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I pray to God every single day. Dudley gets her karma. I want a restraining order against Dudley’s father. I want Dudley’s mother to get her karma as well. I hate them. Period. I have already explained everything that happened.

Now that I’m successful, normal and in a good place. They are forcing a non-existent relationship with me. Honestly. I’m not fucking interested. Jasmine chechi is the one who came to my house yesterday. Now you understand why I didn’t meet her. Because. We have no relationship.

That was the favourite pastime of my cousins and relatives. They keep complaining to mother that I don’t speak to them. Mother would then cry and create a scene. Get angry at me. Firstly. I have absolutely no relationship with my cousins and relatives. We have never had an open one of one conversation. Till…

Anyway. Because of this reason. Jasmine chechi used to text me and say things like. If I wanted her daughter’s clothes. Her daughter is 2 decades younger than me btw. She was doing exactly what Dudley’s mother was doing. Jasmine chechi and I have no relationship. We are cousins. But we have never really had…

My whole life. Dudley’s mother’s favourite pastime was telling everyone who would listen. How much Dudley is better than me. She would keep telling people she’s taller than me, more social etc. She would keep telling this to Jasmine chechi in family functions. In front of me. This is the reason Dudley never saw me…

I want injustice to be answered with justice. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital.

I’m not interested in socialising with anyone. Till I have a normal life.

I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m a public figure. I’m not your friend. Please do not approach me. If you encroach on my personal space and boundaries. That makes you a creepy fan. If you do it in the name of love. I will be…

I have not had an open one on one conversation with my relatives and cousins. Till date. I’ve barely spoken to them. It doesn’t make a difference to me even if they exist or not. No one has been good to me as well. It’s just been shit. I’ve tried speaking to Dudley and Jasmine…

Guilty. I was in love with Will. It blurred all lines. I couldn’t stop. Both of us are at fault for what happened. Both of us have moved on years ago as well. It’s been platonic since many years now. He’s my best friend. And I miss him as my friend.

I cannot wait to read the hunger games series. I’ve just read the first book. I’ve seen random reels online. I’ve been listening to “can’t catch me now” every single day since it came out. I love that song. I’m already so fucking obsessed. I CANNOT WAIT. Aaaah.

This is my sister. Exactly.

Fuck it. I’m coming to Canada. I don’t know how. But I will find you.

It’s okay if you feel guilty when you say no. I feel guilty every single time. But I stay strong.

My cousin and husband had come home today. To meet my parents and nieces. She wanted to meet me. But I closed the door and stayed inside till they left. The storm raging in my head is so heavy. I’m not in the mindspace to socialize. I’m not in the mood to answer gaslighting questions.…

I really need to see a doctor first before I go to Canada in search of Ginny. I don’t know how I’m holding on. Good Night. Take care. x P.S. I was making up fake scenarios in my head talking to the officers at the Visa place. Do I tell them I’m going there to…

I’m feeling really bitter and salty. Waiting this way. That’s why I was ranting about the book community and random people in India getting perks because of me. I’m unable to think straight. I wake up everyday with storms raging inside my head. I cannot go on like this. I’m unable to calm down sometimes.…

I humbly request women to stop behaving questionable. Note.

Why are you keeping me in the dark? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What exactly am I waiting for? What the fuck is going on man?

I want people to be held responsible for their actions and behaviour. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. I want injustice to be answered with justice. I want justice. That is the only way I will find peace. Also. I want the world to clearly understand that they cannot cross…

Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support them. You are enabling their behaviour. You are teaching people that when they cross my boundaries and misbehave. They will get public support. Please stop supporting them.

I want justice for what Rachel Catherine and her kitty party did to me. I have spoken about everything. I want justice.

Moana shree and Dudley just wanted the attention, glory and perks that came attached to me. They were using my helplessness for ulterior motives. Dudley wanted a permanent position in her company. Moana shree wanted the attention and glory. I want justice for what happened. I want justice for what they did to me.

What makes you think I will add value to such a community after all this BS? I refuse to be a part of it. You can copy my work. But you cannot copy my creativity. Goodluck. God bless you.

People say they are supporting the author. Well, some of them are. But most of them are not. Most of them are like Rachel Catherine. They desperately need something against me to satisfy their demons. Because I shine too bright for their liking. Everything is performative. They constantly need the drama and want to just…

I’m allowed to do whatever the fuck I want in the comfort of my house. I have a right and free will. Just like everyone else in this world. People don’t really have the ability to grasp that concept. Are you really that thick? People were watching me and assuming shit and going crazy. Do…

The book community needs to stand in the corner and think about what they did. They need to take a nice long look at themselves. Introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. In my honest opinion. (Based on whatever I have noticed.) Most of the book content online is shallow and surface level. Also.…

Whatever the book community did to me is betrayal. Period. I won’t be creating book content in any shape or form henceforth. I refuse to add value. I stopped consuming books related videos long ago as well. I refuse to be a part of it. The book community is aggressive, hypocritical and extremely toxic. This…

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I know she’s reading this. I love you. There hasn’t been a day that you haven’t crossed my mind. I miss you so much it hurts. My heart aches and aches and aches. All the time. I miss you. I still see you when I close my eyes. I hope you still feel the same…

I’ve lost a lot of weight. I don’t feel attractive anymore. I don’t feel good about myself anymore. I’ve lost my spark and allure. I feel like an old cardigan under someone’s bed. I feel like a song that someone played on repeat way too many times and now it’s no longer doing its thing.…

Don’t ask me why I’m thinking about death. My mind works in mysterious ways. I think about every possible thing. Creating fake scenarios in my head is one of my favourite passtimes. I’m always in my head. Also. In my feels.

I keep thinking if something happens tomorrow and I die. I will die in this invisible life. Without having experienced normal. Without getting the credit and recognition for what I have worked hard for. Without meeting Ginny. My words will live on. But I won’t experience normal. I was going to die in September 2024.…

I’m just so fucking tired.

I don’t know what Ginny has been up to these last few years. I haven’t seen her in almost 3 and half years. I haven’t spoken to her in almost a year and half. I don’t know if she still feels the same way about me. I don’t know if she’s in Canada. I don’t…

If people here do care about me. I’m sorry but I don’t see it. Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. Everyone who is speaking to my family is playing twisted games. I don’t see it. How people treat me now. When I’m helpless and vulnerable. Tells me everything that I need to know.…

After everything that we went through together. A random fucking stranger lied. And this is what people here did. Without asking me what happened and my side of the story. I clearly said on day one itself. “I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened” And this is what you do man?…

This is how these people are treating me. This is how these people treated me my whole life. This is the reality of how I’m being treated. Why is the world giving so much attention, glory and perks to them? Why?

I worked my ass off and fought relentlessly for years to reach where I have reached. I fought through death and thunderstorms. I put in my blood, sweat and tears. And random ass people who don’t even fucking deserve it are getting attention, glory and perks because of me. Effortlessly. Why? Because they are from…

Why are you keeping me in the dark?

What the fuck is going on man?

How is everyone in this world sitting and reading this and choosing to stay quiet? What’s going on man?

People clearly know and understand what they are doing. My whole life people were using “special way of speaking” as a weapon against me. Because there were no consequences. Now they use gaslighting. Because again. No consequence. It is always handy. They are doing it for sadistic pleasure, false superiority and as a weapon to…

Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. Everyone who is speaking to my family is playing twisted games. I don’t understand how everyone is sitting and reading this and choosing to stay quiet. Teni Thomas was intentionally gaslighting me recently saying, I’m not good at poetry and storytelling. And I’m not funny. To protect…

My annoyance towards India is valid, normal and justified. Note. Note. Note. Note. Note.

What the fuck am I waiting for man? I don’t understand how everyone in this world is sitting and reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet? What’s going on?

The whole world is benefitting out of me and creating content out of my content. India is getting all this attention because of me. Random people in India are getting attention, glory and perks because of me. When they don’t fucking deserve it. I’m here suffering existing in this reality and double life. Without money…

I don’t understand why random people in India are getting attention, glory and perks. When they haven’t done anything significant to deserve it. They have not worked for it. They are getting this attention, glory and perks because of me. And because of my hard work. Because these people are from the same place as…

What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? When people gang up and torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to benefit out of me and create content out of my content.…

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

Why am I being kept in the dark? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man? This is affecting my mental health really badly. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way.

Why is the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father not given a restraining order? I highlighted something extremely serious. What’s going on?

What’s going on man? The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for man? What’s going on?

What’s going on man? What exactly am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

What’s going on man? What exactly am I waiting for?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

Even Taylor uses examples and fancy playful words in her songs. Below is the lyrics of her song New Romantics. It’s pokerHe can’t see it in my faceBut I’m about to play my Ace Just because she said this. Doesn’t actually mean she is playing games in life. She is just playing with words.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

Note. If you encroach on my personal space and boundaries that makes you a creepy fan. If you do it in the name of love, I have to get a restraining order. I don’t respond to force and desperation. No means no. No is a full sentence.

Note.

Note.

What exactly am I waiting for?

Please don’t develop a para social relationship with me. I expect my personal space, boundaries and privacy to be respected strictly.

When someone doesn’t want to be your friend or in a relationship with you. It’s not betrayal. Betrayal cuts deeper than that. We feel what we feel. You cannot force feelings. Unless and until someone does you dirty. It’s not betrayal. Millions of people in this world. Everyone is not for everyone. That’s completely okay.

It’s okay to dislike and hate people. Even if it’s because of something petty. It doesn’t make you a villain unless you do them dirty. Millions of people in this world. Everyone is not for everyone. That’s completely okay.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

My boundaries are non-negotiable. Note.

Note. Please keep it platonic. Don’t make it weird.

The truth is already out long ago. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities and projections. Period.

I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth. Please put an end to this. I’m unable to go on. I’m physically, mentally and psychologically exhausted.

I’m not okay. I hope I don’t die. I don’t want to die now. Things are finally good after a lifetime of suffering and pain. Ginny is going to come back. God I hope I don’t die. I’m glad I was able to clear my name. I’m okay with dying. But not yet. I want…

I don’t feel very good. I need to speak to my therapist. There’s tightness in my chest. A raging storm inside my head that doesn’t seem to settle. I’m not okay. The last time I was close to okay was in 2022 when I was speaking to Ginny. I’ve been fighting relentlessly since then. I…

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

If you want to take revenge. Always make sure you take the ethical road to revenge. Don’t get your hands dirty. And waste your precious life for temporary jokers. You can think whatever you want. But don’t materialise it. Before doing something unethical and shady. Think about the consequences and think about things from a…

2 questions to ask yourself every time you have a problem. If it’s either. Suck it up and stop being a pussy. Life is unfair. Everyone has shit going on. Have a little tolerance for pain. If it’s neither. Then fret about it.

YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN

It was Dumbledore’s decision. Not mine.

It was Dumbledore who asked me to stop the additional medicine that helps me feel horny. In the beginning of 2023. It was Dumbledore’s decision. Not mine. I told him about the side effect. The white thing in my underwear. So he asked me to stop. My throat was completely fucked. I was extremely sick…

What exactly am I waiting for?

I make up fake scenarios in my head. Cry and listen to music. Till I fall asleep. The world is so quiet at this time. Not a deafening quiet. More like a peaceful lull that lets my mind wander. I’ve even thought of what to do if in case Ginny cheats on me. Welcome to…

11.27pm. My heart aches so much. I miss Ginny. I listen to music and cry around this time. Most nights. I’m just so tired. There’s a storm inside my head that I try to heal with music. It gets really heavy sometimes. I’ve been dealing with everything alone since January 2025. I want to speak…

The term “trauma bonding” is being used as a “get out of jail free card” for people who are actually being predatory or abusive. It’s been thrown around online and normalised in vocabulary. It’s not always the case.

In most cases. There’s no such thing as trauma bonding. Don’t support and normalise the behavioural issues of lonely sex addicts. By calling it as trauma bonding. They lack social skills like social experiences and interactions. They lack the ability to respect people’s boundaries and respect NO. They lack the ability to regulate their emotions.…

Night x * I’d rather die.

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The symbol for. NO, I refuse to conform.

Note. Hypothetically even if he assumed we were dating. He has no right to kiss me without my consent. When I was being extremely clear that my throat was hurting. And I was regularly going to the emergency ward. Also. We were not dating. He was just a casual friend and neighbour. I have not…

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

How much will you drag this unnecessarily? There’s nothing left to say.

This was an inside joke between Teni and I. I honestly don’t know what happened between us. The friendship breakup doesn’t make sense.

I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday. Till you are satisfied. The truth is already out. I have finished. I cannot help if you are still horny. Please stop trying to do anal. I gave you consent only for missionary.

Please stop wasting my precious time. The truth is already out long ago. It’s over.

The truth is already out. When you wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. Everything happened so damn quickly. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now? How much will you drag shit unnecessarily? The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. There’s nothing left to say. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday.

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What’s going on man?

Please stop making me repeat the same things everyday. I’m extremely tired. I don’t know how I’m holding on. There’s nothing left to say.

The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag shit unnecessarily? When people wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. You didn’t drag shit. I kept screaming “please ask me what happened”. But everything happened so damn quickly. Why the fuck are you dragging shit now? The truth…

Note.

Note. Note.

Note. Note.

Note.

Note. Note.

There’s nothing left to say.

There’s nothing left to say. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. I’ve given irrefutable solid proofs. The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve explained, cleared, proved and clarified every single miniscule thing. More than enough and necessary. I’ve gone to the root…

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

I love watching edits on Instagram and YouTube. I’m like always lost in different fandoms.

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

Who remembers coming back home from school and listening to Avril Lavigne on MTV?

I’m mentally, physically and psychologically exhausted. I don’t feel very good. Also I have period cramps. I don’t know how I’m holding on. I’m really tired. I was thinking about the time I was going to die 2 years ago. I’ve been fighting ever since. Without any rest. My nieces are so active. They were…

Please watch this again. This explains what I was trying to communicate with the chess analogy. I’m not playing the game. I’m ending the game. There’s a difference. Please read below again. All sentences are positive in the blog. I used it positively. You are cherry picking the word checkmate, taking it out of context…

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What’s going on?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? I’m really not okay. I’m barely holding on. It’s over man. What’s going on? What are you doing? Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop wasting everyone’s time, effort and energy.

I’ve been thinking about Teni’s betrayal. Whatever he did says everything about him. And nothing about me. My success was making him feel inferior. He was downplaying my value and worth to exert false superiority. So that he can protect his fragile ego. This shows how insecure he really is. It doesn’t say anything about…

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for? Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily?

The truth is already out. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? Why the fuck are you showing me lyrics of mastermind everyday? What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I was kept in the dark, silenced and tortured my whole life. I was called crazy and made to question my own reality. My life was sabotaged in the name of help. I was tortured in the name of empathy. I asked Dumbledore on day one itself. “Why are people speaking to me that way”.…

I wish Voldemort would have spoken to me like a normal person. I had absolutely no interest in Ashwin Srinivas. He used to keep calling me ugly. He harassed me so much. I lowkey hated him. I liked him as my friend though. Because back then I liked everyone platonically.

What exactly am I waiting for?

In 2023 and 2024. My throat was completely fucked. I was going to die because of my throat. I was extremely sick, suicidal and going through something very serious. Everyone in this world knew about it. It wasn’t a secret. That’s when these monsters like. Dhruv, Pettigrew, Rahuul Rishav, monster at social, Anna, monster at…

Note. This is what Dhruv did when I was sick.

The aggressive stalker belongs in jail. He is just a random neighbour and a stalker. He started stalking me in 2023. I ended it peacefully after a few days. In August 2024. One day suddenly he started aggressively stalking me and pouncing on me. Violently and vigorously. No matter how many times I said no.…

Note. Whatever the monster at social did is called attempt to murder, sexual assault, unethical behaviour and stalking. I was extremely sick and dying because of my throat. She intentionally gave me manipulated food and started smiling when I was suffering. After that she came running like a buffalo and pounced on me with full…

Rahuul Rishav was my neighbour. I started speaking to him because I wanted to go to the bookstore. We went to the bookstore and went to Koramangala social while coming back. He was just a neighbour and casual friend. We went to BLR once. I kept telling him again and again. That I was extremely…

Whatever they did is called. Unethical behaviour, defamation, false accusations, verbal abuse, cheating me with my money.

When I went to the crochet class “tsala studio”. I had cramps because of the first day of periods. I was also anxious because it’s a new place. I was talking to the teacher and she closed her nose and moved back and created a scene. I didn’t have bad breath. My mouth was dry…

When Anna from the crochet workshop saw me. She started smiling a twisted creepy malicious smile. She came and sat next to me. Then she started sexually assaulting me by touching my upper thigh again and again and again. Continuously. I had mentioned on my blog that I get turned on when Ginny touches my…

Whatever she did is called. Coercion, multiple counts of sexual assaults, stalking, harassment, defamation, false accusations, unethical behaviour. Etc. I don’t know what else.

My throat was completely fucked. I was extremely sick, suicidal and going through something very serious. I was going to die because of my throat. Everyone in this world knew about it. It wasn’t a secret. That’s when this monstrous woman was lusting at me and forcing me. She lacks empathy and remorse. She has…

Whatever Pettigrew did is called coercion. I haven’t expressed any interest in her. I had uploaded a picture on my Instagram for Ginny saying “take me home”. That’s why she was constantly forcing me to go to her house. She had an extreme case of para social relationship with me. The only thing I asked…

Why am I being kept in the dark? What the fuck am I waiting for?

I’ve been clear that I want a restraining order against aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father. I still see the aggressive stalker in the apartment. I feel extremely suicidal, angry and traumatized every single time I see him. I highlighted something extremely serious. Why is no action taken till now? What’s going on?

The truth is already out. What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for?

What’s going on?

The truth is already out. What exactly am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for man?

I don’t understand why I still don’t have a restraining order against aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father. Even after highlighting something very serious. What’s going on man?

I’m happy that I was able to clear my name when my parents are still alive. They know that I’m innocent. And I was able to spend peaceful time with them. That gives me a sense of satisfaction. I hope this gets over soon. So that I can also give them a comfortable life where…

What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for?

The truth is already out. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. I’ve already cleared why I used the analogy of chess. More than enough and necessary.…

The truth is already out long long ago. Why are you taunting me even now? Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily? What’s going on man?

Note. This is called attempt to murder and unethical shady behaviour.

What exactly am I waiting for?

What’s going on man?

What’s going on man?

Learn to use magic questions like. What happened? What do you mean? Use words like. Thank you, Please, Sorry. Regularly and often.

On the contrary. If there’s a connection and rapport. Drop your ego and fight for it. Because that shit’s hard to find. Don’t end things when there are misunderstandings and conflicts. Because that’s inevitable. It’s a part and parcel of being close to someone. Sometimes we need to learn to have grace, give the benefit…

Normalise. Blocking, deleting, unfollowing, disengaging and cutting people off. Unapologetically and without guilt. Normalise saying. NO. Unapologetically and without guilt. No means No. No is a full sentence. You don’t need to explain it. You don’t need to justify it. You are not signing a contract with anyone to stay forever. Remember this. If the…

It’s called friendship only when it’s. Mutual. Connection and rapport. Is the pre-requisites of a friendship. Connection meaning. A deep bond characterized by mutual trust, shared history, and emotional safety Rapport meaning. A harmonious relationship where people understand each other’s feelings or ideas and communicate well My definition of a friend. A friend is a…

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man?

What’s going on man? The truth is already out. How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

What exactly am I waiting for? Why am I being taunted even now? The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on?

What’s going on man?

What exactly am I waiting for man? What’s going on?

What’s going on man?

I’m so fucking tired.

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on?

Why am I being kept in the dark? What’s going on?

The truth is already out. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I think about the way Teni betrayed me. It runs on my mind sometimes. It doesn’t make sense. I also think about all the harassments that I faced these last few years. I need time to make peace with it. Don’t know. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. I don’t know how…

I think about Teni Thomas sometimes. I don’t feel good about speaking about his infidelity here. I don’t know. I don’t feel good about it. Even if I did the right thing.

People really did roll their eyes and call me crazy. The whole world really did advise me to move on and find someone else. But I didn’t give up. My heart aches so much all the time. I love her so much. I’m so fucking tired of waiting. I’m also sick. I’m physically unwell.

I’ve been betrayed so many times by so many people. Voldemort paved the way for them. As I mentioned. I’ve had an extremely social life. There have been a lot of people. A lot. My back is so wounded that I don’t trust anyone easily. So when I meet someone good. I hold on to…

I miss Ginny so much. I keep crying. I’m just so fucking tired and physically and mentally exhausted. I don’t feel good.

I hope he reaches out some day. When he is ready to talk.

It’s been platonic between Will and I for a really long time. He is one of the best people that I know. It’s really hard to find a friend like him. His actions match his words. He always respects me. He apologises heartily when he hurts me. He is empathetic and kind. He has never…

I would not be here without the support and help of my community. We helped each other. Definitely teamwork. I love you all so much. x

Misandry is as bad and toxic as misogyny. Misogyny gets backlash and hatred. But misandry is normalized among certain communities of women and even supported. I don’t really get it. We’ve reached a point where we should start focusing on men’s rights. Because we’ve gone so overboard with feminism that it’s become toxic.

Note. I said this because. People ganged up and tried to kill me in September 2024. For saying the same. So yeah. Just putting it out there.

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. Long ago. More than enough and necessary. Does anyone want to explain to me what’s going on and why I’m being kept in the dark? What the bloody fuck am…

I’m a feminist. When women are not given equal rights. I will stand with them. And uplift them. This is the meaning of feminism. That women and men are equal. They deserve equal rights. But I do not agree with. Hating all men. Stereotyping all men as bad. Automatically assuming that it’s the man’s fault…

I’m speaking the truth. What are you going to do? Kill me? What makes you think I’m scared?

I’m speaking the truth. I don’t care if you like it or not.

Most women won’t accept the fact that they are bisexual because it hurts their ego to say it. Because most women secretly hate other women. Because they are jealous and they compete with them. Also they don’t like rejection. But all women are definitely bisexual. There’s no such thing as 100% straight in women. They…

Also. All women are bisexual. There’s no such thing as 100% straight in women. They are lying if they say otherwise. Everyone in this world masturbates. Does anyone want to explain to me why I’m being targeted?

Men are sex addicts who watch porn. Women are also sex addicts. Who not only watch porn but are addicted to reading porn. Both genders are sex addicts. Both genders are equal. One is not better than the other.

What’s going on man?

The truth is already out long long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I’m speaking the truth. I’ve repeated it millions of times since 2024. Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy. It’s over.

I was silenced and tortured my whole fucking life. When I got to know what Voldemort did in 2022. I fought through death and thunderstorms to say it. Now that I have finally said everything. After being silenced my whole fucking life. People are doubting me and making me repeat the same bloody things every…

I spoke the truth on day one itself. Each time. But I was silenced each and every time. When whatever happened with Voldemort. I clearly said. “She’s speaking about me.” But I was silenced. People ganged up and tortured me and tried to kill me. When whatever happened with Lucius. I clearly said. “She betrayed…

The truth is already out. What’s going on man?

Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind every single day? The truth is already out long ago. How much will you drag this unnecessarily? There’s nothing left to say. I’m not interested in repeating the same bloody things every single day. It’s over man.

What exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on?

What’s going on man?

What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I have believed in God since childhood. Because He was my imaginary friend. But now that I have grown up and gained maturity and understanding about the world. I’m also agnostic sometimes. I don’t know. But I go back to believing anyway. Because life is easier that way.

What happened to me was wrong. What the book community did to me was wrong. And I refuse to be a part of this.

The worst part is that. I can’t even speak about it to anyone. Whenever I speak here. I feel like I’m speaking to a fucking brick wall.

The book community might think what they are doing is right. Because according to them. “they are supporting the author and the book” Even if it is performative hyping. And they don’t give a fuck about the author or the book. The real reason is that they desperately need something against me to satisfy their…

What’s going on man?

I request the world to stop dehumanising me. And stop reducing Harry Potter in my story to a pet. And making it his entire personality. That’s a tiny bit of a much larger and complex story line.

I humbly request the world to stop referring to me as a cat. I, the author, am not a cat. Harry Potter is a cat animagi in my story. Which is a tiny part of the story. Not his entire identity. You like my story and are bringing the story alive. By adopting cats, getting…

Will I know you are reading this. I’m sorry for hurting you. I don’t care about the stupid fight. I’m sorry. I miss my best friend. We’ll always be best friends even if we speak or not. I hope you will reach out soon. 🥹

Does anyone want to explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? What’s going on man? The truth is already out. Why are you dragging shit unnecessarily?

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What the fuck is going on?

The truth is already out long ago. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. This is such a waste of time, effort and energy. Please stop wasting my precious time. Please stop making me repeat the same bloody things every single day. Till you are satisfied. I have finished.…

I went through insurmountable pain and suffering my whole life. I was the one who was wronged. And I’m here proving my integrity. When I’m fucking innocent. Why? Because I was able to clear my name and prove my innocence and sanity. And I’m still alive and I’m insanely successful. I’ve already cleared why I…

I clearly said to Dumbledore on day one itself. Voldemort is speaking about me. I asked him, “Why are people speaking to me that way?” If I knew why. I would have explained what Voldemort did on day one itself. But people ganged up and silenced me. They said I’m sick. That’s why I’m asking…

How much will you drag this unnecessarily? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

My heart is in a lot of pain. My body isn’t okay either. I’m beyond fed up. I miss Ginny so much. I think about her all day long, everyday. I’m so tired. I’m not really okay.

I don’t understand how everyone is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man?

Can someone please give me an ETA? I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. I don’t know why I’m being kept in the dark. What’s going on?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

Whatever the woman did to me on my walk a few hours back was wrong. I was being extremely clear that I’m not interested in engaging because I had my headphones on. Which is a clear DND. Just because we are in the same apartment complex. It is not an invitation to socialize. I started…

I went out for a walk after dinner just now. I was listening to music and minding my own business. I have too much on my plate because of whatever is going on. I wasn’t in the mindspace to speak to anyone. A woman who was passing by me suddenly tried to gain my attention…

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man?

What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man? The truth is already out long ago.

I’m always confused between the words. “wrist” and “waist” Every single time I come across either. I have to read the sentence again for it to register and make sense. That’s just how my mind works. I get by.

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on man?

People need to introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. Because my reactions and retaliations are. Normal, legit, valid and justified.

Whatever the book community did to me was downright wrong. It’s betrayal. It’s still fucking going on. No matter how many times I speak about it and clear things. I’m not interested in adding value to such a community. There’s going to be absolutely no book content from me. I’m not fucking interested. I hate…

You can clearly understand from the behaviour of aggressive stalker that people don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I say NO. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. They don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I repeat it. Whatever the aggressive stalker did today was…

What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I’m speaking the truth about that overgrown man. He keeps aggressively stalking me. He just doesn’t stop. Can someone please speak to him and ask him to stop. I feel extremely suicidal and angry whenever I see him. Because of all the harassment and aggressive stalking and pouncing. I want a restraining order against that…

I always walk on the left side of the apartment building in the morning because there’s shade there. Also because the aggressive stalker doesn’t come there. The aggressive stalker always walks in the middle of the apartment building. I walk here to avoid the stalker. Today morning. The stalker was coming back from buying groceries.…

The truth is already out long long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this regularly and choosing to stay quiet. What’s going on man?

I don’t know why father was staring at my body in the past. I don’t know if he wanted me dead. Or it’s because he’s from the boomer generation. Or if he really did sexually assault me. I don’t know his intentions. But because of whatever he did. I have that trauma even now. I’m…

It took me 4 years to speak about every single thing and clear the shit. Please understand what’s happening at least now. The truth is already out. What the fuck am I waiting for?

I don’t feel safe whenever I step out of the house. I get a lot of attention each time. I’m scared of my safety. On top of all this. Because of the reality and double life that I’m existing in. I’m helpless and vulnerable. Most people suck. They are creepy fans with a leverage. They…

It’s not just father. Every single time I wear something revealing and step out of the house. Minimum 5 people ogle at my body and cleavage. Minimum. Men and women equally. Uncles, aunties and behenjis. They ogle with their mouths open and eyes bulging out of their sockets and psychotic expressions on their faces. Minimum…

I go through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. Without any answers. I don’t know why I’m being kept in the dark. It’s summer now. But I can’t wear shorts. Because if I wear shorts and step out of the bedroom door. Father will ogle at my body like a ruthless vulture. And I will…

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I don’t understand how the whole world is reading this on a regular basis and choosing to stay quiet. When people gang up and torture me and try to kill me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to benefit out of me and create content out of my content.…

The whole world is benefitting out of me and creating content out of my content. I’m suffering existing in this reality and double life. Without money to take care of my basic expenses and talk to my therapist since January 2025. The only thing I have are the problems of being successful. I’ve been extremely…

What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for?

What’s going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

Why the fuck are you taunting me? What’s going on man?

The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. What the fuck is going on man? What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on? What the fuck am I waiting for?

I was listening to this and I would really like to convey this message. Because I know the whole world is reading my blogs. My mom said the same thing to me that the last stranger in this video regrets saying to his daughter. In 2023. Mom said her biggest mistake in life was giving…

In other news. I’m not going to stop listening to Style by Taylor Swift. I love that song. It reminds me of Ginny. I refuse to let a bad experience ruin a good memory. I know my truth. I’m going to stick to it. The bad will eventually fade. Good Night. I love you all.…

After seeing Voldemort’s therapy account I’m no longer angry at her. My anger has dissipated. I feel conflicted. I don’t know why she’s posting regularly. I don’t know what’s going on. I don’t know what exactly happened. I silently see her stories and posts sometimes. Then block. I created the second account to stalk Ginny.…

I’m speaking the truth. Everything that I have said here is the truth. If people were so interested in my personal life. They could have just asked me. Like a normal person. I might not be rich and perfect. But I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit.

Unless and until you tell me what’s happening. I wouldn’t know what’s happening. Even now I don’t know why Voldemort is actively posting on her therapy account. I have so many unanswered questions. I’m going through immense psychological pressure waiting this way. On top of this. Everyone I’m speaking to is playing twisted games. It…

What’s going on man? Why are you showing me the lyrics of mastermind by Taylor Swift every day? What the fuck is happening? The truth is already out. What’s going on?

The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for?

Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend. I cannot comply. NO means NO. NO is a full sentence. When someone is saying NO and being extremely clear that they are not interested. You are supposed to stay the fuck away. I take absolutely no responsibility for someone else’s insecurities…

Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. They don’t understand a NO. No matter how many times I say NO. You can clearly understand this from the behaviour of the aggressive stalker and Dudley’s father. No matter how many times I said NO. They kept harassing and assaulting me. It’s the…

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

I’ve been speaking about this since August 2024. I’ve repeated the same things millions of times. It’s april 2026. And I’m still speaking about the same bloody things. What the actual fuck. The truth is already out fucking long ago. How much will you waste my time? Unnecessarily. How much?

I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to and texted countless people. But very few people whom I’ve connected with. Very few friends. I don’t use the word friend loosely. People in my close circle are in my close circle for a reason. I’m friendly and kind to everyone. But I keep it casual…

I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to and texted countless people. But very few people whom I’ve connected with. Very few friends. I don’t use the word friend loosely. People in my close circle are in my close circle for a reason. I’m friendly and kind to everyone. But I keep it casual…

I miss Ginny. I don’t know what she’s been up to these last 2 years. I don’t know if she’s in Canada. I don’t know if she was really engaged or she simply said that. I’m so fucking tired.

Problems won’t stop when I have a normal and conventional life. But I can handle it better. Right now I’m helpless and vulnerable.

As long as I exist in this reality and double life. Shit will continue forever and ever. I’ve explained the complexities of existing in this reality in detail. In case something happens tomorrow. Please don’t blame me. I’ve left absolutely no room for misunderstandings and doubts. Tomorrow in case someone tries to lie about me…

When people were sexually assaulting me in August 2024. I couldn’t understand why I was being sexually assaulted. I clearly said on day one itself, “I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened.” I was going to die multiple times between August and October. I understood Pettigrew betrayed me in October 2024.…

If Pettigrew had misunderstandings. She should have spoken the complete truth and said that she misunderstood. The casualties would have been less for her. People would have forgiven her as well. Because she’s from the weaker section of the society and she lacks social skills and comprehension. But she had other plans. She was digging…

This is being dragged unnecessarily. The truth is already out. This is such a waste of time.

I was going to die multiple times between August 2024 and October 2024. If Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom had not saved my life. I would have been dead. They are entirely different people with a different heart and mind. I cannot control them. They saved my life on their own free will. Ginny…

If I knew that Pettigrew betrayed me and lied about me in August 2024. I would have spoken the truth on day one itself. I was going to die multiple times between August 2024 and October 2024. If Doctor Mahesh Meda and my mom had not saved my life. I would have been dead. So…

The truth is already out. I’ve already proved my innocence and sanity and cleared my name. The liars are already in front of the world. I cannot keep repeating the same bloody things every single day. This is such a waste of time. Please stop wasting my precious time. It’s over man.

Pettigrew was just a random ass side character. She was just a random ass waiter in a random ass restaurant. I don’t even give her a second thought. I honestly don’t know how she came into the picture. She turned out to be one of the biggest Villains.

When I used the analogy of chess in August 2024. I was talking about Voldemort and the death eaters. When I used the hukum song on my Instagram in August 2024. I was thinking about Voldemort and the death eaters. I was fighting against them. Pettigrew was just a random ass side character. She is…

I’ve already said everything millions of times. I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday forever and ever. The truth is already out. This is just a fucking waste of time, efforts and energy.

The truth is already out long ago. I’ve repeated it millions of times since August 2024. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m speaking the truth and I’m innocent. You know it too. You just don’t want to accept it. You are just wasting precious time by dragging this unnecessarily. The liars are already…

The truth is already out long ago. What the fuck am I waiting for?

I’ve already cleared every single miniscule thing. More than enough and necessary. I’ve repeated myself millions of times since August 2024. The truth is already out long ago. Stop making me repeat the same bloody things every single day.

I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence and sanity. The truth is already out. The liars are already in front of the world. What the actual fuck am I waiting for? Why are you dragging things unnecessarily every single day? Why are you wasting everyone’s time, efforts and energy? Why the fuck are…

When the world wants to benefit out of me and create content out of my content. Everything happens so quickly. When the world wants to write books, songs and make movies out of my story. Everything happens so quickly. When people want to throw things on my face whenever I express a personal opinion. Everything…

I’ve been extremely sick since last August. My parents are sick as well. I’ve been suffering. I don’t have money to take care of my basic expenses and talk to my therapist. The whole world is benefitting out of me and this is what I’m going through. What the actual fuck is this man?

When people wanted me dead and tortured me. Based on lies and manipulations. Everything happened so damn quickly. I clearly said on day one itself I’m not interested in women IRL please ask me what happened. But everyone was jumping and ganging up to torture and kill me. At that time no one dragged shit.…

I have written more than 5k blogs. I must have used more than 100 analogies and examples. The truth is already out long ago. The liars are already in front of the world. There’s literally nothing left to say. Everyone in this world clearly knows that I’m innocent. You know it too. But people are…

Please stop making me repeat the same things. I’m beyond fed up.

Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend. I cannot comply. Half the population are jokers in a white cardigan. Some people have extreme cases of para social relationships with me. I’m not fucking interested. Trying to be friends with someone. And actually being friends. Are two different things. If…

When I went out for a walk a few weeks ago in my apartment. An old lady came behind me and touched my shoulder. Honestly, I don’t know anyone in my apartment society. I have no friends here and I’m not interested in making friends as well. Also. There were a lot of people walking…

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?

The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for man? How much will you drag this unnecessarily?

The only thing I asked Pettigrew to do was take my picture. She stuck to me like a parasite and a leech. She was not taking no for an answer. She was constantly forcing. There was no friendship. She has a para social relationship with me. I had uploaded a picture on my Instagram for…

Stop showing me Dobby. I’ve already cleared everything long ago. The truth is already out. Pettigrew is not fucking Dobby. She is not my friend. We barely spoke. She was constantly forcing the friendship. Whatever she has is para social relationship. She is just a random ass waiter in a random ass restaurant. You can…

The truth is already out long long ago. What’s going on man? What the fuck am I waiting for?

What the fuck am I waiting for?

What the fuck am I waiting for?

What exactly am I waiting for?

I go through immense psychological pressure existing this way. Without any answers. I don’t understand why I’m being kept in the dark. I don’t know why Voldemort is posting on her therapy account regularly. I have so many unanswered questions. I went through something very serious my whole life. I want to know what happened…

My parents are really old and innocent. It kills me when I think about my parents going out into the world. And people play stupid games with them. By gaslighting them. They are not educated enough to understand these things. They will silently accept the doormat treatment and people please and stay quiet. It eats…

What the bloody fuck am I waiting for? What kind of inhuman barbaric cruelty is this?