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I’m not ashamed of my bisexuality. I’m out and proud. I have a fucking tattoo on my wrist. I directly tell people when I like them. I don’t beat around the bush. I’ve said everything I’ve understood about it. I’ve also made a list. Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t mean I like every tom dick…
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I see the misunderstanding now. Whenever father sneezes I ask him to close his mouth and sneeze. By that I meant, close his mouth with his hand or hanky. I guess people would have thought I was asking him to stop? Omg. I don’t know what other misunderstandings like this does the world have about…
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Mother and father have a lot of good qualities. I’m not going to sideline those and talk about only the bad. I think I’ve already said this. They have some not so good qualities to them and sometimes those qualities overpower the good in them. They need to consciously work on amplifying the good in…
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I brush my teeth just two times a day. I don’t know why mother was saying things like I brush multiple times a day and what she was trying to do by saying that. Also, I’ve been feeling better since last few days. But today morning after I had the dosa mother made. I’m feeling…
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I don’t know what exactly happened or what exactly is happening. But every single thing I’ve said is true. Based on the movies I watched, whatever I see online, books and what my therapist said. I do understand things. But as far as I know I’ve cleared everything. I don’t know why this is prolonging.
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Today morning mother asked me to stop making content. She said my content is not good and everyone are laughing at me. She also says things like my therapist doesn’t care about me and she uses phone when I speak. She says so many other things like this. .. Also, I already explained that I…
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My health is really bad. My mind is fucked too. Please don’t hurt me intentionally again. Atleast for a while. I’m having trouble making sense of things and I have really bad headaches almost daily.
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Even if I’m shouting at something mother or father said, it is a normal reaction to years and years (lifetime) of abuse, assaults and trauma that they put me through. Also, there’s so much manipulation behind whatever they are doing. They are doing it intentionally. Anyone else in my place would most definitely react the…
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People can wear white and black all they want, but it means absolutely nothing to me. If they are trying to convey or imply something, they should just say it and get it over with. Whatever they are doing holds no relavence to me. Invading in my personal space without my consent and constantly reacting…
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Maybe there’s two sides to what happened and people who did me wrong would have given an extremely manipulative version of theirs. Hence the world is feeling for them and the world might think we should speak and be friends again. But the only memories I have of them is horrific. Even if the world…
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I did have issues with my teeth up until few years ago. There was so much happening, I just didn’t do anything about it. But I’ve been taking care of myself regularly since couple of years ago. Also, the dentist I spoke about helped me so much previously. I’m not sure what happened now.
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. Every single person who speaks to me knows that too, even my parents. There is so much immense manipulations. Someone is desperately trying to bring me down. I don’t know who it is. If there is something I haven’t spoken about, you need to ask me. As far as…
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I’ve been using the same paste since many years. I have been feeling really weird in my mouth since last few days, now I realise why. My paste tastes extremely wrong like garlic. So many things are going on. I don’t know whom to say it to and how to get out of this situation.…
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I don’t really have much peace of mind outside. On top of that I don’t have any peace at home as well. Mother doesn’t like it when things are going good and when people like me and I’m in a good place. She told me she wants me to suffer and die and she wants…
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I don’t understand things when it happens, I understand it only after sometime. So I kept going back to the clinic. Honestly the whole experience was really weird and off. The doctor said I don’t need scalling one month back, but then when she did it after I insisted her to do. It stopped bleeding…
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Also, I really don’t like father most of the time. His language, his anger issues, his violence and the way he treats mother. Most of the time it’s just terror. Things are much better now but not completely. Mother is good sometimes. But she is broken because of father and the past. Also, cause of…
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I don’t know how much truth is there in what my mother did today. It’s like the boy who cried wolf. She has faked it so many times that no one really knows the truth anymore.
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I was slightly mentally unstable for all these years because of the inhuman mental, sexual, psychological assaults, rape and the extreme domestic violence. Any normal person would have reacted the same way. I’m normal since last few months though because things are better now around me. I didn’t take care of my hygiene many years…
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Everything that happened at home today morning was intentional as well. Mother started rolling on the floor and started creating extreme drama. She was faking it. I’m not sure why and what exactly is the intention behind it. I’m not sure if the world is watching all this, that’s why she was doing it. There…
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Few months ago I went to crochet class and the teacher was extremely unethical. I didn’t have any bad breath at the time. I’ve been taking care of myself since last few years after I came out of the trauma. But the teacher closed her nose intentionally and did other things as well which was…
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I feel Ginny might come back. But I can’t date under these circumstances. I’m really scared because my parents might sabotage it intentionally. They are extremely broken. I don’t know when they will do what. I’m scared of them. I need to move out.
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When everything is going good at home is when I start getting scared. Because mother lives for drama and she will go to any extent to create it and make me shout. After she is successful in triggering me and I shout is when she constantly tries to gain leverage by willowing in drama and…
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Mother clearly knows my boundaries but she crosses it intentionally each time. She manipulates in a way to make it look extremely convincing. But she is just doing it for a reaction. She doesn’t really care much about me, neither does father. If they did, they wouldn’t have done whatever they did and treated me…
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Father was boiling and being extremely violent today and he hit mother on the face. Whenever mother wants to stab me, she pretends like she wants to use the bathroom to come inside and then she stabs intentionally. When I react, she manipulates and plays the victim and thrives in drama. Father starts to boil…
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Last year when I genuinely tried to find love and get married. All these perfect looking men with perfect car and perfect job and perfect bank account and perfect house and fucking perfect teeth were holding my hand and saying they want to marry me. Also, that they want to grow old with me and…
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I don’t give up on people that easily. So if someone wants me to fight for them after things break between us. You need to give me something to fight for. Otherwise it’s just a baseless relationship that I’ll trash, heal and move on from.
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Sorry I’m repeating myself. My mind is beyond and unimaginably fucked because of what happened and I’m just letting my thoughts flow here. It helps me. So kindly bear with me.
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Whatever happened to me this last month was wrong and horrific. It cannot be justified. Even after relentlessly proving myself this last 2 years and baring my soul in front of the world, it was all thrown away in a second over someone’s lies and a misunderstanding. People even wanted me dead because I spoke…
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People fuck up all the time. We are humans, we will most definitely fuck up time and time again in life. I feel if you have a connection or bond with that person, fuck ups can be ignored. Anything can be solved by speaking about it, putting in efforts and a genuine apology. Also, I…
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If someone is spending their time and energy into writing a book, it is valuable. Not every book that you read need to have a purpose or need to be meaningful or even change the world. Sometimes it can just be a light silly book that you read when you are in the mood for…
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Everyone already knows I’m innocent and sane. I’ve already spoken about everything and cleared it. I never asked anyone to make me famous, it was done without my knowledge. I’m not a fucking power hungry demigod. (I saw this on audible discover page) I just did my best with the cards I was handed with.…
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This is in response to what I see online. Yes, my words are razor sharp. I have a fucking bow and arrow on my leg. If you don’t want me to kill you, stop poking me and waking up the Khaleesi inside me. .. Also, stop sending me pictures of women. I already said I’m…
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Maybe this is not a story about a battle. Maybe this is a story of a little girl who kept praying for world peace even before she knew anything about this world. So God blessed her with abundance of love and made her the chosen one. Maybe this is a story of a little girl…
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I expressed my dislike for couple of books long long ago, yes I agree. If I knew the whole world is listening back then, I wouldn’t have done that. I would have expressed it in a better way. Also, I was a newbie on booktube. I watched couple of similar videos, so I did the…
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I speak in self deprecating way sometimes. Which I have understood may lead to misunderstandings. Also, I constantly feel I’m not good enough when I’m in love because of my past experiences. These are two things I’m working on rn. Also, sometimes I’m just awkward, I wish people didn’t overanalyze and break everything I say/do…
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I was mentally unstable when I met Will, Ginny and my therapist. I give them important because they cared for me and respected me as a person even then. Will and Ginny loved me and saw me when others didn’t. They both have the same quality that I love the most about them, I cannot…
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If those waitresses and Mr Naidu are saying we were “friends”, they are lying in front of the world. Because there was absolutely nothing between us. I’ve had much deeper connection with men I’ve casually dated in the past, tbh. People should learn to let it go. They are blowing things out of proportion for…
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I don’t know why people are continuing to hurt me intentionally. I think their intention is for me to rekindle things with people I stopped speaking with. As I have already expressed multiple times, I’m genuinely not interested. I have forgiven them. I have care and love for them as a human being. But I…
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Everyone knows I’m speaking the truth. I feel no one wants to accept it. I’m not sure what exactly is the reason though.
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Also, it’s really important for the world to understand this. People are extremely manipulative and saving face because the world is listening. I have spoken about everything. It could be my fault because I let things escalate with them. I should have ended it sooner and set boundaries. Whatever harsh words I have used is…
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(This is based on what I have understood) I was not smart growing up. I was good at things like studying, reading and things I often did. But I didn’t know anything back then. I started understanding a lot of things only after therapy and also, specifically after I started speaking to my current therapist.…
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I’ve already spoken about everything and proved my innocence and sanity. Everything was cleared and done with. Everyone knows I’m speaking the truth. All this is happening after I spoke the truth about my experiences. People lack accountability and they lack the courage to accept they fucked up, so they are just shifting blame and…
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I’ve already said everything and proved myself. I don’t know what people in the past must have said about me because no one really tells me anything. I’ve spoken about all the manipulations that people did as far as I’ve understood. I’ve accepted all my mistakes as well. There’s nothing else left for me to…
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The last one month was really very stressful. In the heat of the moment and because of whatever was happening to me, I said a lot of things which was blunt. I want to apologise from the bottom of my heart. I’m sorry if I hurt anyone with my words. I was not in my…
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I still see reels and news online that is meant to hurt me. I’ve already spoken about everything, I’m not sure why people are scrutinizing me this way. This is wrong.
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The product that I returned on Amazon is intentionally lost in transit and they are creating trouble with the refund. I’m going to write each and every manipulations here.
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I have forgiven them and I care about them from a distance. I’m sorry but I can’t do more than this. It’s literally my choice who I allow in my close circle and whom I don’t. I’m entitled to this decision. Even if this continues till I die, my decision holds.
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If this is continuing because people are expecting me to be friends with people I stopped talking to. This is fucking ridiculous. I already explained everything. I’m not interested. I don’t like, care or miss them. They haven’t done anything for me to fight for it as well. I can’t fake friendships and I don’t…
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I’ve spoken about everything. I was the one who was sexually assaulted continuously by psychopaths and ogled at by creepy disgusting people all my life. Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t mean I like every single person I see. Also, it’s just online and very rare. I’m not sure what people want from me and what…
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People are being so ungrateful. I’ve helped so much to make things better for everyone and this is what is happening to me now.
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Volunteers on the road continuously try to attack me every single time I step out too. I don’t know why the government is staying quiet about this. Everyone knows I’m speaking the truth.
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. This is continuing because people lack accountability and someone is desperately trying to save face. I don’t want to die for someone else’s fuck ups. I’m openly talking about every scrutinizy in front of the world, so incase something happens to me tomorrow, you know who’s responsible.
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I’m openly bisexual. I’m out and proud. I’ve explained each and every thing I’ve understood about my bisexuality. I’ve taken names of people I’ve liked as well. If you hear something that doesn’t align with what I’ve said, you can easily catch the lie. I’ve shamelessly and openly spoken about each and every thing about…
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People are trying their best to make me sick. They are sending me reels of the character I relate to dying and they trigger me through news as well. They are trying their very best to make me suspicious. I called audible support and he tried to trigger me via book title by recommending a…
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I see a lot of things online meant to hurt me as well. People are just trying to bring me down. As I’ve already said multiple times. I’ve spoken about everything and accepted all my mistakes as well. This is continuing because people around me lack the capability and courage to accept theirs. Also, people…
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I booked uber auto in the morning, it showed 2 minutes away. The driver made me wait for 6-7 minutes and still didn’t come. I called him, he made an excuse and cancelled the ride. There was a spider in the water of my water bottle when I went out today. There was a man…
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I don’t think Jessa Hastings would have written about what I read in Daisy Haites which is sort of an attack on me. I’m not sure who is responsible for these things.
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My retaliations are 50% of the pain and trauma that the person put me through. I’m not sure why the world is choosing to be blindsided about my pain and calling me a snake for my self defence. If I’m a snake, so be it. I’m proud to be one. .. Also, I’m not sure…
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This is in response to what I see online. I’m not pursueding, I’m educating. What happened to me was wrong. Instead of making it right, people behaved monstrous. If the same thing had happened to someone else, a lot of people would be in trouble. This is the fucking truth.
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This is in response to what I see online. … People I knew were continuously trying to defeat me and bring me down by spoiling my reputation. So I decided to speak the entire truth about them which I was holding back for their benefit. When they didn’t care about me, I don’t think I…
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I have never backstabbed anyone. The waitresses are one among the many people who have been continuously forcing themselves in my life and mistreating me after I became successful. I’m speaking the truth about my experiences. I’m sorry, I don’t know how else to say this but people really don’t know how to behave around…
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I’ve stopped crying for everything. I make jokes and laugh when I’m dying inside. I don’t talk about my trauma and smile always. I’ve cut down on the fucks I give. This is who the world has turned me into. “I am what I am ’cause you trained me”- The queen herself. “If you have…
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Also, you can wear white and black all you want. I don’t give a fuck. I’m not sure if anyone else does. But I definitely don’t.
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. Everyone knows I’m speaking the truth, don’t pretend like you don’t. I’m well aware of the value of my words now. I do not want the best of both worlds. I decide what I want because it’s my fucking life. I don’t want people to decide it for me.…
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People know me from my blogs, YouTube and reality show or whatever it is, I’m not entirely sure. They might like me because of it. They should understand that they know me, yes. But to me they are a complete stranger. I talk to them casually and they might feel a connection because they already…
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Sorry about being so blunt the last couple of blogs. I have so much love in me but people were killing my love. Because of whatever was happening I was becoming this really cold person. I was so hurt, I wanted hurt them back. I wasn’t really thinking properly or in my senses, there was…
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I have never wanted this amount of success and I don’t want to be anyone’s God as well. All this is too much to take, tbh. After I realised what was happening and after thinking it through, I made that list of what I want. That’s it. I also know it’s not too much to…
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People have been speaking about the movie Darr, I do understand why they are saying it. I’m not stupid. But I’m not really forcing her to choose me. I’ve spoken about how I feel about her so that she can make an informed decision and choose whom she wants. I don’t expect anything because I’m…
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Honestly, I didn’t know I was this famous until recently couple of months ago. I knew things but not completely. Until I watched the movie Jawan, I didn’t realise everyone were reading my blogs. I was really upset and going through a lot because of what happened with Ginny and my health. Also, everything that…
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Father has been using really abusive and foul language since last couple of days and behaving extremely angry. My parents have been fighting as well. Today morning father got up and did a lot of things intentionally and started boiling. After that mother and him started fighting. It’s extremely toxic at home. They were fighting…
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Based on my personal experience with my family since childhood till now and what I’ve dealt with and experienced. The way I’m behaving with them is exceptionally good. No one else in this world can do what I’m doing. So I expect no one to judge me as well.
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I do agree that people might be hurting me because of something that happened outside or based on someone’s manipulations. Which is out of context and wrong. But people should also realise that, in doing so they are losing my love and respect. Because whatever they are saying and doing is the personal experience I…
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Also, I don’t have many human emotions like jealousy, greed, pettiness, ego, lust etc. I always think from a place of love. I have a lot of love in me, sometimes I have anger but it is justified. I’ve learnt a lot over the few years. I don’t know what other emotions I have but…
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. This is continuing because people lack accountability. Also, I’m being exploited. I’m putting my foot down and refusing it. I’m not interested in helping or sharing my gift anymore when this is how I’m being treated.
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The whole world can speak for Ginny. But unless she says things herself, it’s not considered. Same way, the whole world can speak for the people who hurt me but unless they open their mouth and say it themselves, it is not considered. Whatever I’ve said and done is right according to the personal experience…
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Even if this continues till my last breath, whatever I’m saying holds. Whatever people are doing is wrong, it’s high time they realised it. I’ve spoken about everything and accepted all my mistakes, it’s time for people to accept theirs. Instead of controlling my life and trying to hurt me, even though everyone knows what…
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If people are expecting me to fight for a so called friendship after whatever they did, I’m sorry but I’m not going to do that. What has that so called friend done for me to fight for it? Is there any good memories? No. Is there something that that person has added in my life…
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Father has been behaving extremely angry and mentally unstable again from last couple of days. He was fine all these months, I think it’s because people were watching. Now he is back to being angry and he is abusing me and mother again. Someone please help me get out of this situation.
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I was sexually assaulted by a waitress on multiple occasions. I was traumatized by the entire experience so I retaliated by using the word leech. I was mistreated by so called friends for many many years and used as a doormat and continuosly stamped, so I abused them couple of times. I don’t see anything…
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I spoke back about people who caused me intense severe trauma by using harsh words, yes I take accountability for it. I’m just giving the trauma they caused back to them. I don’t see anything wrong in it. If you want to call me a snake for it, you can. I’m not sure why people…
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I’m not sure why I didn’t realise these things before and why I was sleeping. I’m not sure why I’m always in my own world. All these people were saying fantasy. I’m not sure what exactly is wrong with me but I was normal my whole life. I don’t want to be anyone’s God, I’m…
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I don’t know what exactly does white and black imply? I’m not really sure what exactly is happening currently? I’ve already spoken about everything. So I’m not sure what is expected right now?
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I think that’s why people were saying veer zaara because I was obsessing about Ginny the entire time and I was caged. God. I’m not sure what exactly I should do or say for this to stop. And people were calling me Jesus and Krishna. I’m so tired of all these things. I don’t know…
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In funny story, Miles texts questions in the form of statements. That’s exactly how I speak. I don’t know what it’s meant to imply. I think when I met Dumbledore for the first time, I asked him what’s wrong with me and a bunch of questions like, “I am gay? I’m sexually attracted to people?…
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During the last year of school, I bought a new pouch which I loved a lot. The person sitting next to me wrote a message on it. I saw that and started to cry because it was my brand new pouch which I loved. Voldemort asked me write cuss words on the pouch because it…
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People broke my favorite mug from Ikea as well. My parents makes my niece wear a white and black dress intentionally. I threw the dress and decided I’ll buy an other dress for her. Honestly, people have been doing so much. Throwing a top doesn’t really matter much. Whatever I did is a tiny speck…
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It’s after the pimple incident that she started calling me home. She called me 7-8 times in the duration that we spoke. I politely declined each time. I don’t feel comfortable going to anyone’s house. I already explained why. Also, I casually spoke to her and she was a complete stranger. So I didn’t want…
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Also we were barely friends, you can ask her, she will tell you the same thing. We casually spoke few times, that’s it. I have never felt comfortable to open up to her, so I haven’t. Even with Mr Naidu, he is my neighbour who spoke to me 3-4 times. I have never felt comfortable…
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I remember touching Winnie’s pimple and saying, if you have a pimple it means someone has a crush on you. I heard this on TV many years ago. I’ve been saying it to everyone who has a pimple ever since to make them feel better. I’m not sure if this holds any relevance but I…
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If someone is doubting my integrity for whatever reason it might be. I’m sorry, I don’t know how to prove it to you that I’m speaking the truth. I’ve done everything I can from my end and in my control. I rest my case. Whatever happens now isn’t in my control. I want what I…
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I want to clarify. I have never looked at anyone’s chest till now in real life. But in the past I was really awkward, so I do get it if that misunderstanding arised. I haven’t done it, but I understand and acknowledge the misunderstanding. Given the circumstances it makes sense. But this applies only for…
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People should learn to respect my decisions and choices. I’m a fully grown adult and I do not like being forced. I’m going to say it again. If I’m ending a so called friendship or a relationship, it is the right decision based on my personal experience with that person. If I have a connection/bond…
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I don’t know who said this bullshit that I stare at their chest. If it is someone whom I met in recent years, you need to understand that it is a lie. Because I have grown up over the years. If it is someone from the past, during childhood or after I started speaking to…
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I’m the one who removed Ginny from my Instagram the last time because it was hurting me too much to see her after she said she doesn’t love me. Also, I was lowkey posting about her and I didn’t want her to see that. I cried for weeks and weeks after I removed her though.…
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There’s absolutely nothing wrong with my perception and I’m sane. Everything that I said happened really did happen. Please don’t believe anything apart from this. People are just trying to save face in front of the world. I always speak the truth. There’s so much internal manipulations going on.
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I didn’t blame mother about the lights. I just asked her firmly 2 times about what happened. She started behaving as though I blamed her in front of father and started faking saying she is feeling weak.
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I confronted mother about the lights, she said my niece did it. I asked again saying niece would never do that and later she started behaving weird and became extremely quiet. I told her there’s nothing wrong with me and she said yes, there’s nothing wrong with you. After father and niece came back from…
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Someone desperately doesn’t want the truth to come out. So they are trying their very best to make me sick and also they want me to suffer and die. They are that desperate. Someone please do something. If anything happens to me, please be aware it’s murder. I see a lot of things online that’s…
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After I took headache medicine one hour back along with my vitamin tablet I got a really bad splitting headache. My christmas lights has been broken as well. People are trying their best to manipulate the truth and make me look sick when I’m normal. They are trying their best to trigger me and make…
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The problem was with me. I didn’t know anything about dating when we were dating. I just knew how to be friends, so we became bestfriends who did stuff. It’s only recently after I started reading all these books that I understood things. Then with therapy and self work, I realised I fucked up. She…
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I always split the bill when I go out or I pay the entire bill. But right before I started dating Ginny, I dated the psychotic perfect man. Among all the things I told you he did, he kept telling me how he hates it when I split the bill because it hurts his ego…
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Another quality that I admire about Ginny is that, she’s not desperate. She was not desperate to kiss or to get physical when we were dating. She called me home few times, I said no. Because I was scared to go till there, I’m not aware of that place. Also, cause I wasn’t ready. She…
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I don’t have anger issues but people have been doing a lot of things intentionally to trigger me and make me angry, on top of that they continuosly stab me intentionally. Which is so sadistic. Shouting is a normal reaction to this kinda barbaric abuse. People sitting in the comfort of their shoes has no…
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I returned funny story by emily henry because she called my laugh “bark laugh” and also whatever she said about mother is not true. I’m over it and have let it go. But I do not want a book that says that, so I returned it. Apart from these two things, it’s a really good…
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No matter what people do they can’t take away the gift God has blessed me with. His presence is always with me.
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Whatever love Ginny has given me is infinite and it’s enough to last a lifetime. I know for sure God sent her to me.
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I never text or call anyone unless I have something important to say. I stopped all that one year ago. I already explained why I stopped speaking to people. I expressed there were further more things that happened. I have been extremely clear about everything. I also expressed if anyone is interested in speaking to…
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People around me are pressurising me to die. They are scrutinizing me badly and constantly stabbing me. There’s a lot of internal manipulations happening. Let the world be aware of this. I’ve spoken the truth about everything and accepted all my mistakes. I want to live. I already said why. If anything happens to me,…
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I used to stand in front of the mirror during childhood and play with clothes. Because I loved clothes, I just didn’t have money to buy them. I absolutely loved books as well. Library period was my favorite period in school. I used to love going to the library. I couldn’t understand everything that I…
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I wanted to be a fashion designer when I was young and also a scientist. One of the teacher was asking us our dream job in turns. The person standing next to me asked me mine and I said fashion designer to her. When it was her turn she copied my answer. After that when…
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Yesterday after whatever happened outside, I tried speaking to my sister. She constantly gaslighted me. I tried telling mother and asked her to speak about something good and she continuously gaslighted me brutally. Father started screaming saying, go hang yourself. After that I asked mother for milk and she gave a milk. After taking a…
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Dhruv was a pervert boy who kept ogling at my body. I kept forgiving him and loved him as my friend because I was desperate for a friend last year. I was desperate to numb my pain with company and hugs. I dated a lot casually as well, but I was never present with them…
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I have a lot of problems. I don’t understand things easily. My reflex is extremely slow as well. I have a lot of anxiety. I have trouble speaking. I read people’s expressions and body language when they speak, I kinda rely on that to understand things. I really like clothes. So I look at clothes.…
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For a very long time, I just did what I was told even if I didn’t want to because I didn’t know to say no. I repeated whatever I heard on TV, read in books and what my friends say. I had zero understanding. After I started becoming mature and normal, Voldemort didn’t like the…
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I was continuously silenced by people. During childhood I was silenced and got lost in my world and started speaking to God. After I started speaking to people, I already spoke about everything that happened. I was silenced after that and made to question my reality. Whenever I tried speaking about the sexual assaults, I…
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I already said multiple times, I was a socially awkward and shy child. My mind was not developed and on top of that I was constantly suicidal because of what was happening around me. Because of that I might have been continuously lost in my world and people would have assumed I’m staring at them.…
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I’m not interested in saving the world, helping, sharing my knowledge or anything when this is how people treat me. I’m done caring. IDGAF anymore.
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The narrow mindedness and atrocities that people are putting me through will go down in history.
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Everything was cleared and buried long ago. People dug up my past again after I spoke about the assaults that I went through to conveniently turn things on me. So that they don’t have to accept what kinda fuck up they really are. They are constantly scrutinizing me as well, even after I spoke about…
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People are behaving like masochistic and sadistic barbaric psychopaths. I don’t care anymore man. I’m no longer interested in sharing my knowledge when this is how people treat me.
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I’ve spoken about everything. Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. I’ve accepted all my mistakes as well. This is continuing because people lack the capability to accept that they fucked up. Hence they are projecting their bitterness on me.
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Women ogle at my body as much as men whenever I step out. Women have equally assaulted me in the past too. Just because I’m openly out and proud people are fucking targetting me. So fucking narrow minded and hypocritical.
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Atleast I’m openly out and proud. Also, I’ve spoken everything about my bisexuality. I’m not like the hypocrite creepy straight women who ogle at my chest and body whenever I wear something revealing and go out.
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I’m the one who is being scrutinized when I’m the one who got hurt because of what happened. I was just speaking the truth about my experiences. I don’t understand why people who assualted me aren’t facing any consequences and everyone are turning things around on me. Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. Why are…
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This is in response to a reel I saw online. Women compliment each other all the time and hype each other up. I don’t know what me being bisexual has got to do with this. I don’t understand why I’m not allowed to compliment people without people taking it in a wrong sense. I was…
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I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity. I’ve spoken the truth about what everyone did. I want to live. If anything happens to me, please be aware that it’s murder.
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Every unfair thing that happens to me I’m going to write it here. Till it stops. I’m not going to say how I cope because I’m not getting anything out of it, except for mistreatment.
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I gave a list of books to audible for content genaration 2 years ago. I’ve been following up since 2 years regularly. Last time I called, I asked the agent to read out the list and he said there is no such list present at all. He took down the names after that and then…
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People are intentionally trying their best to hurt me and make me angry. I don’t know why the world is not doing anything about this. Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane.
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The whole world is reading this, I don’t know why people are choosing to keep quiet about this attrocity?
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Yesterday after my walk, I was tired so I wanted to use the lift. The lift immediately went down and cam up. There was a big lizard in the lift when it came up. Also, I wanted to watch Veer Zaara, but it’s not present in my bookmyshow app. I know for a fact it’s…
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I don’t deserve this kinda treatment. I fucking haven’t done anything to anyone. I just spoke the truth about what happened to me.
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Dear Diary.
Today I went for Vijay’s movie. I clearly checked the trigger warning before going, it was stated as “family movie U/A rating” so I decided to go. But it had so much violence in it, I came back half way. I had my lunch. After that I was kind of feeling sad because I was…
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An extremely creepy looking women was ogling at my chest near the gate of my apartment just now.
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I think I might need medicine because I have headache sometimes. Also, I get paranoid thoughts sometimes because of what people do. I’m not sure though?
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Okay, I’m ready to talk to people. I don’t know who wants to talk to me? I think I’m still blocked?
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Dear Diary.
I’ve been practicing forgiveness and compassion daily since quite some time now because my parents are old. Now that some time has passed, it comes naturally and I no longer feel any anger towards them.
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There’s so many internal manipulations like this. Everyone knows whatever I’m saying is true in their hearts. But no one will admit it. I’ve spoken about everything and accepted all my mistakes as well because I do not want to leave any room for misunderstandings. People manipulate the truth a lot because the whole world…
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I hadn’t done scalling in 3 years so there was blood when I brushed. (This was 2 months ago) I went to the dentist, the dentist said scalling is not required and when I showed my cavity, they gaslighted me saying there is no medical term for it. They asked me to use mouth wash…
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I don’t want to die. I’m finally normal and I want to be with Ginny. If in any case I die, please consider it as murder. I’m telling this in front of the whole fucking world. There’s a lot of internal manipulations going on. I’ve spoken the truth about everything.
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Yesterday on the road volunteers were forcefully trying to talk to me, even though I politely declined. They kept forcing without the basic decency of personal space and I just walked away. My throat was fucked and doctor asked me to eat sapota and orange and when I ordered that, I was given sapota that…
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When I close my eyes I remember the first time I heard her voice. When we spoke about that song from varanam aayiram and I remember my heart sinking from that moment on. The first time I looked at her and she started laughing, omg that laugh. What will I give to see that again.…
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Dudley was always competitive and always trying her best to bring me down and prove that she is better than me. I didn’t realise that because I was innocent. She didn’t have a problem with me till I spoke to her bestfriend. It’s after that the problems started and she started spreading false rumours when…
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The people in the past never had a problem with me when I was a doormat. They were getting a ego boost because I was always available and they just wanted someone to keep under their foot and dump their trash. They started having a problem with me only after I changed and started talking…
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Don’t turn things around and show me my flaws, I’m well aware of all my flaws. Accept your fuck ups.
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I’m not sure why people call me cat for something I did 15 years ago which I already spoke about. These days I do not do that. I’ve stopped it long long ago. I casually look at people when I go out. I’ve seen a lot of people casually look at me too. So I…
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I’m not sure who is this person who spoke about me looking at their chest because it’s a big fat lie. I’m not even attracted to women in real life. I’m attracted to women online but it comes and goes. I’ve already made a list. I’ll let you know when I’m bisexual again. You need…
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You can ask Ginny as well, I said no to Ginny too whenever she called me home in the beginning, even though I loved her. I regret it a lot though. It’s one of the biggest regrets that I have because I love her so much now.
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The person in 46 used to continuously call me to her house since the beginning which I found off putting because I was just speaking to her casually. She was forcing herself in my life. Because of my past experiences I never go to anyone’s house. Unfortunately I don’t feel safe around women as well…
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Also, I had few behavioural issues which I’ve learnt over time and changed. I’m extremely empathetic, kind and friendly. Hence everyone who talks to me dumps their problems on me and takes advantage of my kindness. I have learnt to draw healthy boundaries in therapy. I have also realised that I’m supposed to have unconditional…
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I feel if someone has problems they should work on it in therapy. Therapy should be normalised. It’s because of all the people I’ve met in my life who don’t take up therapy and lack basic humanness, empathy and understanding that I had to take up therapy.
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When I’m talking to someone and what they are speaking is negative or sexual or something that I don’t agree with, I always divert the conversation to something simpler. Like trees, food, music or something that I see around that I love. I try to make them grateful about life. I always keep conversations light,…
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I tried being friends with the person at 46 and called her to meet once or twice in the middle of all that that was going on. But it just wasn’t working and I realised I wasn’t excited to meet her because as I said there was no connection and I wasn’t comfortable with her.…
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It’s really important for me to feel comfortable in someone’s presence to be their friend and open up to them or love them even. I have let go of a lot of people for this reason. I have let go of quite a lot of good looking and wealthy men as well because I wasn’t…
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Also, please don’t copy me and show me my flaws. Whatever people are doing is “out of context and wrong.” I have never done what people are claiming I did by copying me. Whatever I did was innocently, everyone was aware of that. Whatever people are doing is intentionally. Also, people lie as well because…
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I have already repeated this multiple times. I have never had friends in my life apart from Will and Ginny. I don’t miss or care about anyone from my past. I already expressed why. I have zero good memories with them. Also, with the waitress at 46, there was absolutely no friendship in the picture.…
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“We don’t get to choose if we get hurt in this world, but we do have a say in who hurts us. I know I like my choices.” – Augustus Waters. To quote Augustus Waters, the only person in this world who I’m okay with hurting me is Ginny Weasley. I have unconditional love only…
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Please don’t turn things around on me and show me my flaws. What people are doing is out of context and wrong. I’m well aware of all my flaws and shortcomings. I’ve spoken about everything and accepted all my mistakes. Now it’s time for people to accept their fuck ups.
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Gaslighting is harassment and betrayal. Period. I refuse to conform to societal pressure and normalize mistreatment. If I’m accepting someone in my life and giving them a valuable label as my friend, I need to feel comfortable and safe with them. I’m the better judge of deciding that based on the personal experience I have…
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Unfortunately, I have never had friends in my life. I’m okay with that. I’ve been lucky to find friendship in love and I’m grateful for it. Whatever decision I’ve made to end a so called friendship or end things with a man, is the right decision based on my personal experience with that person. My…
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I think Ginny is going to come back. Before she does, I want to move out. I want what I asked for before that happens, which is actually bare minimum for what I’ve done. Please give this to me first. I want some freedom before I start dating. This is really important to me.
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I don’t think Deadpool’s villian was called Cassandra by mistake. She can read people’s minds and she said she wants to be God. She was also mentally unstable. So I guess people are trying to reference Taylor Swift saying no one believed me because I was mentally unstable in the past? Also, cause I can…
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Even if I abuse someone or stand up for myself, it is right accordingly to what they did and the trauma they caused. The world just sees my reaction and they just know their side of the story which would be a manipulated version. And the world hurts me which is always out of context…
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I’m able to understand this has become really big and apparently I’m as famous as Michael Jackson. I’ve also come to realise that my words have been making a huge impact as well. I have been crying over Ginny so much that I didn’t realise anything else. I think I was sleeping. I kinda tend…
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I’m not sure why people call me a cat for something I did 15 years ago? Also, I explained everything. Everyone knows I always speak the truth, if people wanted to know something they can ask me. I’m not sure why I’m being tortured? I get fed up too. I’m not sure why people choose…
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I have already proved my innocence and sanity. I have also cleared all the misunderstandings. I’m also mostly healed. I don’t think it’s necessary for me to write here or make videos anymore. Unless, there’s something I want to convey. Because I’m not getting anything out of it. I’m not interested in saving the world…
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A lot of internal manipulations have been happening, people have been trying their very best to trigger me and make me shout. People have been trying their best to make me suspicious. I had already proved my innocence long ago. But people dug it up after I spoke about the sexual assaults to conveniently turn…
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Honestly, if this is how people behave after everything and also, after clearly explaining what happened. I don’t know, it’ll take some time for me start caring again. I’m a human being too, people tend to forget that. I need some time to recover completely. I still see a lot of things online where people…
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I cry only when I think about Ginny. When people do whatever they do, I get fucked up and go into trauma. I’ve learnt couple of things over time to deal with things and cope, so I’m able to recover. But honestly, I’m really really fed up. I’m not interested in sharing them considering how…
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I’m really sorry for repeating things multiple times. I’m so fucking fed up. People forget I’m a human being. I’m so fed up. I’m sorry but I’m not like other famous people. I have a lot of problems. Please just let me be. I’m always just minding my own business.
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An apology from people who did that could have sorted this. But it became so big and out of hand. Also, there was barely any friendship in the picture as well. I’m not holding anyone accountable or raising any complaint for what happened. I didn’t want anyone to get in trouble or loose their job…
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I don’t know why I keep repeating the same thing. It’s like every time someone does something or says something, I put it here. But unfortunately I have to repeat things multiple times for people to understand it.
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I do not want the best of both worlds. I want what I asked for. I decide what I want, I don’t want people to decide it. Also, whatever I said about the so called friends in the past is true. They were disrespectful, extremely condescending and I was kept under their foot like a…
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Also, please stop using the word cat to refer to me. Just because my niece looks at everyone when she is a toddler doesn’t mean she would be described as that even after she grows up into an adult. I’ve grown up a lot from 15 years ago. I’ve already said everything. Please don’t use…
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People manipulate the truth a lot to bring down the people who are at the top and successful. A lot of internal manipulations are going on. You would have understood this by now because of what happened with Voldemort, Lucius and others. I’ve already cleared everything. Please don’t believe anything you hear about me, unless…
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Someone is desperately trying to bring me down. India is getting the attention it is getting because of me. If Modi ji is reading this, could you please step up and do something please? I’ve spoken about everything and cleared everything. I’ve proved my innocence and sanity. I’m finally normal, I want to live my…
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The whole world is reading this. I don’t know why everyone are choosing to be quite about this?
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Honestly I’m not interested in sharing my content and helping anymore if this is how people treat me. Even after explaining and clearing everything, this how they treat me. I see even articles online trying to hurt me intentionally saying things like “I just don’t quit” etc. So many internal manipulations are happening this way.
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People keep gaslighting me wherever I go intentionally to hurt me, even in situations where it is not required. There intention is to hurt me. I’m not sure why because I haven’t done anything to anyone. I already spoke about and explained everything. Even in lakme, they were doing it. They kept saying higher prices…
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Today I went to color my hair and autos were refusing rides, in rameshwaram cafe they kept calling me crazy indirectly. In lakme they disconnected my call and refused the discount which was promised, I kept insisting and finally got my hair colored. I just persisted through the day. I don’t know why people were…
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I know I’m not crazy, that’s not my name and I don’t identify with it. But if someone keeps saying crazy in front of me, it just shows what kinda person they are. It doesn’t say anything about me. God bless their soul.
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When I said the door is open, I was speaking about the people whom I stopped speaking to. Just clarifying even if it is obvious.
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If Ginny is going to come back, I want her only and only after I get what I asked for. Also, the door is open if anyone is interested in speaking to me. I’m not really looking for friends at the moment because as I explained my plate is full. But if anyone is interested…
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I haven’t blocked anyone whom I stopped speaking to. If anyone is interested to speak, they can. But I’m not going to initiate because I haven’t done anything wrong. The message is conveyed. The rest is upto them.
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I find the waitress at 46 really pretty and the way she speaks is nice, when she pauses she pouts which is cute. Not just pretty, she is a good person too. She knows how to behave and she is friendly. Honestly, I have nothing against her. I’m just not looking for friends at the…
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Also, the notes app thing is my idea. I don’t know why my therapist said it’s hers when we spoke. But yeah, she did help me with a lot of things. I was extremely broken when I started therapy because of what happened to me and the assaults. Now I’m in a good place because…
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All the misunderstandings were cleared long ago. Do you see how people dug up the past that was cleared long ago after I spoke about the sexual assaults? It’s because they didn’t want to accept their fuck ups and they wanted to conveniently turn things on me. Do you see the manipulations that’s going on?…
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I always speak the truth. I’ve written down every single thought since 2 years. There’s a lot of manipulations that’s happening around me internally to bring me down and also, people are trying to save face. But I’ve risen beyond it and held on till now. And cleared every single thing and proved my sanity…
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I’ve spoken about and explained every single thing that happened. I’ve even spoken about things that’s none of anyone’s business. The world needs to understand that people are extremely good at bringing down people who are at the top by spreading false things about them, manipulating and spreading rumours that’s not true. Whatever misunderstandings there…
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I’m calling the men who sexually assaulted me as barbaric cavemen. And also people who felt it’s okay to torture me the way they did whenever I went out. I’m literally so fed up. I’m not talking about anyone else.
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Also, the YouTubers that I spoke about aren’t really my friends real time because we don’t actually text and we haven’t met. Maybe sometime in the future that might happen or it might not because no one knows what’ll happen tomorrow. But I do feel a connection, I don’t know if it’s just from my…
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A 16-19 year old girl with an underdeveloped mind of a toddler looking at people with an intention to make friends is different from fully grown creepy men staring at a 33 year old woman’s breast. Understand your mistakes. Also, I have never in my life stared at anyone’s body even when I was 16-19…
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Wearing white doesn’t hold any relevance to me. My consciousness is clear. I said I don’t like white before because of my anxiety. I have gotten over it and now white is one of my favorite color. It holds absolutely no relevance. Also, I have never in my life looked at anyone’s breast in real…
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People who fucking say stop shouting in the comfort of their shoes. Fucking stand in my shoes and say it. You wouldn’t last even for a minute. What I’m doing is exceptionally brilliant. So STFU please. Shouting is a normal reaction to all forms of torture that was thrown on me by barbaric cavemen. Also,…
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If you continuosly mentally torture a normal person and even sexually assault them. Also, fucking control their life. Any normal person would shout. FYI.
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When someone attacks us, if we shoot them back it’s called as self defence. There’s absolutely nothing wrong in that, even in the eyes of the court. Yes, I retaliated to the people who caused severe intense trauma. I take accountability for abusing them and retaliating. There is nothing wrong in what I did because…
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Every single person in this world stops talking to people who mistreat them. This is the basic right of a person. There is absolutely nothing wrong in what I did and my decision. I don’t know why this has become so big and why people are feeling it’s okay to assualt me like a psychotic…
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Everyone knows whatever I’m saying is right. Everyone knows my values are always correct. Everyone knows what happened to me and what’s been happening to me is monstrous and utterly wrong. Please put an end to it.
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There’s this Youtuber, Rachel. She is one of my most favourite person in this world and I consider her as Ron to my Harry. I found her channel many years ago organically and have been watching it ever since. After I became famous, we’ve been talking to each other through our videos. There were some…
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I have love in me and I love everyone from a distance that’s why I’m always kind and empathetic. I’m really sorry but I’m not like other famous people. My mind is extremely weak, I have a lot of trouble understanding and talking and interacting. To top it off, I have really bad anxiety sometimes.…
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People have got accustumed to using me and taking advantage of me and my kindness. They have gotten used to controlling my life and making full use of me. They have been using me so much that when I set my boundaries and asked for space, they turned into psychotic monsters. They started feeling that…
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Also, I said the only person I want to talk to is Ginny because she is important and special. She has made that place in my life because of the connection we had. I’m okay talking to her even when I’m suffering because she is the most important person in my life. I’m just waiting…
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If it was any other person in my place, people would have taken action against that restaurant. They would not have continuously stabbed that person. Trust me when I say this. Because it’s true. Because it’s me, people do whatever shit they want and get away with it. They are extremely unethical and unprofessional. They…
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I already said, I really like that waitress as a person, she is nice. I have nothing against her. I repeated it, couple of times. I’m not looking for friends at the moment because I’m not in the mindspace for it. My mind is really weak because of the enormity of the trauma I went…
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I think people are doubting my integrity? I guess that’s what this is. I’m not sure? I’m not sure what exactly happened or when it started or why it happened. But I’ve said everything that happened according to my POV. I’ve written every single thought since two years here. Also, after I realised what exactly…
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I’m not sure what exactly people are thinking about my last Instagram picture update and the music I chose. I was trying to convey something else. I think people are assuming shit about it. Whatever people are thinking, let them. I’m tired of all this. I’m tired of everything. I’ve been clear about everything all…
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I don’t say the complete truth always for the benifit of others and to not hurt people. Because I never want to hurt anyone. I let a lot of things slide and forgive. I’m two steps ahead because I can destroy people with the complete truth at any time. I just choose not to do…
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I’m speaking the truth. The whole world knows I’m right, but no one will accept it. If whatever happened to me would have happened to someone else, a lot of people would have been in trouble. If whatever happened to me would have happened to the people who are jumping around in the internet in…
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There is so much meaning behind Ron and Harry’s friendship. It was a bond that was created over time and it was special and it happened organically. Even Aditi and Naina’s friendship. Whatever was happening with that waitress and I was barely a friendship. She was forcing it each time I went there. There was…
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God are you seeing what people are doing to me for speaking the truth. The whole world knows I’m right and I’m being tortured for being right and having good values.
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And people are comparing that so called barely even friendship to Ron and Harry online. Also, calling me selfish for not wanting to be friends with a person who was treating me like a doormat to problem dump and absolutely nothing else. There was absolutely nothing happening in that friendship.
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Also, there was absolutely nothing happening in that friendship except for problem dumping from her side. It was barely even a friendship.
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All this started because I wasn’t interested in being friends with someone who was using me to dump her problems, when I had a headache and much bigger problems than her. People stop talking to people who mistreat them all the time. But in my case people continuosly forced me to talk to that person.…
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I was mistreated and I’m suffering because of what happened which wasn’t my fault. And people are helping the person who mistreated me by continuously mistreating me because apparently I’m not a human being and my feelings aren’t valid. They want to save his ego and name at the cost of my life by serving…
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Also, I had requested people not to manipulate my food and drink and they still did that. Why? Because I spoke the truth. FYI to the management.
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All the misunderstandings were cleared and buried long ago. Everyone accepted I was innocent long ago. But after I was sexually assaulted and I spoke about it. And also, after I spoke about what Dumbledore did. People dug up the past that was cleared and buried and tried to turn things around on me by…
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I was given spicy food at MTR too. FYI owner. Let the world be aware how I’m being treated for speaking the truth. This is how much people lack the ability to accept they fucked up.
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I was given a bitter hot chocolate at Starbucks near the temple. Intentional, not intentional? No one knows.
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Everyone knows my side of the story and why and what and everything. The way people are behaving right now is monstrous and atrocious. They lack the capability to understand and accept they fucked up, so they are just turning it on me.
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I don’t know why fully grown men feel it’s okay to sexually assault me this way. Also, nothing is being done about. Whatever I was doing many many years ago was like what my little niece does. Even my little niece keeps looking at me without blinking because her brain is not developed. Whatever people…
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I called the manager of 46 ounces couple of times to sort things. I guess his ego is not allowing him to take accountability for his fuck up, so he is avoiding me. I lay my case because I tried.
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I was the one who got hurt and was assualted. And people were continuously assualting me further wherever I go and also on social media for speaking the truth. This is so wrong and messed up. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with people.
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I have a lot of love and forgiveness in me. So if I’m refusing to allow someone in my life again, even after the whole world talking about it, I have strong reasons for it. Learn to respect people.
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I never hurt anyone intentionally. Even if I retaliate, I will be doing it because of their BS. It will be correct according to the situation and what they did. Whatever people are doing is out of context and barbaric. Please learn to ask what happened.
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Whatever decision I made, to end a friendship or a relationship is the right decision based on my personal experience with that person. As I already said, I have absolutely no good memories with the people I ended things with. I have zero good memories. I do it after giving it a lot of thought.…
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I’ll follow everyone after sometime has passed. I just need a break for now. As I said, I don’t take these things so seriously.
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You can wear white and black all you want till the end of time. It holds no relavence to me. It’s 19th century era movie shit, as I said.
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Even Ginny doesn’t care much about social media. She gives importance to people in real life. I’ve unfollowed her so many times in the past but she is always so super chill. This is one of the qualities that I admire about her. She is literally the best person I know. Even my sister doesn’t…
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I’ve been calling the manager of 46 ounces to sort things as well because I’m okay now. But he has blocked me. So I can’t do anything.
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Please forget what I wrote about Kauvery Hospital and Dyu art cafe. I spoke to the managers and sorted it out. They were extremely good and professional over the call. I’ve never had any bad experience with them till date. Whatever I wrote here is the first time. We have sorted everything. Also, I’m okay…
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If people want to unfollow me, they can. I’m not going to post anymore, till I get what I asked for. I’m not interested in sharing my mind.
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I’ve unfollowed everyone from Instagram because I want some social media detox. Also, whatever profiles I follow is public and they don’t follow me. If someone doesn’t follow me they have no right to complain if I don’t follow them, this is basic. I’m not much of a social media person. I value people in…
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Everyone knows I’m normal and innocent. This is continuing because people are trying to exploit me. I refuse to share my gift. Even if I’m alone it’s okay because God is with me, so I’m not really alone.
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My life was sabotaged because a lot of people fucked up. I’ve spoken about everything. I was crazy because of the torture and I did a lot of crazy things as well. I don’t identify with it. Now I’m finally normal but people are not letting me live my life. There is so much internal…
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People are trying to make me sick and trigger me. I’m not sure who is doing it. Mother is helping them too. There are so many things happening. I was mentally tortured today, that’s why I shouted. It was a normal reaction. I don’t have anger issues. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with me. But people…
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I don’t have even a single good memory with the people I stopped speaking with. Not even one. Whatever decision I made is the right decision. My values are always right. Please trust me, people are extremely manipulative because the whole world is watching. Whatever I said about Dumbledore is true as well. There are…
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My throat was fixed and I took medicine today and again it became sore. I don’t know what exactly is happening. Someone please do something about this.
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Everyone in this world who is reading this knows I’m innocent and there’s nothing wrong with me. I don’t know why the world is watching this barbaric act and what’s happening quietly. I’ve always helped everyone and cared about everyone. This is my time of need. Please stand by me. I want to live. After…
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My experience with Kauvery Hospital.
I was mentally pressurized, so I shouted. Any normal person would have done that. This behaviour is so unethical for a hospital.
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As I said before, it’s because people around me refuse to take therapy, that I had to take therapy.
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People are scrutinizing me for speaking the truth. Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. Whatever is happening just shows that people lack the ability to accept that they fucked up.
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I haven’t done anything wrong. My consciousness is clear. I just spoke the truth about what happened to me. Also, I’ve cleared everything. I don’t know why people are behaving this way and why this is continuing.
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Please someone help me. Please. These people are doing all these things. I’m really tired of this.
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My experience with Kauvery Hospital.
They took me to a room and mentally assaulted me and cheated me. This is such an unethical behaviour from a hospital.
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India is getting a lot of attention because of me, but this is the reality of how people are treating me. If Modi ji is reading this, please help me and do something.
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Someone please do something. Please. I have never had a normal life. I want to live. The way people are behaving because I spoke the truth is barbaric. Please help me.
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There’s a lot of internal politics going on because people don’t like the fact that I spoke the truth. Someone please do something and help me. This is how people are treating me for speaking the truth.
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I had to call my mother and ask her to pick me because my heart was feeling weak. I haven’t done anything to anyone, everyone knows that. I was just speaking the truth about what happened to me. I don’t deserve to be treated this way. Someone please do something and stop this cruelty.
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My experience with Kauvery Hospital.
I went there to do a procedure. 3 months back when I did that in the same hospital, it was 400rs. Today they were saying it is 2000 and 5000. They started gaslighting me saying it is the same price since 2 years and mentally assaulted me. I demanded a refund and left. My heart…
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I don’t have even a single good memory with the people I’ve stopped speaking to. Whatever decision I’ve made is the right decision based on the personal experience I’ve had with each and every person. My values are always right.
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I’m really scared of mother and a lot of other people when I go outside because they intentionally keep stabbing me. I’m scared to eat as well. Please help me.
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Even if Ginny doesn’t choose me, it’s okay. I just want her to be happy. I’ll always be grateful for her love because it saved my life. I’ll always be grateful for my therapist as well, she went out of her way to help me and always believed in me. I feel God sent them…
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People are extremely manipulative and trying to keep a good name because the whole world is watching. Based on their manipulations, the world hurts me. Even now no one asks me what happened or my side of the story. Whatever I said about everyone is the truth. I always speak the truth.
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If people continue to hurt me even after saying everything, it’s because they lack the capability to accept that they fucked up. Also, everyone knows I didn’t do anything and I’m normal. They are just masochistic and a sadist, that’s why they are intentionally hurting me. I’m immune this BS. Your forgetting that God is…
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I guess I was convicted for something but I’m not sure what exactly because I didn’t do anything. I think that’s what happened. I’ve already said everything. I honestly don’t know what is left. Everyone knows I always speak the truth. If someone wants to know something, please ask me like a normal person instead…
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Everyone knows I’m innocent and sane. Everyone knows what happened to me was wrong. I’m speaking the truth about what I went through because of each and every person and what they did. Everyone knows whatever I’m doing right now and the decision I made is right. Even if I’m speaking back to someone it…
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There was a girl Priyali Patra in my french class in Jyoti Nivas. She squeezed my boobs on the first day of the class and assaulted me. I was in trauma for a long time and I told Sowmya that I don’t feel good and this happened. She started laughing. I have gone through so…
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I’ve touched the stubble of only two men till now. Both of them sexted me. The man in Askaban, Akash KM continuously led me on, that’s why I did that. The only thing I did was touch his stubble. After that he assaulted me sexually through text and I blocked him. The other man is…
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I want to live. I have a strong feeling Ginny is going to come back. She is the only reason I’m alive now. I want a normal life. Away from all this shit. Please do something.
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A lot of people didn’t want the truth to come out. There were a lot of power clashes. People wanted me dead and tried to silence me again and again and again and tried to destroy me. But everyone knows the truth now. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with my perception. I don’t think my parents…
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If I’ve made a difference in your life in any way. Please help me. I’m desperate. I’m getting really scared to eat as well. Please.
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I want to live. Someone please help me out of this situation. I’ve spoken about everything. Please help me.
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Also, mother is helping him. I’m honestly scared of mother. She is extremely manipulative. I don’t know what she will do and when. Based on her manipulations, the world hurts me. I’m hoping she doesn’t do anything again. I’m just waiting to move out.
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Dumbledore is fraud. He is lying and taking credit for what I proved by saying he already knew that. He doesn’t have a clue what he is doing. He is just working on fluke. He is faking it and he is extremely manipulative. He only cares about himself. He was extremely desperate to prove he…
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Dumbledore is faking it by saying he was trying to help me. He fucked up. He will never accept his mistakes. But I know the truth. Mother isn’t trying to help me aswell. My parents have been stabbing me continuously because they didn’t want the truth to come out. They were jealous of my success…
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All these things were happening so I thought Narayana Hridayalaya was intentionally not giving me video consultation with doctor. I’m sorry I shouted. I’m really not able to understand what is happening. What is intentional and what is not. Nothing makes sense. I’m getting really scared these days of people.
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Understand your mistakes and learn to respect people and their decisions. It’s high time people realised what they are doing is wrong.
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People don’t force Taylor Swift because everyone respects her decision. People just find it easy to control my life and hurt me based on the manipulations of others. Also, I’ve already spoken about everything. It’s high time people moved on.
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All this just because I’m not interested in being friends with someone who treated me poorly? I don’t see anyone forcing Taylor Swift to be friends with Kanye West and Kim. Then why the fuck are you forcing me?
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Yesterday I was scrutinized the whole day. I’m not sure why this is happening because I already said everything and explained everything. I don’t know what people want, tbh. I already proved my innocence and sanity. I’m finally in a good place and normal. I finally feel good in my mind and able to be…
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Yesterday again my throat was fixed but mother put a lot of spice and pepper in the mushroom. So last night again, I started feeling suffocated. I didn’t have money so I called sister to take me to the hospital but she switched off her phone. Today I’m okay again. I asked sister money to…
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I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity. Whatever I said that people did is true, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with my perception. There’s absolutely nothing left to say. People are just continuing this because they are not ready to accept that they fucked up, there is no other explanation for this.
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I’m not interested in rekindling anything with people I knew in the past. My decision is right based on the experience I had with them. I do not miss or care for them anymore. I have really strong reasons for saying this. Even if this continues till my last breath, this decision is not going…
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Everyone knows I didn’t do anything and my values are right. Everyone knows everything. Everything is over and done with. I even spoke about things that’s none of anyone’s business. I don’t know what do people want now. This is continuing because people fucked up and they don’t want to accept that they fucked up,…
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Unfortunately, I’ve never had friends in my life. I’ve been lucky to find friendship when I was in love. I’m lucky for the memories and I’ve made my peace with it. I’ve just had people who were extremely condescending, disrespectful and who treated me like a doormat in the name of friendship. I do not…
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I think people are just continuing this because they lack the capability to understand and accept that they fucked up.
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I’ve already spoken about everything. Please stop making assumptions on what I write on my notes. I wasn’t talking about my insecurity. I’m a very secure person. Also, I’m never clingy. But people who talk to me are, extremely. You have no right to judge me based on my texts with Ginny. We have a…
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I don’t know why people are continuing to wear white, I already said everything. There’s nothing left. Do the fuck you want, it doesn’t bother me.
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I had to silently listen to whatever psycho divorcee was doing in bed. If I say something or speak, he would start shouting and abusing. Even apart from bed, if I ever had an opinion, he would turn into a maniac and start abusing. In the past, I didn’t know I can just end the…
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When Ginny says she likes a woman, I like her too. She said she wanted to go to Thailand, I wanted to go too. If she watches a movie, I watch it too. If she likes a song, I like it too. She was my bestfriend and I wanted to do everything she was doing.…
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I didn’t feel anything for psycho divorcee, the guy with ugly dick, psychotic perfect man and everyone else I went on date with. I wasn’t attracted to anyone. I always felt something is wrong with me. Because of what happened with Voldemort, that feeling solidified. I didn’t want anyone to know something is wrong with…
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I texted few women on bumble and spoke to them. I was attracted to them online. But when they would speak about meeting, I would go into trauma and start getting scared. I would freak out and I would block them. Later I understood it’s because I’m not attracted to women in real life.
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I knew what’s Ginny’s type of women. So whenever I see someone who is her type. I would tell her I like them to make her happy. I didn’t actually like them. Whenever she would send me pictures, I would say I like them to make her happy. It wasn’t about the pictures, it was…
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Lucius used to ask me to look at women in Askaban. I don’t know why she did that. I would casually look and she would say, go near and stare. She sent me series with nudity in it and raved about it saying it’s extremely good and forced me to watch it. Honestly it wasn’t…
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I always say no to sex. I’ve never been in love so I haven’t felt like it. I was a virgin and psycho divorcee said he will marry me and kept manipulating me, so I said yes. When we were going to do it he removed the condom and threw it. I said no and…
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Please don’t manipulate my food and drink again. My throat was fixed with great difficulty. It’s getting better now. I always take really good care of my throat. Please don’t do that again.
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I was an innocent child and Bellatrix knew that. She was living in a PG and she immediately took a house for rent. She kept begging me continuously for one month to go to her house. She promised she won’t do anything except for kissing me. Then it was just horror. She used me as…
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I was attracted to neetu when I met her for the first time. But it was only for few seconds, so it’s not counted. I had a really strong platonic crush on teju when I met her for the first time, but it was platonic, so it’s not counted. My feelings for women is something…
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I fucking haven’t done anything wrong. My consciousness is clear. Also, I’ve spoken the truth about everything. I honestly don’t know what’s left. Why are people torturing me like this when they can just ask me directly. I’m so fed up, tbh. People should realise their mistakes and not try to turn things around on…
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Also, since people are so fucking interested in my sexuality which obviously is none of anyone’s business, I’ll let you know when I’m bisexual again. Leave me alone. Thanks.
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Also, I openly tell women I like that I like them. I have made a list. You can ask the people in the list. I openly told them I like them. I openly tell people when I like them. I don’t beat around the bush. I never stare at anyone’s boobs in real life because…
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I remember touching the stubble of men who lead me on or sexted me. I didn’t do anything other than leaning my head on Dhruv’s shoulder. He was the one who was excessively holding my hand and calling me hot. I was never interested because I was not present mentally every time I met him.…
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Also, I never stare, I’m not sure why people think I stare and call me a cat. I’ve already spoken about it. I was socially awkward and shy. I didn’t know how to make friends and the conventional way to talk to people. I wanted to make friends before so I would look and keep…
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I was not mentally present when I hugged krutika. I was blanking out and weak. I remember Ashwin touching my hand during that time. I think I might have been thinking about something and squeezed her hand. But I’m saying the truth, I’m not attracted to women in real life, I never was and I’m…
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When I’m mentally pressurized I have suspicion that I’m being poisoned. Otherwise I’m normal. I don’t know if this suspicion is just paranoid thought because of the mental pressure. Because I never have such thought otherwise. It’s only when people do whatever they do.
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The first time I saw a dick was when I went to Bellatrix’s house. I didn’t know what it was till then. I didn’t even know there is something like that. Bellatrix made me to keep giving him blowjob and taught me how to do it. He used to keep asking me to do it…
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I’ve become really smart since a year after I started reading extensively and also because of therapy. I’m able to understand a lot of things, that I couldn’t before. That’s why I was able to prove that I’m normal. I feel spiritually elevated too after whatever happened to me last year. I’m able to understand…
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I haven’t done anything to anyone. I don’t want to die. Everyone in this world is reading this. Someone please help me.
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I’ve spoken the truth and the world knows it now. Someone please do something to get me out of this situation.
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Mother doesn’t need a reason to cry. She is broken and for some reason she is desperate for me to stay sick. She is extremely manipulative. She is just like the mother in Everything Everything. Please help me.
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My throat was fixed yesterday but today morning after mother gave me coffee it started feeling weird again, so I didn’t drink it. Now I’m okay again. I asked mother to make breakfast and went to take shower but she intentionally didn’t make it. My new dress is cut at the back. I asked mother…
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I’m immune to what’s happening and I’m accustomed to this life now. I’ve learnt to take the control in my hands too. I’m not interested in sharing anything anymore till I get what I asked for. Please understand that it’s high time this stopped and please put an end to this. If people had empathy…
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There were a lot of power clashes and a lot of manipulations and I was continuously silenced. But now everyone knows the truth because God was with me this entire time. I know the world is reading this. Please help me.
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Everyone knows that I’m innocent and all the misunderstandings have been cleared. Everyone knows what’s happening to me is wrong and my life was sabotaged because of what happened. Everyone knows this is continuing because I’m being exploited like an animal and it is wrong. Please put an end to it.
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This is a reminder that I’m not going to give and there’s going to be nothing from me till I get what I asked for.
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Dumbledore and my parents are lying if they say, they were just making it look like I’m sick to save me because I was abusing people. I saw jealousy in mother’s face. I saw Dumbledore fuck up on his face.
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What people are doing is wrong and it sabotaged my life. Whoever is responsible fucking understand your mistake. Please understand and put an end to it atleast now. Everyone who are reading this please help me put an end to this.
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On top of all this my parents have been continuously torturing me since this started to make it look like I’m sick. I’m not sure why. And the world has been hurting me based on my mother’s manipulations. My parents were jealous of my success too and tried to bring me down constantly. They keep…
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All this happened because I was not interested in being friends with someone who was forcing the friendship. Do you see how ridiculous this is? Are you in fucking kindergarten? How would you feel if someone scrutinizes you for every single tiny decision you make and hurts you. That too without asking and understanding your…
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I always take care of my hygiene and I was always maintain healthy distance from everyone. Maybe I didn’t do that when I was being tortured. But I do it now. I expect to be treated with respect and convention. People are always so unprofessional and they treat me really badly and unconventionally. I’m fed…
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Everyone who talks to me gets extremely clingy when they speak to me. Even the men I go out on dates with. They are extremely clingy and they keep forcing. They say I love you and force themselves in my life. Honestly, I don’t feel or see the love. They are just meaningless words. Also,…
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When I was in college a guy approached me and said the word dick. I didn’t know what that was at that time, so I asked Voldemort’s ex, let’s call him Ashwin. I think he was continuously talking about me after that because it’s after that the manipulations started. Voldemort kept saying things like, a…
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People are continuing to invade in my personal life because they lack the capability to understand they fucked up and what they are doing is wrong.
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As far as I know all the misunderstandings have been cleared. Please understand that invading in someone’s personal life to this extent without their consent is wrong. Please put an end to this atleast now. Everyone knows I didn’t do anything wrong and my values are always right. There’s absolutely nothing left to say. My…
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When I say someone did something and someone behaved a certain way. I’m speaking the truth. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with my perception. What I’m doing is innocently. But people do is intentionally. I behaved crazy and I was mentally unstable because of the inhuman suffering and torture. I acknowledge that. Also, I’ve spoken about…
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I’ve already spoken about everything that happened and all my mistakes as well. I don’t know why this is continuing, I guess people just lack the capability to accept they fucked up.
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I wanted to watch RHTDM but people are manipulating movie timings and price etc in the app. Let the world be aware of what is happening.
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I respectfully ask people to stop interfering in my personal life at least now and give me privacy which is basic human right. Please understand what you are doing is wrong at least now. My life was sabotaged because of this shit, when someone could have just spoken to me like a normal person. Understand…
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Today father opened the door and his eyes immediately went to my chest. Everytime someone does this. I’m going to write it here, till people learn what they are doing is wrong.
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I do not want direct credit and recognition. Whatever is happening is fine. I only want the things I asked for. I don’t know how you ll give it to me. Please come up with an idea. I’ll be writing here only after that. I might just do YouTube till then. Depends on my mood.…
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Everything that happened to me is because my school fucked up, my family fucked up, my classmates fucked up. I was normal, I remember talking non stop and even singing in front of the whole class. After that whatever happened I was silenced and I got lost in my world. Voldemort knew I was innocent.…
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I respectfully ask people not to copy my reaction to sexual and mental harassments, domestic violence and rape and call them my flaws. I’m normal now and I’m well aware of all my flaws and shortcomings. Whatever I do is harmless and I’m always minding my own business. I was placing healthy boundaries that I…
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I haven’t done anything wrong. The whole world knows that. Whoever is responsible for this shit please accept and take accountability for your fuck ups, instead of trying to destroy me and hurting me. Sexually assaulting me is crossing the line, I’m a fucking human being. Gaslighting no longer hurts me. I’m immune to things…
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I don’t know why people feel it’s okay to sexually assault me this way. My throat was fixed with great difficulty, I swear to God if something happens again, I won’t forgive. I have been feeling extremely fucked up because of what’s happening since last few days. I have been just keeping a brave face…
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My experience with dyu art cafe.
Today I ordered chukk kaapi that I always order when I go there. They gave me a really strong drink that tasted so strong and acidic. I complained to them and the waiter came and looked at my cleavage when I was talking. So many other things happened today. People were intentionally gaslighting me and…
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I’m immune to what people are doing. My mind is always in harmony. I always have love in me and I always speak the truth. These are my superpower. Also, God is with me every step of every way. Love and truth always prevails. My consciousness is clear. Anyone who has a problem with what…
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People can do whatever they want, my mind is in harmony and I find certain things really funny, tbh. White is such a beautiful and heavenly color, I want to paint my room white.
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I value friendships and love when it happens organically. (Please ignore what happened when I was crazy because of the torture.) I don’t like being forced or forcing someone too. I tried falling in love again after Ginny and met hundreds of men, but it’s not working. So I’ve let it go for now. It…
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This is a reminder that I’m refusing access to my mind till I get what I asked for. I’m being selfish with my content and will continue to do so. I’ve already spoken about everything. Also, please don’t believe everything people say about me. People manipulate the truth according to their convenience and image. Please…
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