world as well. They don’t have the fucking audacity to text me because both of us know I’m speaking the truth. Hence they are staying…
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I have no interest or any kind of affection towards anyone I stopped speaking with to rekindle things after what they did. I did the work, I have healed and I do not at any cost miss them because I know what I went through and how much I suffered. I have forgiven them and…
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I’m scared to read as well. My body is on lowkey alert. It will take some time. Even when I open social media. I brace myself for the unexpected.
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I think I’m wrong about the food. It’s because of the trauma that I went through recently, I don’t know. Sometimes the memories haunt me. I don’t eat outside because of this reason. It’s better if I don’t create any drama and conflict. Till I learn to trust completely again. I’m sorry. Things have been…
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I don’t have any strange powers. Everything about me is out in the open here. I’m alive because I’m different. I’m good at healing myself. It’s my mind and my thoughts. My words are helping everyone, so it’s quite obvious, isn’t it? I’ve said everything.
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If anyone I stopped speaking with is interested in being my friend, the door is open and I have already made it extremely clear about what is expected. If I was rotting somewhere in an unknown company, some of them would not have cared and most certainly would not be proclaiming their undying affection. I’m…
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I saw the Harry Potter thing online. I had already made it clear that I’m not interested in the elder wand and gave it to Taylor Swift. I don’t understand why people were doubting even after that. Anyway. I asked for the bare minimum money because I want to move out and I don’t want…
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Yesterday morning mother tried her best to make me angry. But it didn’t work. She even said things like I keep opening the door and coming out to shout at her the entire day. Which was true when I was crazy because of the torture and not in recent times. I do not know the…
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The waitress lied that we were friends and that lie worked out for her so she stuck to it. We never had that kinda conversation or rapport or anything for that matter. I have clearly showed that to the world as well. Her lack of effort and lack of ability to show the love and…
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Just because I’m good at my work and I was able to persevere and make it. And things worked out my way. Doesn’t mean everything I do and about me should be doubted to this extreme. …. I’ve already proved myself time and time again. I don’t know what more can be done and why…
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Once I see someone’s true colors and I see the monster inside them. It’s really hard for me to unsee that depending on the harm and suffering that they caused. I’m the better judge of whom I keep in my life and whom I don’t after that happens. Depending on their behaviour and what happens…
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Since my life has always been shit. I’m good at handling, surviving and accepting shit. It’s when good things happen that I do not see it coming. Also, with my YouTube I was just aiming for 2 lakh subscribers and some thousand views. I never thought or even dreamed of being this successful. I don’t…
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Whatever I said about Ginny is true as well. Look, I don’t like speaking about my personal life with anyone. I didn’t say anything more than required to my therapist as well for a long time. I haven’t spoken about Will and Ginny to anyone in my life. I just say bits and pieces. But…
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If the so called friends miss me, it’s because I’m all over the place now and they are reminiscing the unconditional love that I gave them. I’m sure they didn’t find a replacement for a doormat in their life. Because the way they were with me and the way I was treated, wasn’t friendship. I…
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Everything that I said about so called friends in my life is true. I was stupid when I was speaking to them so I loved them as my friend unconditionally. But I’m no longer stupid, hence they aren’t in my life. The overview I gave about everyone is true. …. I had a lot of…
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I’m not manipulative. Everything I have written here is true. I do not know why people are doubting me but this is how I speak and think. I am smart, yes. But I am not at the same time. I didn’t know a lot of things before like the social norms, how to speak, what…
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I’ve addressed everything in an overview, if you need any more specifics let me know. I’ll gladly answer because I’ve accepted this shit life. People are just bullshiting but they don’t know they are dealing with the mother of dragons. Even if they do, that doesn’t stop their BS. I know I’m innocent and I…
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I find something good about everyone I speak to and compliment everyone. Everyone who has spoken to me in the past has done the same to me too. I’m just sweet that’s it. I’ve seen and spoken to a lot of people in my life. I have had a lot of experiences. I know for…
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Also, Akash used to take screenshots of my WhatsApp profile pictures and keeps them in his gallery. He even showed it to me. This was before the beard incident. Please ask him why he was doing that. …. Also, please ask the waitress if she was so bothered by the “staring” why she was continuously…
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People who are wearing white to support the people/person who did me wrong would have reacted much worse if the same thing would have happened to them. I’m handling it much better. This is the reality. There’s nothing much I can do in this situation anymore. I’ve done and said everything. I don’t know why…
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Also, that waitress is not my type. I don’t find her attractive. Just like how straight women don’t like every man they see. Bisexual women don’t like every woman they see. A bisexual woman should be able to say they don’t find any women attractive and their type to their female friend, without their female…
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If people are talking about me touching Akash’s beard, that’s because he was leading me on. Him looking uncomfortable was a facade. You should ask him about the texts he sent me calling me hot continuously and speaking bullshit which made me block him.
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I don’t understand how it’s okay when someone spoils my name, but it’s not okay when I speak the truth about what really happened.
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I think now I get why people are saying gaming. I didn’t win by defeating my enemies. I won because I cleared my name and now finally the world understands me and sees the real me. I spoke whatever I spoke about them because they hurt and betrayed me. I suffered because of them. That…
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I’m not talking shit about people. The world is making me talk shit about them by pulling it more than required. I had let it go. I have accepted my fuck ups. They should also have the ability to accept theirs as well. If they want to say something, they can reach out and say…
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I’m not trying to use this position I have of addressing the world to destroy people. There was a lot of misunderstandings initially about me and my reputation. People were misunderstanding my retaliations. So my only intention was to clear it, so I openly spoke about what happened, what they did and why I retaliated.…
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When Ashwin asked what turns me on last year, I was talking about whatever I liked about Ginny and when I was bisexual what I liked about Symran. I don’t remember exactly what I told him. I wasn’t completely honest with him because I didn’t see a future with him. But certain things are making…
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All the YouTubers that I follow on Instagram, I’ve been watching them since many years now. I got to know Destiny and Hayley recently since a year, I think. I unfollowed them couple of times initially because I didn’t know them well. Because I was watching the podcast of Sara and Destiny regularly, I started…
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People usually maintain a facade and have double standards in front of the world. I have clearly spoken about everything that happened here, without any filters. Everything that I’ve said here is the truth. I usually say white lies when I speak to people, mostly not to hurt them or because I don’t feel comfortable…
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People are making me repeat the same thing again and again and again. Please read my blogs again. Because I have already spoken about the beard incident and what happened at the restaurant and everything else as well. ….
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I remember ashwin, the man I spoke to last year asked me what turns me on. I wasn’t completely honest to him. I don’t know if people are taking whatever I say to these random men I speak to seriously. Sometimes I say white lies to friends and people I randomly speak to. After I…
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I don’t know what people want to know about the beard thing which I haven’t spoken about. I have already said everything.
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I don’t know why people are taking her side and hurting me this way. Even after saying everything multiple times. …. I don’t stare at people. I have openly spoken about everything related to the staring incidents. …. She is just bullshiting if she said something of that sort. It’s because I wasn’t complying to…
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I have never stared at her and I was never interested in her in any way. I know the basic etiquette. I haven’t started at anyone in a really really long time. I was awkward long long ago. I never denied it. I compliment everyone. I’m a really sweet person who tries to see the…
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I don’t know why people are holding on to this thing and hurting me. I’ve already spoken about it multiple times. I’m not the one manipulating. I am speaking the truth. I always speak the truth.
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I don’t remember the exact number of how many times I asked her to meet when I was stepping out. I think it was 2-3 or 3-4. Don’t remember. But I do remember she was continuously and constantly asking me to meet. She didn’t let it go at all.
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Whatever she was doing was abusive, sadistic and forceful. Because she was someone I don’t know. She was forcing her place in my life and the only thing she was doing was using me to dump her problems and constantly asking me to go to her house and meet outside. Without trying to build a…
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I have already spoken about everything, I don’t see why I’m being hurt like this. I asked the waitress to take my picture and she told me all her life problems. It was overwhelming and I didn’t expect that. But I didn’t undermine it and listened and empathized. Even though I was going through something…
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I miss you maanas. My throat and body is fucked and I don’t really feel good. But all I can think about is you. I hope I recover soon, so that I can see you again and things work out finally. I keep thinking I have to take care of myself and feel better again…
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I think whatever happened with Will is called extra marital affair? But we were mostly best friends after his wedding. I was in love with him and I kinda didn’t know what is right and wrong back then. I didn’t really understand much about marriage, relationships and stuff like that. I didn’t know much about…
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I’m not being smooth or anything of that sort. This is how I speak and think. I’m assuming people have been following everything I do since childhood. So I think everyone already knows everything about me. I’m not sure why people are sticking on to hurting me this way if they do. Even after saying…
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I feel so happy when I see the moon, stars, sun and clouds. I’m filled with so much joy when I drink my coffee and see flowers. I love hugging my favorite books. I feel a sense of calm when I sit under a tree and with nature. I keep asking the traffic lights questions.…
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I believe in magic, destiny, unicorns, Santa Clause, Angels, Gaurdian angels, God and so on. I always like to see the good in people and I even tell them. Maybe things around me might be ordinary and not so special. But when you start believing in magic and all those good stuffs, even ordinary things…
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Ginny might have flaws and might even be imperfect, like everyone else in this world, but to my eyes she is celestial and beautiful ✨ Her flaws don’t define her, it’s just a miniscule bit of who she is. I’m not interested in talking about her flaws when I never run out of all the…
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Also, I’m successful because I’m good at my work and I always have a lot of ideas and thoughts. I kept speaking my truth and kept doing my best. It started off because I had a lot of uncontrollable emotions and I kept writing no matter the adversities and near death incidents. And now it’s…
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Everything started because of Voldemort. People I met after that used my helplessness and misunderstandings to their advantage. There has been immense manipulations and bullshit. I did everything I could to clear it these last two years. I’ve shown the truth to the world time and time again and proved myself as well. There’s nothing…
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I don’t know to play chess. I have never played chess in my life. Please ask my parents and sister. I don’t know anything about chess. I only know the word “checkmate”. That’s it. I don’t know anything about poker and playing my ace. I heard it in new Romantics by Taylor Swift, so I…
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I’ve already spoken about everything. I don’t know why people are sticking on to it that I’m gaming and manipulating. I’m not the one doing it. You should question the integrity of people in question. I’ve already proved myself multiple times. I’m unable to take things anymore. Since Ginny blocked me I don’t feel good.…
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Shooting in self defence is a retaliation. i.e. Expelliarmus. It is just 20-50% of Avada kedavra. But so much more powerful because elder wand belonged to Harry and Harry has abundance of love that overpowers and destroys hate and evil anyday. FYI.
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When someone attacks, betrays me, tries to bring me down and tries to spoil my reputation. I kill them in self defence. If you think this is gaming. Then yes, I’m gaming. I’m handling the situation that I’m in much better than anyone in this world can do. People need to reflect on themselves and…
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I did understand my mistakes and what I need to improve on because of what happened. Like, And so forth. So yeah. These are a few things that I have realised. Also, I need to get myself tested because I know I’m different from everyone else.
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I had already spoken everything about my bisexuality and explained it couple of times till 2 months ago. People should have known whatever the waitress said is a lie when she said it. Because I had proved myself and cleared and explained everything since 2 years. But based on her lies I was sexually assaulted…
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I think Ginny was having sex with other women when we were dating. I saw it online and I kinda knew that as well. I got hurt but I didn’t say anything about it because we weren’t in a relationship. We were getting there. We were almost there and shit happened. When I knew that…
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I think it’s also because of my childhood. Since I was in my own world and speaking only to God. Everyone else ceased to exist. I did get turned on when I watched something on TV or when I thought about something and stuff. But I wasn’t really interested or attracted to anyone around me.…
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Ginny was really good at building what we had. She wasn’t desperate as well. She called me home but I was scared. So she waited. She didn’t end things or get angry or force. (Like others I’ve met) She was interested in talking to me even if for some reason she was indecisive about me.…
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I do have a lot of love in me. (Platonic love.) I have love and care for everyone and everything. Hence I’m empathetic and kind always. When I interact with people sometimes it doesn’t go well. Because everyone is not for everyone. It’s not necessary that we like everyone we speak to. I’m entitled to…
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I think it was because I was tortured in all forms that I couldn’t feel sexual attraction. Also, because of the medicines. My twenties was spent being crazy when I should have been dating and making friends normally. Everything was because of what happened with Voldemort. …. I’ve dated a lot casually since 2019. I’ve…
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I have already addressed everything about the “staring” incidents. I’m not sure why people are sticking on to it. I started realising about things that I do and myself after I started doing YouTube. Yes, I’m aware that I’m different. Because no one else speaks like me. I’m not sure why I’m different though. I…
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I don’t smile when I take revenge and kill people. I might write it, but I do not smile in reality. I’m not sadistic like the jokers.
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I was a fangirl since childhood. Whenever I read something I copy it. After Voldemort used hurcrux for the first time, I broke down and I was really mad at her. I kinda stopped speaking to her and the group. I didn’t know to speak back then, I was still learning. So I couldn’t tell…
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I saw reels online of Taylor Swift looking at the crowd with the caption “she won” 2 months ago. So I used the same words that “I won” because I knew for a fact that was meant for me. Because things were going good 2 months ago. So I thought okay I won the battle.…
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Please check my old bank statements. You’ll get proof of all the money I’ve transferred to Bellatrix.
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Lucius and her ex boyfriend were extremely shady. They were a part of a shady business where they took huge amount of money from innocent people and cheated them. They tried it on me but I didn’t fall for it and her boyfriend said I will never come up in life and rott in Askaban.…
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I fucking haven’t done anything and I’m innocent. If anyone wants clarification on something, you can ask me. I can show you the fucking truth. I didn’t know to speak before so a lot of immense bullshit happened to me. But no more. Now I know how to speak and I’m going to fight for…
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I see a lot of BS online which isn’t true and holds no relavence. I no longer want to clarify anything or entertain this. Whoever wants to talk can directly text and clarify things. I have spoken my truth and my POV on what happened. I have spoken my truth. If anyone has a truth…
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I don’t know why people are not seeing that I was suicidal and suffering and going to die for years because of them and what they did. I don’t know why the world is being blindsided about what I went through. The only thing I did was retaliate. They started it. I don’t know why…
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I have never dominated anyone or kept anyone under me. I don’t know where all these things are coming from. People keep trying to keep me under their foot and they use me and mistreat me. I just expect respect as a human being and I expect my space and boundaries to be respected.
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I don’t miss anyone when I see friendship online because I’ve never been lucky to have that till now. There has been no good memories with people who were there in my life. There has been only hurt and trauma. Because of the situation that I’m in a lot of shit keeps happening in my…
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I’m not saying everyone treated me badly and I don’t like talking to people at all. There has been some really good people in my life who were good to me whom I think about sometimes. I’m no longer in contact with them though. Because I know that’s life. People aren’t permanent.
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I’ve never been lucky to have good female friendships. I went through tremendous amount of suffering and pain and I was kept under people’s foot like a doormat. I was constantly used and abused and taken advantage of. I went through a lot of pain when I was with them and even after I cut…
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The people who did me wrong abused me to a point that I was going to die and I went through enourmous suffering because of their behaviour. So I retaliated when I was in that much pain because of them. I was constantly suicidal. I suffered for a really long time, even after I cut…
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I’m happy to see that Mr Naidu has found friends in the apartment and he is happy. We weren’t really compatible. So I’m happy to see that he has found people whom he gets along with. …. Even if friends walk in front of me or I see friends online, I do not miss anyone…
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I know people hating on me and trying to hurt me online and everywhere I go is intentional and it is planned. Ginny blocking me is also part of the plan. I’m not stupid. Whatever people do, the truth is not going to change. I don’t miss anyone people are expecting me to miss. It’s…
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Whatever people are doing is not true. I know for a fact Ginny is in love with me and she was being out of character. She has blocked me because of the world. I can feel the love from her. I’m not stupid. No matter how many times the world talks about “friends”, the monstrosity…
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I see the eyes emoji, closest friends, Darr movie etc. Honestly, I don’t know what people are expecting from me or what they want me to say about these things which hasn’t been said already. I was constantly mistreated by the people in the past. I didn’t have self respect, self love or ego. I…
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Feelings are not permanent and it’s ever changing. Even if I feel suicidal at times. It is just a feeling and the feeling doesn’t last, if I have the strength and courage to get through the feeling and let it pass. If I don’t like someone because of some reason, that feeling can change with…
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I used the word “power move” because people use it for Taylor Swift. Because she owned the snake in reputation and she rerecorded her albums. So I copied that word and did the same. I don’t know the origin of the word power move or what it actually means. I assumed the meaning based on…
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Everyone who speaks to me knows I’m good, harmless and innocent. It’s when I don’t comply with what they want and things don’t go their way, that they turn tables and try to make me look bad by highlighting my difference. It conveniently works out for them because I’m different and because of my past…
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Even if that person at 46 does love and care about me, it wasn’t evident or seen in the interaction that we had. She was just using me to vent and that’s it. After whatever happened to me, the way I reacted is normal. I went through something really serious and traumatic after that, which…
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The person at 46 might have liked me because of what I have done for this world and the changes I made etc. But I was speaking the truth when I said there was nothing between us. We never had that kinda conversation and never met outside or anything of that sort. We hardly spoke…
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Deepak GS never loved me, he was just saying it without meaning it. Because I never saw it on his eyes. He was just desperate to marry because his bestfriend got married and he was bored. He told me he loved me and I said no. The next minute he asked me where he can…
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If people are wearing white and black because of that waitress. I have already explained everything that happened and inspite of everything that I went through and her extreme betrayal, I still allowed room for misunderstandings and even reached out for clarification. I have already showed the truth to the world and it is staring…
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I’m not God to know someone’s POV or their side of the story when we are in different universes with different realities. Just calling someone a friend isn’t enough, people should also learn to “be a friend”. Anyone call anyone their friend, but only when you be a friend is when the word becomes valuable.…
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Instead of taunting me you should question the integrity of people in question. Because I have proved myself multiple times. …. If someone is interested in being my friend, I expect them to make equal efforts, have hard conversations when things go wrong, have the ability to clarify things and own their fuck up and…
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I was waiting for people to reach out to me and no one did. My therapist asked me to DM the waitress couple of times in the last session, so I did. Because I value her words. I asked for a clarification from that person even though she betrayed me so extremely. But she didn’t…
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I was constantly having conversation with the person at 46 about their uniforms. It was always really hot weather whenever I went there and everyone who were working there was wearing an uniform with thick material. So I suggested that they should be wearing an uniform made of cotton or something light. (I also mentioned…
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Because the world pressurized, I reached out to the waitress for clarification, even though I was betrayed by her in an extreme way. She didn’t respond. Hence I’m moving on.
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People can wear whatever color they want because it doesn’t bother me anymore or even matter in any way anymore. I have taken that power away for it to bother me in my own way. Also, I have spoken my truth here about everything. How the world reacts or what they do isn’t really in…
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The last blog is called “The colors”. I forgot to complete the title. (aaah I’ve become such a scatter brain) Also, I haven’t read Mahabharata and I haven’t watched GoT. I’m just incorporating things seamlessly in my fanfics without understanding the complete reasoning behind things or the back story. I apologize if something is out…
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(fanfic) Khaleesi is sitting on the ground near a cliff. The ocean is flowing calmly below the cliff. There is a hum in the enormity. She is wearing an elegant white flowing gown that brings out the brown of her skin and makes her look angelic even. She adores that color. She removes her black…
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Ginny can do anything she wants. I never get angry or fucked in the head. She can come late, wear white, ask me to stop texting. Anything. I just go along with it. I’m just waiting for her to unblock me because my heart is in pain.
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People are being so hypocritical if they are expecting me to talk to someone who kept me under their foot like a doormat and continuosly stamped and mistreated me. I have been extremely transparent about everything and I clearly explained why I stopped speaking to people as well. I have not done anything wrong to…
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I’ve already spoken about everything. I’ve already given my reasons on why I’m not reaching out. Whoever is saying they care can come forward and clarify and fight for it. Because that’s what people who love you would do. I know the basic etiquette because I learnt it. I haven’t fucking stared at anyone in…
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“karma is a cat Purring in my lap ’cause it loves me Flexing like a goddamn acrobat Me and karma vibe like that” – Taylor Swift✨ ….. It’s me, I’m the cat. (pun intended :P) Cannot imagine a world without Taylor Swift in it. … I’m literally accepting defeat. If people are calling me a…
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If I’m savage for retaliating which is 20-50% of what someone did to me, so be it. God saw the truth. God saw the demon inside people who did me wrong along with me.
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Two months ago, everyone had stopped gaslighting me. Everywhere I went, people were treating me good and they didn’t gaslight me. But after the incident of me telling the waitress at 46 I don’t trust people easily so I don’t accept anyone in my life. The next I went there. She asked me to find…
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I’m not gaming. I’m fighting and advocating for my truth. If people are adamant that I’m gaming and always trying to win. I also accepted defeat and allowed room for misunderstandings and encouraged people to reach out. I’m trying to fucking show to the world the truth that when someone cares and loves you, they…
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If they are missing me and they are claiming to have love and they feel there’s misunderstandings. I’m encouraging them to come forward and clear it. Also, fight for the love they are saying they have. …. I’m not sure why I’m being taunted for someone else’s mistakes, flaws and inability to accept their fuck…
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If people I stopped speaking with are missing me, it’s because they miss having a doormat in their life. Because we were never friends, I was a doormat. That’s it. Now that I’m successful and my face is all over the place they must be repenting and I’m sure they are also bitter because I…
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I am where I am because of Ginny. I was able to reach here because of her and I was able to do what I did because of her. I am a better person because of her. There is nothing she can do that will make me dislike her. Because I’m alive today because of…
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Even if the world doesn’t bring me justice, I know for sure God will. Because He was with me the entire time and He saw what happened along with me. Hence I’m unbothered.
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More than a lot of things happened to me. A lot of people tried to silence me again and again and again and wanted me dead time and time again. A lot of people tried to bring me down when I was rising and tried to dim my light multiple times. But I still held…
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You should question the integrity of people in question and not torture me this way. Because I’ve already said everything.
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I do see things online and I do understand it as well, but it’s far away from the truth. People are just twisting the truth to shift blame and avoid accountability. I’ve already spoken about and addressed every single thing. I have accepted all my mistakes unabashedly as well and addressed why and what. Most…
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I don’t know why people hurt me when I speak the truth about something that someone did. I do understand that I’m putting it in a public platform in front of the world. But am I supposed to keep quiet about what happened when I’m being misunderstood and my reputation is at stake? The only…
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Things are more than a little difficult right now and beyond what a normal person can handle. With whatever my father still does, Ginny has blocked me everywhere, I’m being gaslighted even now, I cannot read because I’m being attacked through books, my health isn’t completely good and so on. On top of all this,…
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I don’t know why people are speaking about “friends” and showing me Draco, Lucius Malfoy and others. I have spoken about it since day one. About every single thing that they did and that happened. When I was speaking to them I was innocent and naive and did use the word friends. I did miss…
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The other day when I got ready and came out of the bedroom, father was facing the tv but was looking at me with the corner of his eyes. So that he can stare at me when I come out. I said what are you staring at and he looked forward. This incident is still…
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I’m not sure why I’m being taunted for someone else’s mistakes and character flaws. I didn’t deserve what I went through but I’m still letting it go because there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it than let it go. Instead of taunting me you should probably question the integrity of the people in question.…
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I think I should not eat outside till I’m completely okay health wise and trust wise. It’s not the restaurants fault. Don’t take it personally. I’m still little scared to eat. Please ignore me and what I said.
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What happened was extremely traumatic and overwhelming. I’m over it. But the residual is still there. Hence I’m still in fighter mode and still very reactive. I think I’m looping as well? Aaah. Please ignore me if I’m not making sense. I’m sorry.
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I’m sorry if something I said was not meant for me or was not meant to hurt me. I need some time to trust again and be completely okay again. I’m alright now but not completely. I’m finding it bit difficult after the enormity of what happened. Please ignore me if I’m saying something that…
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There is something in Daisy Haites about a social activist who was way high up and then she lost her mind which was well deserved. I don’t know if it is meant as an attack to me. It isn’t true though because I’m very much sane and I have risen above the drama as always.…
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I wasn’t playing games. I have already spoken about it and cleared it. But people are sticking on to it like with glue. So I’m not interested any more to correct anyone because after I say something 30 times, I stop caring who is right and who is wrong and think whatever.
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I’m just waiting for Ginny to unblock me. I’m waiting for my money too, so that I can go to Canada to meet Ginny. I don’t know what people want from me anymore and it’s getting too annoying so I’m going to stop giving a fuck. OMG. please leave me alone.
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I don’t really know why everyone are expecting me to be friends with these people, even after saying what happened? So absurd and hypocritical. But yeah, they can reach out and clear things if they care about me. I’m trying to keep an open mind.
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If I have to miss someone there should be something good between us to miss. It’s normal not to miss someone who has only given me trauma, abuse and disrespect. … I’m a 33 year old woman. I know what’s right and what’s wrong. I know what I want. Whatever people are doing is childish…
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Whenever I see friends walking in front of me or online. I don’t miss the people the world is expecting me to miss, because as I have expressed multiple times, there was absolutely no good memories with them. Even if this goes on till my last breath, this reality remains. Because it’s the truth that…
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My entire life is here. There’s absolutely nothing left to say. I haven’t spoken about conversation level of what happened because I don’t think I need to go that deep? I’ve even said things that’s none of anyone’s business, like my personal life details. I don’t know what more do people want from me.
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Below is my contact list. These are the only numbers on my phone. If anyone is interested to speak and clear things. I insist they reach out.
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People are committed to misunderstanding me. I guess it’s because they feel I’m misunderstanding the people I stopped speaking with? Hence I’m giving them the benefit of the doubt and asking them to reach out and clear things. There is honestly nothing I can do anymore. I don’t see the point of why I’m being…
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There’s nothing left for me to say or do anymore. I don’t really know what is expected from me as well and what is the intention behind people hurting me. Everyone already knows I’m innocent and I’m speaking the truth. I don’t know why this is prolonging, tbh.
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I was in a lot of trauma because of the sexual assault and I did call her to clear things as well, immediately after it happened, but she continuously harrassed me. I did do my bit before letting it go. Now I don’t even have her number. If she wants to clear things she has…
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Also about Dhruv. (I’ve already spoken about everything) I don’t know why it is being mentioned in the audiobook as well and why things are being pulled so far. Friendship with him wasn’t working out since the beginning because he always wanted more and I was never interested. I always said no to his advances…
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Since the friendship was not working out with the waitress because she was continuously and consistently mistreating me. (I’ve spoken about it before) I said a white lie that I don’t trust people easily because I did not want to hurt her. I asked her not to feel bad and left. The next time I…
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I’m not sure what is the intention behind white because it’s beyond me and I can’t read anyone’s mind. I’m not Edward fucking Cullen. If people are expecting me to be friends with someone, I’ve already spoken about it in previous blogs. It’s quite hypocritical but I still allowed room for misunderstandings. If people are…
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I think everyone already knows I’m innocent and I’m speaking the truth. I’ve cleared everything. I’m not sure why this is prolonging. Also, I accepted defeat and allowed room for misunderstandings. I encouraged people who are claiming to miss me to reach out and clear the misunderstandings as well. This is honestly not on me…
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Even I used to consider everyone I spoke to as my “friend” before. I trusted blindly and I was betrayed left right and centre. There has been so many casual friendships and people in my life after that. People kept coming and going. Hence I stopped using the word “friend” loosely. I don’t give away…
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Whoever tried to bring me down and dim my light by spreading lies about me, I just have one thing to say to you. God saw what you did, remember this. God will bring me justice even if the world doesn’t.
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Also, I’m not gaming. I’m fighting for my innocence and truth by putting across valid points and questions. Because no one else will fight for me. I’ve showed the truth to the world as well but they are refusing to see it and accept it.
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Even if this continues till my last breath and I die alone. The truth is not going to change and I am speaking the truth. I don’t miss anyone because as I have repeated multiple times there was absolutely nothing to miss. I can’t force myself or fake it. If there’s a misunderstanding, I’m accepting…
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I’ve already spoken about everything. I’m accepting there could be a misunderstanding as well. I’m also encouraging the people who are screaming to the world “we are friends” to reach out and clear it. I don’t miss anyone or any of those things because I’m speaking the truth as always. I don’t see a point…
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I don’t remember ignoring Ginny’s messages ever. That sounds so absurd. I don’t even know why people are saying this. … Also, I’m teaching people how to treat me. I do not under any circumstances allow disrespect and abuse etc. If I go back, this shit they are doing of staying in the shadows and…
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I’m not stupid not to understand when Ginny is being out of character. I didn’t get it at first and was even suicidal one whole night. But after a while I got it. I might be slow but I’m definitely not stupid. Well, not anymore at least. Anyway.
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Even after being continuously tortured and scrutinized. Also, after the multiple near death incidents if I’m still saying the same thing. People should have the basic understanding that I’m speaking the truth.
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I was continuously mistreated and disrespected by this person who everyone are taking sides with and I was treated like a doormat by her. I have never seen or felt the love, care and missing which she so diligently screaming to the world that she has for me. People are comparing her to Harry giving…
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I’m not always right. I fuck up too. My consciousness is clear because when I fuck up, I own it and apologize, I try my best make things right and redeem myself.
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I’m always harmless and cute. Everyone who speaks to me knows that. No one ever has a problem with me and everyone always likes me. Because I have zero ego and I was always available and sweet. People are just bitter because I spoke the truth about them or refused to be their friend or…
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I did see a reel online. Dhruv is the one with the dirty mind and not me. The reel that I saw is not the truth about what happened. He is twisting the truth.
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I do see what people are trying to do by using my same words that I used for the person at 46 on me. But what people don’t understand is that, whatever I said to her is correct and within context of the conversation. But people who are close to me using the same words…
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Something really small got blown out of proportion and a lot of serious things happened. I did my best to solve the problem and cleared everything in the best I could. I have openly spoken about and cleared all the manipulations as well. Because I’m in the public eye a lot things keeps happening. Most…
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This can go on till I die. I haven’t done anything wrong and my values are always good. Just because I love Ginny unconditionally, doesn’t mean I will be okay with her taking sides with someone whom she doesn’t know. And hurting me like this based on that. I have clearly explained everything and expressed…
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Note.
Whom I accept in my close circle is my personal choice based on the experience I have with each individual. Also, it is not humanly possible for me to accept every single person I speak to casually in my life. And just because I do not accept them in my circle doesn’t reduce their value…
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Note.
If Ginny ended it for this reason, I have nothing left to say to her. She should ask me or talk about it. I don’t know what to say anymore.
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Note.
It’s not easy to come out of something like what happened to me. But I still am continuing to do that by myself. I’m under a lot of stress even now because it was extremely traumatic. People even wanted me dead, attacked me through books and my throat got fucked. I haven’t picked up a…
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I went through a lot these last two months when I didn’t deserve it and when it wasn’t my fault. Because of that I have been extremely fucked in the head. The entire world was coming at me. It was beyond stressful and also, there was so many misunderstandings that people had created. It was…
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Note.
If the world is continuing to wear white and black and the lady hurting me yesterday and every other hurtful thing that is happening to me is in an attempt for me to go back to people I stopped speaking with. As I have already expressed multiple times, I’d rather die alone and suffer. I…
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It’s really hard to live with parents when they are constantly wanting me to be sick even after everything is over and done. Honestly, I’m fed up of these manipulations and constantly trying to trigger me to get a reaction out of me. I’m a human being, I’ve gone through a lot in life. I…
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Note.
Whatever happened with the lady and what happened at home after that was planned and staged, to trigger me and fuck me up. Everything is making sense. It’s like someone wants to keep the drama going. … Honestly, I’m fed up of this shit. Everything is over and done. Whoever is doing all this bullshit…
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Note.
Honestly, after whatever I went through. I still feel shaken because of it. Even though things seem to be fine now. It’s still not completely fine. Maybe the auto incident and the avacado incident wasn’t intentional and it might be an accident. Not sure but might be. But whatever the lady did was intentional. Because…
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Note.
Someone was extremely desperate to spoil my name and bring me down. I fought continuously and cleared everything. But it’s still not over. These are the things that’s still going on. I know the whole world is reading this. Someone please step up and help me out of this situation. There is so many internal…
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Note.
Today I was minding my business and sitting outside at night and a lady came and intentionally harassed and demeaned me. The whole thing felt planned to hurt me by the way she was speaking. I don’t know who or what, but it was extremely clear it was planned by what she said and the…
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Heaven.
I feel sometimes we should just believe and not question it. Because sometimes that belief is everything for a person and I don’t want to take it away or shake their belief with technicality and reasoning. I don’t want to pick a fight as well. Because somethings are just there to make life meaningful and…
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Heaven.
For quite some time now, I had this thought that we should make heaven in where we are. I took it upon me and tried to solve problem after problem and tried to help. Untangle the tough knots. Tried to make it easier and tried to make the world better. Tried to make people understand…
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Authors Note.
I don’t know if everyone got the easter eggs. I’m going to leave it to the imagination of the readers. Not going to explain. iykyk.
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The Eternal Light.
(fanfic) Slowly everyone joins Khaleesi at Mount Khailash. They are facing the eternal light and praying with her heads bent down. Khaleesi, “Dear God, please give us the strength to fight and make heaven of where we are and find peace in now, instead of longing and waiting for an unknown heaven. Please give us…
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The Vigilantes.
(fanfic) The other ethereal beings rises up from the raging fire below like phoenixes and stands behind her at Mount Khailash. Everyone are looking at the enternal light in front of them.
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She’s unstoppable.
(fanfic) There is a gallow in front of the mansion. There is a clown standing next to it smiling so much that it is extremely creepy. The clown’s purpose of life is to frame the innocents and kill them in the gallow while maintaining the creepy smile. Khaleesi looks at the clown with an ethereal…
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The Story continues.
(fanfic) The alive silver snake that Khaleesi is wearing proudly around her neck as an ornament begins to hiss. There is a cemetery next to the mansion. There are numerous skeletons in the cemetery. Each of the skeletons are holding Nintendo switch in their hands. Khaleesi turns towards her right and in a crisp and…
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The Return.
(fanfic) It’s a quiet late friday evening. There is cold breezing rushing through the leaves of the trees making it rustle. Khaleesi is gliding through a farm wearing a flowy sparkling silver dress. There is a sparkling silver half moon in the sky right on top of her which is moving along with her. She…
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Note.
When someone spoils my reputation, my name, abuses, assaults, harasses, disrepects, traumatizes, betrayes me and other ugly stuff. Oh I’m most definitely not going to be “nice”. I’m going to ask everybody but their dog to fuck off. Quotes for the day✨ “You told everyone I’m a bitch, so I became it.” – Gayle. “I…
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Note.
This friendship, love and missing me that they are so loudly screaming to the world is fucking non existent. ’cause if there was truth to it, I would have seen it. .. Whoever has hacked my phone and is continuously attacking me. It needs to stop. The truth is in the open now.
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Note.
I’m not going to pacify anyone’s mistakes. I’m not interested in feeding someone’s ego. I’m not interested in pleasing anyone. I’m not interested in making amends for someone’s horrendous behaviour. I was fucking disrespected, my trust was broken, I was betrayed, I was assaulted and harrassed, I went through tremendous pain and suffering. Because of…
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Note.
Draco told me herself she likes to dominate people and keep them under her. Karan Punjabi told me himself that everyone stops talking to him because of his anger issues because he keeps shouting at them.
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Note.
I think “I can’t see” must be that people are doubting my eyesight issue? Whenever I go to Lenskart they check my eyesight power with a big machine. They ask me to look at a house inside the machine to check my power. I insist people to fact check at Lenskart. I might be slow…
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Note.
I see eyes everywhere. I have no clue why people call me a cat for something I did so long ago which I already spoke about. Whatever I do with my niece is just playing. We keep irritating each other and playing. I do a lot of things to make her laugh, that’s it. Whenever…
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Note.
I have endured disrespect my entire life and I was under people’s foot like a doormat. Right now I’m asking for respect and fighting for it. I’m not going to conform to societal pressure to normalise mistreatment and disrespect. Unless I take a stand for myself and stand up for myself this will continue forever.…
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Note.
People are asking me to do something by going against myself, my values, core beliefs, my mind and my heart. I fucking can’t. I love myself a lot to betray myself. I will never betray myself. I’d rather die than betray myself. Betraying me is betraying God. I will never do that. I choose to…
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Note.
Whenever I talk to someone, I forgive a lot of things and let things slide and keep loving them. Till they cross the threshold and I go through enourmous suffering. After I go through that suffering and heal from it. No matter what happens I can never go back because it keeps hitting me like…
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I’d rather suffer every day for the rest of my life than go back. If I’m saying this, I have strong reasons for it. I cannot fake it even if it costs my life. Please should respect my decisions because it’s my personal decisions. People should understand what they are doing is outrageously wrong. Till…
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Note.
Everyone knows I’m speaking the truth and what happened to me was outrageously wrong and inhuman. But the world is committed to misunderstanding me and hurting me. The world should be empathizing with me for everything that I went through, but this what’s happening. I don’t know why people are doing this? I haven’t done…
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Someone wanted to destroy me and dim my light and they succeeded in it. As long as this continues, I’m no longer interested in anything. Even if the world crashes and burns, I don’t fucking care. If this is how people are treating me even when the truth is out in the open, why the…
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Note.
I’m being exploited, used, taken advantage of, mistreated and controlled. And people all over the world are copying me and winning awards, making millions of dollars, excelling in life. Whereas I’m being continuously harrassed by gaslighting brutally. People continuously abuse and assualt me and later spoil my name by spreading lies and manipulations. And when…
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Note.
I do understand the whole world gets to know everything that I speak. Which isn’t my fault to begin with. But does that mean I’m not supposed to speak the truth about the assaults and harassments that I went through? When people are spoiling my name and reputation to avoid accountability? How is it okay…
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Quote of the day.
“And I don’t really care if nobody else believes, ‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me.” – Rachel Platten.
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Note.
God was with me and He saw everything that happened. Even if the world triumphs the evil, they will definitely not be spared in the court of God. Because in the court of God, truth is what suffices. He saw what I went through. I know for sure he will bring me justice even if…
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Note.
I didn’t lose the war. People are choosing to ignore the truth, what I went through and my suffering even though everyone knows I’m innocent. People are choosing to misunderstand me intentionally and are taking the side of people who did me wrong. They are choosing to triumph the evil and making the one who…
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Note.
This can go on till I die. Even if I die alone and as a villain, I don’t fucking care. My decision holds. I refuse to conform to societal pressure and throw away my values. I know the truth and God knows it as well. I don’t need to prove it anymore. I’ve said a…
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Note.
I don’t have any grudge against anyone. I have forgiven them. I have love and care for them as a human being. But I cannot do more than this because I do not like them. I have said this multiple times. If anyone is interested to clear things they can fucking do it. Instead of…
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Note.
If whatever happened to me would have happened to anyone else in this world, a lot of people would be in trouble. But because it’s me people are not respecting my words, controlling me, harassing me and forcing me. People even wanted me dead. My life and dreams were not valued because I openly spoke…
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I know what happened and what I went through. I know the truth about how much I suffered and what they did. I’m not going to conform to societal pressure to normalise disrespect, abuse, mistreatment, betrayal and trauma and name it friendship. This can go on till I die, but I will not go back…
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Note.
I’m sure Kim has a different perception to what happened and I’m sure if Taylor and Kim speak to each other they will realise that no one was wrong or right and it was a misunderstanding. But why is the world not controlling Taylor’s life and her life decisions?
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Note.
Someone continuously ogling at my body is sexual assault. Someone continuously sticking their body forcefully to mine is mental and physical assault. And so on. If there has been only trauma, abuse, assualt and disrespect in that particular relationship and there has been not even a single good thing to hold on to. Letting it…
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Note.
If you are seeing pictures of us. People don’t know the BTS trauma. I was innocent, naive and didn’t know better and thought that was friendship and stayed in it for a long time. I loved unconditionally back then. It’s after I grew up and gained an understanding, after therapy and educating myself that I…
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Note.
I started writing here because there were so many things that happened in my life that I had not spoken to anyone about. Like so many things. Also, after I realised I’m normal and I don’t have any perception problem and also that people were misunderstanding me and there was this immense bullshit that was…
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Note.
If there is a truth about the people in question which is contrary to what I’ve said. And they are saying we were friends and they love, care and miss me, why am I not seeing it in their actions. Where is this love, care and missing? Because I don’t see it. Because if there…
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Also, when I feel genuine love, care and friendship from someone, I will most definitely not let that person go because I know how precious and rare that is. Since I haven’t felt that, I’m not going back. … These people in the past are not reaching out to me because they don’t have the…
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Note.
Calling someone who continuously assaulted and abused me a deranged hyena or a leech is nothing. It’s hardly even 10%. My retaliations are not even half of what I went through and how much I suffered because of that person and the trauma I had to endure. Everyone knows this. I don’t know why people…
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Note.
I know for a fact that everyone knows I’m innocent and I’m speaking the truth. People are just committed to misunderstanding me. It could be because they are trying to get me to talk to people in the past by trying to convey that I’m misunderstanding them. But as I have already expressed multiple times…
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I’m unable to handle whatever is happening anymore. The 1000 blogs I have written over these years was trashed in a second. I don’t really know what exactly went wrong but I’ve said everything and cleared everything and kept fighting. Everything I did so far and we went through together is ignored over a silly…
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Note.
I have used so many other fancy words and given so many other stupid examples. I feel people were just waiting for a loop hole if they are sticking on to this one thing and taking it negatively and pulling it unnecessarily. I’m not sure why everything else that I built is being overlooked over…
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I’m being pressurized mentally and psychologically in an outrageously inhuman way. All I’m doing is fighting for my innocence since day one. I’m fighting not playing. I just use fancy words sometimes to add color to what I say. That’s it. Please stop holding onto that one thing out of 100s and pulling it more…
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Note.
I have given so many anology throughout my fanfiction since day one. I have used so many words and examples throughout. I already explained why I used the word “checkmate” and “power move”. It’s because it sounded befitting. People are taking that one example out of 100s of examples that I’ve put forth since the…
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Note.
Anger is a normal reaction to sexual and mental assualts. Everytime I was angry in the past, it is justified because so was the intensity of abuse that I had to endure. It is normal.
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Note.
If there is mental and sexual abuse, trauma, two face manipulations, unnecessary drama, disrespect and other ugly things in a relationship. And it is always overwhelming and draining. Ending things is something anyone would do.
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Note.
When that person at 46 was continuously using me to dump her problems and crib. I always listened and helped, by putting my needs aside. I always made her feel better. I didn’t speak about movies or shit. Yes, I did speak about light things sometimes too. But I always helped as well. See I…
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Note.
I know for a fact that everyone knows I’m innocent and I’m not gaming. Everyone knows I’m good and I didn’t do anything wrong as well. I’ve spoken about everything as well. I feel people are just intentionally taunting me to hurt me. But I’m not sure why. … I don’t know why people feel…
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Note.
I don’t know why people are continuing to taunt me. There’s nothing left to say. Whatever it is people should openly talk about it and get it over with, I can’t read minds. This is prolonging unnecessarily. I’m aware that everything was cleared one month back and things were going good. After whatever happened at…
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Note.
Also, I was constantly fighting for my innocence and the truth by putting across valid points and questions. So that the world can think and realise that the accusations are false. This isn’t gaming. I’m advocating for myself because there is no else who will fight for me. I didn’t know how to talk when…
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Note.
When someone kills me, I kill them back in self defence. If they damage my ship with their evil and I’m sinking, I’m going to take them down with me with the truth. I’m not evil, they are. I’m the vigilente.
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Note.
Every single thing I’ve said is the truth. I know that, God knows that and every single person in this world knows that. Everything is out in the open. Your black and white shit and inability to take accountability doesn’t affect me bitch.
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Note.
People from my past are in a purgatory. I don’t want to go back. I want to soar high and free like a phoenix.
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Note.
Dobby would rather die than let anything happen to Harry Potter. Because of the manipulations and lies of these two faced people, people wanted me dead 2 weeks ago. Before someone calls themselves as Dobby please come close to his standards. Before someone calls themselves Sirius or Ron, bloody come close to their standards. People…
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Note.
I look at people casually sometimes at home and when I go out. I’ve noticed a lot of people do that too. I don’t “stare”. I know the basic etiquette cause I learnt it. Staring was a phase after I started speaking with the intention of making friends and it passed. I’ve already spoken about…
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I’m always looking down. I look up when someone speaks to me to read their expressions. But I’m terrible at maintaining eye contact because I’m shy. I look up when I like someone, but it’s only with men. I look at them when they aren’t looking at me. When they look at me, I don’t…
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Note.
Also, I never look at someone’s eyes for more than few seconds because I’m always shy and reserved. I haven’t done that with Ginny as well and I’m in love with her. I haven’t looked at anyone’s face like how people are accusing me of. I do read expressions but I have not looked like…
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Note.
You should ask her why she consistently asked me to go to her house after the pimple incident. You should ask her why she did that when we were complete strangers. She is nice. I don’t deny that. I find something good in everyone I meet and I tell them that. I compliment everyone. But…
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Note.
I asked her to meet 2 times when I was stepping out myself. But the plan didn’t happen nor was I excited about it. So I let it go. That’s what people do in such cases. I’ve given word by word explanation as well.
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Note.
Also, most importantly I have never felt comfortable or safe in this person’s presence. The energy was completely off, disrespectful and abusive.
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Note.
Also, I was constantly forced to go to her house and to meet her. The energy was off because when the plan gets cancelled few times people let it go and ask again after sometime has passed. If it’s a relationship it’s different and this behaviour is understandable. If it’s your bestfriend, it makes sense…
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Note.
Taking advantage of someone’s kindness and empathy and forcing yourself in their life to dump on them constantly without respecting them is not friendship. When there is nothing else happening in this relationship apart from this, it is definitely not friendship. I’m not saying venting to a friend is wrong. If someone likes me and…
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Note.
I refuse to give and share when this is how I’m being treated. I refuse to be used and exploited. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity. I’ve spoken about and untangled all the immense manipulations. I’ve risen above the chaos time and time again. I’ve shown the truth to the world. The world knows…
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Note.
Everyone knows my content is good because the world has been making content out of my content. I didn’t say anything about it or even ask for direct credit. I’m a human being. Obviously I won’t like it when I’m being exploited. When my life and content is used this way without any recognition. The…
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Note.
People are just speaking and supporting rubbish even though they know that the rubbish isn’t true. Because I’ve already spoken about everything and proved myself. Everyone knows I’m innocent as well. This is continuing to go on for no reason and also because I’m hugely successful. As I already said, I’m successful because I’m good…
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Note.
People need to realise that no matter what you do, you can’t make someone love you and choose you. Because the person you love is a totally different human being with different mind and heart. I just spoke about how I feel about Ginny here. I’ve been doing this since day one. I did that…
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Note.
People should learn to treat me right. They should understand things and know when they are wrong. I need respect as a human being and convention for what I’m doing. I need other basic human rights as well like privacy, space and respect for my boundary and decisions. People should understand that controlling my life…
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Note.
Some people tried to bring me down and dim my light. I fought for the truth, proved myself and I have shown the truth to the world as well. I know for a fact that everything is over and done. This is simply prolonging for no reason as I stated in the previous blog. Someone…
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Note.
When someone hurts me a lot and betrays me, I think of ways to hurt them back. With the truth obviously. Most of the time it’s the things I overlooked or let slide. When people don’t care about me and manipulate and lie. I don’t think I should care about them and it’s okay to…
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Note.
I insist people who are doing this to check the screen time of each porn video that I’ve seen. If that’s possible. Also, I’m not into poly shit. You need to let it go.
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Note.
A boy in my class used to call me shorty lime. Those were strange times. This the only relevance to lemon I can think of. …. I remember telling Ginny, I like dick not vagina. I was trying to convey that I like men more than women. Because my feelings for women are very rare…
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Note.
I saw the word lemon few times and based on google search, this is the only thing that’s relevant. … My friends in college were into smutty fanfiction during my 11th and 12th. I would read it too because I copied my friends back then. I didn’t read it all the way through each time.…
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Note.
I had already spoken about everything and cleared my name. Because I openly spoke about my experiences. People were digging up things that were buried in an attempt to shift blame and bring me down. All these were based on someone’s lies and manipulations. Someone who wanted to dim my light. I don’t know why…
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I don’t put a positive twist to everything. I’m really good at empathizing and making people feel better. I just don’t appreciate it when a random stranger whom I asked to take my picture dumps all her problems on me. And consistently and constantly does it every time she sees me and takes advantage of…
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Note.
I know for a fact that everyone knows I’m speaking the truth and I’m innocent. I’m not sure why people are refusing to accept it and they are committed to misunderstanding me and harassing me online and everywhere I go. I don’t understand this. … Also, I spoke openly about what everyone did because my…
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Note.
I started watching porn because of my guy friend. I don’t remember who it was. I always copy everything my friends do. I did it because they did it. Prashant is the one who told me what to watch, how to watch etc. I blindly followed. I never liked it though. I have spoken about…
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Note.
I don’t remember what exactly I saw on TV or how old I was. But I remember I was watching TV and doing my homework. I saw something and copied it. I used to copy from books and TV at that time because I wasn’t speaking to anyone else. I kept doing what I saw…
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I’m speaking about each and every person and what they did because people are making me talk about them. These things aren’t so important and I have let it go. I don’t know why people are so obsessed over each and every thing and breaking down my life. I don’t know why this is prolonging…
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Note.
During the fight with Deepak GS. When I confronted him about the “kiss me” incident, he also said that if I don’t want to kiss him before marriage let’s get married. He said in matrimony website no one talks to each other and people are there in the app just to get married. He said…
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Note.
My entire childhood I was talking to God so I never felt lonely or the need for a friend. Honestly I didn’t know no one wanted to play with me as well. I was kinda in my own world and constantly talking to God. People were continuously hurting me but it had no effect on…
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Note.
I think I already spoke about Deepak GS and Ashwin. The two men whom I genuinely tried to fall in love with and marry last year. I don’t know why I have to repeat again. But yeah, I will do so. I spoke to Deepak GS for one month. I met him 3 times. We…
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Note.
If people are calling batman an inmate in the asylum with the jokers and implying that I’m Batman. So be it. I was crazy in the past, I already explained why. Right now I might be slightly crazy and quirky. I won’t deny it. Everyone in this world are slightly crazy and imperfect. Some more…
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Note.
When I had channa for lunch it was fine, but when I had the same thing in the evening my throat got fucked. For dinner mother fried potatoes. There were so many hair in it. I don’t know what exactly is intentional and what isn’t. I’m just writing everything that is happening and being clear…
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Note.
When I say someone doesn’t love and care about me genuinely it is the truth because I have experienced it, that’s why I’m saying it. I know the truth. There is a lot of manipulations that goes on because I’m in the public eye. People need to understand this. If I’m staying strong and not…
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Note.
I know that people who are hurting me online and everywhere are doing it intentionally and they don’t mean it. So I’m just letting it slide and ignoring. I do understand when someone is trying to trigger me as well. I’ve already proved my sanity and spoken about the manipulations. I do understand things I’m…
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Note.
I have been continuously proving myself in front of the world. I don’t know why people are doubting me and holding on to my one Instagram post, which I’ve already given explanation for. Now I’ve started hating that song, tbh. I’m not fucking playing any games. I don’t know why people are holding on to…
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Note.
If people are doing this so that they want me to be friends with people I stopped speaking with. I have already expressed this multiple times that I’m not interested. I have forgiven them and I care about them as a human being from a distance but I cannot do more than this. I do…
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Note.
I don’t know what exactly is the reason behind everyone continuing to hurt me even after explaining everything. Yes, I do understand that everyone knows everything about me and all my mistakes and flaws included. But I did speak about everything and why and what happened. I don’t know why this is prolonging even after…
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Note.
Oh and for the record. If I was that little boy’s parent or teacher. I would have sat with him, asked him questions in an empathetic way and made him talk because obviously little kids don’t know shit. Do you see where people are messing up and going wrong?
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Note.
I’m not playing games or lying. I’m tired of hearing this shit because everyone knows I’m speaking the truth and this is simply prolonging. Also, I’m just putting across valid points and questions for the accusations and insinuations that’s thrown at me. This isn’t a game. I’m fighting for my rights, innocence and sanity. So…
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Note.
A little boy was staring at me when I went out today. I have spoken about everything. I’m not sure why people are continuing to do whatever they are doing. Honestly, I didn’t think anything much about the incident. People are just trying to shift the blame on me instead of accepting that they fucked…
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I’ve said everything. Everyone knows it’s the truth. Everything is over and done with. I don’t see why this is prolonging and why people are taunting me continuously through news, Instagram and YouTube. Also, there was a man outside my window in the morning playing a clip on his phone stating someone wants to kill…
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I do see things online. I’m going to say it again anyway. Betraying one or two times can be forgiven if there is a foundation and connection. Like Ron betraying Harry. But if there is absolutely no friendship like the friendship between Ron and Harry. Whatever people are trying to convey doesn’t hold. I’ve already…
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Note.
Calling me owl/cat based on something that happened when I was a teenager many many years ago is wrong. I already said, it was because my mind was underdeveloped and also because of the continuous assaults. I’ve clearly spoken about it and explained all the manipulations as well. … I don’t know why people hurt…
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Note.
All this started because of what happened at the restaurant, I have already cleared and spoken about it multiple times. People were expecting me to be friends with people I stopped speaking with. I clearly explained why I can’t. I clearly explained that my retaliations are 20-50% of what the other person did and I…
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Note.
People are just lying and manipulating. I don’t have even one single good memory with the people in the past. Not even one. If you are seeing pictures of us, you don’t know the BTS of each picture. But I do. I know the trauma behind each picture. They were extremely abusive, condescending, monstrous, dominating,…
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Note.
Everyone whom I met in my life aren’t bad. There are some people whom I met who were really good, I like them even now as a person. But our friendship fell out, so I don’t call them my friends. It’s because of the situation I’m in and because I’m in the public eye, there’s…
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Note.
Draco didn’t block me till I openly started speaking about what he did 2 years ago. It was as though he was encouraging the abuse and my suffering because of his behaviour. But when I started stripping off his mask, I was blocked. Others did the same. It’s because of that that I spoke about…
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Note.
They did whatever they did and they try to keep a good name and save face. You can clearly know this because people in the past didn’t block me after what they did. It’s like they were encouraging a reaction. If whatever I was saying was hurting them in reality, they should have blocked me.…
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Note.
I realise things late. I don’t realise it as it happens. Sometimes I realise after 5 years and sometimes after 10. Sometimes after few months. So as and when I realise it, I confront the person. My therapist encouraged me to do this. She also said it’s okay to confront when I realise because they…
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Note.
Yesterday my throat was fixed but in the night mother gave me really cold food and I started feeling weird again. I saw few things online meant to trigger me. Today morning mother tried her best to trigger me, but it didn’t work. Father tried to add to the fuel. I confronted them and ended…
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I already told you, I’ve met some really good people in my life. I met a man couple of years ago. The first time we met, it was a date and we kissed. But we decided it’s not working and stayed friends. We were friends for a year. He is a really good person and…
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I’ve said this many times, please ask me whatever it is that people want clarification on. I’m not sure why I’m being attacked through books. I don’t know why people torture me, instead just ask? I’m getting scared to read again. I’m so fed up.
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They are manipulating the truth in a way to make it sound convincing by taking advantage of my past misunderstandings because they are just bitter. And people are conveniently believing their lies because I’m different and feeling for them. Instead of pointing out my flaws, people in question should introspect their fuck ups.
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I’ve had healthy male friendships in the past where I was same as how I was with Dhruv. I’ve spoken to a lot of people casually in my life and stopped speaking to them. Alot of people have stopped speaking to me too. All these things ended peacefully without any drama and cheap manipulations. But…
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I clearly said no to all his advances. Also, he knew I was extremely sick when I hugged him and I openly spoke about Ginny and cried as well. I have never lead him on. I have always kept it healthy. I have read about male bestfriends in books and watched it in movies/series. I…
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I don’t see anything wrong in holding male friend’s hand and hugging them or saying I love you to them. I’ve done that so many times in the past. No one has ever doubted me or created any drama before. But it’s my mistake, I should have cut Dhruv off when I knew he is…
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No sorry wait. I got the timeline wrong. I wasn’t upset when I met Dhruv for the last time because of the reels incident with Ginny. I was upset because I pushed Ginny because I was going to die.
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People made me famous without my knowledge and consent. I made the best of the cards I was handed and I was just trying my best to prove my innocence and sanity. I didn’t know I was successful until I started watching movies and came out my dreamland of obsessing over Ginny. It’s only few…
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Also I never planned the story I wrote here. I was continuously improvising as I was writing based on whatever was happening to me and whatever understanding I had at the time. It became good because I didn’t give up and kept adding elements as I kept growing and learning.
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I’m not fucking playing games. I don’t know anything about chess. I have never played chess in my life. The only thing I know about chess is the word “check mate”. I used “I’m about to play my ace” because I heard it in New Romantics by Taylor Swift. Honestly I have no fucking clue…
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I have never wanted an open relationship. I don’t know who the fuck started this bullshit. .. I haven’t read Mahabharata, bible, kuran, bhagwat gita or any of those things in my life. I have no fucking clue what’s written in it. Also, I have no clue about cars. I don’t speak car language. I…
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First and foremost I want to make it clear that whatever was written in “days at the morisaki bookshop” is not true. I’m aware that it’s Dhruv’s perception and it is bullshit. Dhruv is one of the most disgusting creepy boy I’ve ever met in my life. He keeps ogling at my body like a…
rachana rajan <3 