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I was watching a reel of a woman who was talking shit about men. She was saying how much she hates men who accept the fact that they look good and say it out loud. And this same influencer made another reel talking about how pretty she is. __ This is called double standards. __…
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I feel people are going a little bit overboard with feminism. It’s kinda getting toxic too. Feminism stands for men and women to be treated equally. But we’ve gotten to a point where women talking shit about men and stereotyping them is being normalised. Feminism is required where it’s required. i.e. in parts of the…
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Don’t start shit. Learn to take a step back and maintain the peace and harmony. Don’t cause any man made problems intentionally. Live and let live.
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Moving through life is like crossing the street. Whenever you cross, you have to look left and right and watch your step. If you are reckless and don’t watch your step. You will be run over by vehicles and even die. No, I’m not asking you to be cynical. I’m asking you to always watch…
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I don’t gloat. I have never said that I’m king or God as well. Those aren’t my words. People consider that. People are placing unrealistic expectations on my shoulders. I have just said that I’m a public figure and youtuber. __ Pettigrew asked me to look for a job when everyone clearly knew things worked…
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I miss Ginny so much. I’m not okay. I cry every day. I’m so fed up. So fed up. My heart aches so much.
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I keep feeling that I’m normal. I don’t think I have anything. I’m a bit different because I have so many problems.
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Honestly I don’t even know what schizophrenia is. Everyone was calling me crazy for so and so reasons. So I cleared it. That’s it. I know I’m different from everyone else. I might be neurodivergent I think. Who knows what I have.
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It’s not Dumbledore’s fault. He was just doing his job. This is how psychiatry works. Honestly it sucks. Even therapy, legal system, education system, the intricacies of getting married etc. Everything needs to be revamped.
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Next time in case something happens. I expect people to handle it better. I expect maturity. Please have the basic decency to ask me what happened. Unless and until you know both the sides of the story please for heaven’s sake hold your horses. Before hurting me based on someone else’s lies and manipulations please…
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Whatever connection you feel with me is one sided. I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m not your friend. I’m a public figure. Please be mindful about this. Please don’t encroach on my personal space and boundaries. My boundaries are non-negotiable.
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After I started dating, I spoke to around 250 men. But I fell in love just twice. __ I’ve had an extremely social life. There have been so many casual people. So many. But very few friends. __ What I’m trying to say is. It’s really hard to find people whom we connect with. When…
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Everyone always likes me and has a lowkey crush on me. I have that thing about me. My imperfections have nothing to do with my allure. Men never know how to keep it platonic. Apparently even women. __ I’m not interested in anyone. I’ve been extremely clear about whom I like. I request everyone to…
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The truth is already out long ago and the liars are already exposed. Taunting me now is unnecessary and a waste of everyone’s time, efforts and energy. Understand when things have reached its due course and put an end to it.
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I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence more than enough. I request people to please stop taunting me and leave me alone. I cannot keep repeating the same things everyday that’s already been cleared and clarified. Please put an end to this. Thank you.
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I’ve already cleared why I used the word “win”. I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. I’m not interested in speaking about this anymore. I’ve already cleared my name and proved my innocence. Thank you.
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I don’t want Dumbledore and Draco to face any charges. I don’t know if Dhruv was just stating misunderstandings or what exactly he said. If people were acting out of misunderstandings and preconceived notions, it can be forgiven. If they had malicious intentions, I want justice for it. I want justice for the sexual assaults…
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Most people are not bad. There are some people who aren’t good, yes. But most humans are inherently good. But they act on misunderstandings and impulses without stopping for a beat and reflecting. They make reckless mistakes. Sometimes there’s no going back. They repent, regret and waste their precious lives. This is the true story…
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I’ve spoken about where everyone is going wrong. I’ve given you solutions as well. It’s free advice. You can take it if you want to.
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Also, People are always sparring and ready for combat. Because most people have an ego. They take everything to court. They want to fight. They want to destroy. They want to win. __ Most of the things can be resolved verbally if you just sit down and speak about it openly and have a one…
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When someone has a misunderstanding and they are speaking about that incident to people. They should say, “This person did this and said this. I’m not sure what exactly they meant by it but I reacted this way.” This is so much appreciated. __ Instead they confidently state it as a fact or confidently lie…
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I’m not interested in repeating the same things everyday. I’ve spoken about everything and repeated it a million times since last one year. I’m done. Please put an end to this. I’m not interested in speaking about this topic anymore. I want to move on with my life.
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After whatever I faced in life. No one in their right mind would be jealous of me. No one in their right mind would hurt me. But people are still jealous and they still intentionally hurt me. Most people suck.
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Pettigrew is a random ass side character in a random ass restaurant. I didn’t know she lied. I didn’t see it coming. According to me, I had finished writing and everything was done. She caused so much drama and trauma. When I got to know she betrayed me. I started writing once again and cleared…
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I fought through death to say my side of the story. I’ve said it. __ When I got to know the law was involved and I was framed, I started giving proof as well. I’ve given proof for whatever I can think of. __ I’ve said and done everything. I’ve already cleared my name and…
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Please stop hurting me based on the false narratives of a lonely sex addict. She is so vulgar and looks like a fucking ugly potato. I cannot believe people thought that I’m so cheap to do the things that she falsely accused me of. I’m glad I was able to clear my name and I…
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I hate to break it to you but most people are stupid. I mean most people I’ve interacted with. I’m not that smart but if the world is filled with such people, I might as well be smart. __ People lack comprehension skills, they lack attention and clarity, the ability to understand a context, the…
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I wrote on my blog 2 times while this incident was going on that, “Pettigrew is not my friend and I felt like I was making all the efforts, so I’m taking a step back” I was trying my best to make her understand that I’m not interested and we are not friends. I was…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Taunting me now and dragging this is not only unnecessary but a waste of everyone’s time and energy.
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I don’t think anyone in the history of this world had to prove themselves so much. The truth is already out long ago. What’s going on?
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly is happening? Why is this being dragged unnecessarily?
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I want closure. I want to know what happened to everyone who wronged me. I want to know what exactly is happening. Why are everyone keeping me in the dark? Why am I waiting this way?
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Everyone needs to understand that I went through something very serious. I was on the verge of dying numerous times these last 3 years. I went through numerous near death experiences. I need to speak to my therapist or someone daily and talk about everything that happened. Verbally. All I’ve been doing is writing here.…
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I miss Ginny so much. I keep thinking about her everyday. My memories are fading away and they seem distant. My heart still aches though and I still cry. I don’t feel very good. I miss her so much. I’m not okay. I’m not okay at all. I’m so fed up and tired. I’m holding…
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I had called the delivery agent and asked him why he did that, while I was having a panic attack. He said sorry. I complained to big basket because I wanted them to ask him what exactly was his intention. People usually don’t tell me their intentions directly. So let them ask him and understand.
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I’m so disturbed by whatever the delivery agent did to me. I ordered from big basket because I was really hungry. After he left, I had a panic attack and I could not calm down for a long time. My hunger vanished. I couldn’t focus on anything. I’m already suffering and this person stabbed me…
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The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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I’ve been ordering from big basket since many years. No one has done it till date. The delivery agent intentionally stopped me and said “What is your name” and smiled. He did that intentionally. He did that to trigger me. I don’t know why anyone would do that. __ What exactly am I waiting for?…
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After whatever Dudley did to me. She was also trying her best to make me jealous of her pathetic life. __ After whatever happened at the Ministry with Varsha Vinod. No one asked me what happened or my side of the story. People assumed I was jealous of their pathetic jobs. They ganged up and…
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I ordered from big basket just now. They never ask names whenever they deliver the order. Big basket has never done it till date these last 3 years whenever I order. But today when the man delivered, he intentionally stopped me and asked me my name. He did this intentionally. I know it was intentional.…
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Whenever you check something that I watched from my internet history. Please make sure you check the watch time. I have a habit of clicking on random things. I’ll be in my own world thinking about something, I don’t realise it. __ Whenever I watch porn. I just watch the beginning 5-10 seconds leading up…
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I was scrolling through xhamster the other day. It’s a porn website. There were so many videos with the title “teen”. I didn’t open it. I’m not sure what’s going on. This is illegal I think. The cops need to take a look at that website.
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Dudley was burning behind her facade 3 years ago. Because I was hot, confident, successful and really good. I was at my prime. I was everything she can never be. She was extremely jealous and insecure. I started speaking to her friend organically. She was doing everything in her power to keep me away from…
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I always reuse old gifts as a last minute gift. Also, I love giving and receiving thoughtful gifts. __ When I was speaking to Savita Nair, I got to know it was her birthday last minute. So I gave her my new bookmarks that I had displayed on my shelf because she loves to read.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for the ragging at college. I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. I want justice. __ Don’t support the…
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I want you to take away every single glory and perks that were given to the perpetrators because of me. Every single one of them. Let them earn their good fortune by themselves. Don’t support people just because they are from the weaker sections of the society or disabled or something of those sorts. They…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want every single person who did me wrong to get their karma.
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Most people suck and they are creepy fans. But because of the reality that I’m existing in they have leverage. They feel it’s okay to cross my boundaries and do whatever fuck they want. Because with me they don’t have to face any consequences. They do whatever fuck they want and conveniently turn the table…
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I want Dudley to get her karma. I pray to God every single day that karma hits Dudley and her family on their chest with full force. She just wanted the attention and glory that comes attached to me. She had ulterior motives. She has been sucking glory like how she has been sucking her…
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I’ve been sick for the last 4 months. I need to see a doctor. My parents are also sick. We need to see a fucking doctor. I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Does anyone want to explain what exactly am I waiting for?
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There is an account on Instagram “kids getting hurt” which has around 7M followers. I don’t understand why people follow that account. I was stalking a famous celebrity and I saw that they follow this account. I was shocked to see this kind of thing exists. It’s sadistic and dark and not funny at all.…
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I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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I used to not look good in the past. Everyone used to call me ugly and body shame me all the time. I’ve heard so many things growing up. Boys used to speak to me only because they were interested in my girl best friends. I was invisible. My friends have called me inconspicuous. That’s…
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When I started dating in 2019. Everyone I knew, my family and friends back then, asked me to settle for really ugly men. They said since I have so many problems, I have to compromise. But I said no. __ I spoke to a lot of men. So many men. It wasn’t working out. Even…
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Some people have sparkly golden retriever energy and personality. They are always kind and sweet. They are like that with everyone. I’m kinda like that when I’m in a good mood. Depends on my mood. __ Sometimes it’s not love bombing. Some people lack social experiences and interactions. They are deprived of kindness and empathy.…
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I’ve already shared everything that I know and understand. I’ve shared everything about my life as well. I’ve recounted everything to the best of my memory. I’ve shared what makes me different. There’s nothing left to say. I’m speaking the truth. Please fact check everything. I don’t remember certain things clearly because so many things…
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I observe and notice more than people realise. I’m good at reading expressions and body language. I’m good at reading people to a certain extent. Sometimes I don’t understand things because I can’t read minds. But I’m good at it. I don’t say anything. Because I never start shit. It’s none of my business. I…
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I have negative thoughts too. I don’t like certain people. Some people annoy the shit out of me. Sometimes I have valid and legit reasons. Sometimes it’s something petty. They are random people whom I know or random people on the internet. (I don’t dislike people for their looks or imperfections. I dislike them for…
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Most of the problems in this world are, Firstly because people act on misunderstandings. Second because people act on their impulses. __ In the heat of the moment people don’t think and reflect. They just go go go on their thoughts. This is where people are going wrong. Later they repent, regret and even waste…
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I gave Pettigrew multiple chances to take a step back without complaining to her manager. I was polite from day one. I tried helping her till the last minute. If she had taken a step back, all these things wouldn’t have happened. But she was misguided and she started shit and she betrayed me. I…
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I’ve said it a million times. Unless and until someone does you dirty it’s not betrayal. So my advice to people is this. __ If you don’t like someone, that’s okay. It’s not possible to like everyone in this world and everyone won’t like you either. When you don’t like someone because you are jealous…
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I’ve said it before saying it again. If you want to be in a relationship with someone or be friends with someone, You have to get to know each other, interact, spend time etc. Until and unless people do this, they cannot decide if they want to be friends or want to be in a…
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When people ghost me or block me, I don’t carry any hatred or animosity towards them. When someone stops being my friend that doesn’t make them my enemy. __ For example, Nikita ghosted me recently. Rohit blocked me. I have absolutely no hatred towards them. __ They had their reasons to disengage. I respect their…
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I want every single person who spread slander and lies to face charges of defamation and false accusations. I want justice for what happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for what the person who was controlling my content and surroundings did to me. I want justice for the smear campaign. I…
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I want justice for every single miniscule unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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Definition of a friend according to the Oxford English Dictionary, a friend is a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, a close and informal relationship of mutual trust and intimacy. No. Pettigrew is not my friend according to this definition. She is not my friend according to my personal definition of…
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I’ve had an extremely social life. I’ve spoken to some of them on calls, met them outside, taken pictures etc. But I still don’t consider them as “friends”. I don’t use the word friend loosely. They were casual people whom I knew at one point in my life. Acquaintances, colleagues, classmates, neighbours etc. That’s it.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Every single miniscule thing. I’m setting an example to the world. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want everyone to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. I want everyone to clearly understand that they cannot spread slander and…
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I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice.
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People are bullshitting in front of the world. Everything is theatrics. They are keeping their good name in front of the world at all costs. There’s always immense BS, manipulations and lies. Don’t believe anything you hear about me. Good or bad. Unless I say it.
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In case something happens tomorrow, before going berserk like cavemen and jumping and ganging up and torturing me, please have the basic decency to ask me what happened like a normal person. Please show some maturity. Until and unless you know both sides of the story, please fucking hold your horses.
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If there’s any kind of shady unethical behaviour from anyone, I’m going to be extremely vocal about it. I request everyone to please behave.
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I will not be responding to force and desperation. I’m a friend to my community only on my public platforms. On a personal front, I’m not your friend. I’m a public figure. I expect the convention and respect of a public figure. I have my problems and limitations. So I expect my boundaries and privacy…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. I have already explained everything. I want you to understand this. I have explained the complexities of existing in this reality. I’m not the fucking problem here. Please put an end to this. I want a normal and…
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I have already cleared and clarified all the preconceived notions and slander. Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t mean I will like every single Tom, dick and harry who comes my way. I’m extremely picky when it comes to my romantic likings. I’m a woman of class. When I like someone I directly say it, I…
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People didn’t know me before. Now you do. Really well. I want to maintain my privacy after this is over. I want my space, boundaries and privacy to be respected strictly. I’ve had an extremely difficult life so I want a quiet life after this is done. I’m so fucking tired.
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I might not be rich and perfect. But I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. Voldemort threw mud on my name and paved the way. The death eaters effortlessly followed and dragged my name through mud. Only I knew the truth. I was desperate to say everything. I’ve said it. In case something…
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I read in Lily Collins biography that she compliments strangers on the road and smiles at them. That’s how I got that habit. __ In the book P.S. I love you when Gerry falls sick and gets cancer he mentions how growing old is a privilege or something along those lines. That stuck with me…
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I kept asking Dumbledore since day one. “Why are people speaking to me that way?” This was the only thing stopping me from telling my story. I was on the verge of dying my whole life and I kept repeating the same thing. Once I got to know why 3 years ago, I had to…
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I clearly speak the truth on day one itself. __ When whatever happened with Voldemort, I clearly kept repeating she was speaking about me. But everyone ganged up and tortured me and silenced me. __ When whatever happened with Lucius, I clearly said she betrayed me. But everyone ganged up and tortured me and silenced…
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If I want it, it’s easy and effortless. I want everyone to clearly understand this fact and get it inside their fucking heads. I’m not interested in anyone. I humbly request vulgar aunties, behenjis and uncles to stop jumping. You need to calm down. I already have someone that I love. I request everyone to…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out. No one wants anyone dead? Where are all the barbaric cavemen who created riots on the road? Where are you man? Why is it so quiet?
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When someone has feelings for you and they lust on you. They have a habit of projecting their feelings and they see everything in that light. Most humans do this. I don’t do it because I’m different. But most people do it. I’ve seen a pattern. __ Most people have an ego so they don’t…
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I don’t know who was stating misunderstanding, who filed a complaint and who had malicious intent. Based on whatever I have understood. I have spoken about everything and proved and cleared it. You need to question the people in question and take action accordingly. Because I don’t know the exact situation. Unless and until you…
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In retrospect, I think I understand the misunderstandings that Dhruv had to a certain extent. I was keeping it platonic. I liked him as my friend. But I think he was attracted to me since day one. Idk what exactly he said about me and if he had any malicious intent. Literally everyone calls me…
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I want even Lucius Malfoy and Lockhart to get their karma. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me.
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The person who was controlling my surroundings and content is the real demon. I want justice for every single thing.
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I want Dudley, moana shree, varsha vinod, ance jose and every single person who did me wrong to get their karma. Don’t believe people if they say they have changed. Some people are jokers in a white cardigan. I want justice for what happened to me. I want justice for every single thing that happened…
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I want Rachel Catherine and her kitty party to get their karma for what they did to me. I want abby jimnez to get her karma for calling me an ugly gargoyle in her book. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me.
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It’s getting colder by the day. I love winter so much. Christmas is round the corner. I hope this gets over before that. I’m tired of waiting. My throat feels a bit weird sometimes even now. It doesn’t hurt like before. It’s a mild pain rarely every now and then. I need to see a…
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Don’t follow my advices blindly. I’m not always right. I’m definitely going to change my mind when I gain more knowledge and understanding. We need to keep adapting and growing with changing times. There is a possibility that my advices will become outdated because there will be other pressing issues in the future. I’m okay…
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Forgiveness is overrated and subjective. Don’t obsess so much about it. Focus on healing your pain and anger when you are hurt. Forgiveness comes later. It’s possible to place the burden down and move on without forgiving.
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You should have self respect but you should not have ego. When you love someone, you should not show ego. If you show ego, that’s not love. I said what I said. I stay away from people who have ego. I really don’t like them.
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I have spoken about everything and cleared my part. I don’t know who said what exactly. I don’t know who had malicious intent and who were acting out of misunderstanding and preconceived notions. Please ask the people in question why they did what they did. And take action accordingly.
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I believed in God during my childhood and spoke to Him when I was mute. But now that I’m older and have gained maturity and understanding. Sometimes I doubt my belief. Sometimes I have moments when I think, What’s the point of all this? Why are we here? Does our existence even matter? Are we…
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I wasn’t 100 percent sure if Pettigrew was really bisexual. It was an intuition based on her behaviour and the way she kept calling me to her house and moaning. I didn’t want to say anything I wasn’t 100 percent sure about. Her energy was off. That’s the main reason I was constantly pushing her.…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. Every single miniscule thing. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice. I’ve already cleared my name. You need to question the people in question and ask them why they did what they did. And take action accordingly.
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When women publicly bash men. Everyone supports it. But men aren’t allowed to speak ill about women who wronged them the same way. Because everyone starts speaking about feminism and women’s rights. But what about men’s rights? Don’t you think this is double standard? Men who are good silently take this shit from the society…
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Whenever a woman and a man break up. People automatically assume that it is the guy’s fault and take the woman’s side. Because she’s a woman. This is a stereotypical behaviour and it is not always the case. There’s always two sides to the story. I’m well aware of what some bitches are capable of.…
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I think it makes sense why Draco is not reaching out. I took revenge and took out my anger towards her. She hurt me and I hurt her back. I guess our friendship is severed. After whatever happened with Pettigrew I’m no longer angry at her and I think about her sometimes. I hope she’s…
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Children should be taught life skills in school. Like rejection, difference in opinion, agreeing to disagree, sex ed, self respect, self love, emotional regulation etc. Meaning of sexual assault and rape. I wish someone had taught me these things in school. I learnt self respect and self love because of therapy. I learnt about sex…
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I’ve said it before, saying it again. I’m completely okay with people ghosting and blocking me. If you don’t like me, please block or ghost me. This is so much better than defeating me, destroying my life, trying to kill me and constantly being passive aggressive. I’ll be happy if someone ghosts or blocks. I’m…
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Just making plans and exchanging numbers and following each other on Instagram doesn’t make you friends. I’ve done that so many fucking times throughout my life. There have been so many casual people in my life. So many. As I mentioned before, I’ve had an extremely social life. People keep coming and going. There have…
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I always have a “I don’t give up” attitude in life. I never give up even when life throws shit at me and I’m faced with adversity. This attitude has always helped me. This is why I persisted and I’m still alive. This is why things worked out with Ginny because I kept fighting for…
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I kept fighting and didn’t give up. I’ve already proved that she’s a liar. She’s really not a good person. __ I’ve already proved myself more than enough and cleared every single miniscule thing. I’ve given you whatever proof that I can think of. I’m speaking the truth. I always speak the truth. Everyone knows…
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I don’t get along with people who have ego. You should have self respect but you should not have an ego. __ Pettigrew has a huge ego. She’s a narcissist. I noticed it. Her energy was off since day one. She was constantly overstepping my boundaries. I tried my best to tell her I’m not…
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I’ve already explained what causes misunderstandings and how to handle it. I’ve explained projection. I’ve also explained everything else that I have noticed and understood about human psychology. It will help you. I’m good at certain things that everyone is already aware of. I’ve shared it with the world. I’ve spoken about everything that’s crucial…
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Last year after things worked out for me. I opened Instagram and I saw a reel on my “for you” page. It was an edit of taylor swift at the eras tour that said, “Taylor Swift won in life” I think it was meant for me. Because Ginny was going to come back and things…
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Note. You can read this blog again. All sentences are positive in it. I’m saying, “God is always with me. My consciousness is always clear. I always think from a place of love. I might be the holy spirit.” And I said, “my move is always going to be checkmate.” Meaning. I’m not playing the…
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I’ve already proved that I was not horny during 2023 and 2024. Until and unless I take the additional medicine I don’t feel horny. Because my prolactin level is higher than normal. After I saw the white thing in my underwear I stopped the additional medicine. Because it was the side effect. This was in…
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I don’t have certain human emotions. Hence I always rise above the drama. I’m not saying I’m better than everyone else. I don’t dislike people who have those emotions as well. Because I’m aware everyone has them. It’s just me who is different. I do like people who are close to me even if I’m…
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Instead of constantly taunting me. You should question the people in question. And fact check everything that I’ve written here. Because I’ve already cleared my name.
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I’ve already proved myself more than enough. I’ve cleared, clarified and proved every single thing. I’ve given valid and legit proofs for everything. I’ve cleared everything with solid proof. I’ve given proof for whatever I can think of. I’m speaking the truth. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I cannot…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want people to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. There’s going to be severe consequences even with me. I’m fighting…
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I had uploaded a picture on my Instagram for Ginny with a friendship bracelet saying “take me home” That’s why Pettigrew was constantly forcing me to go to her house. She’s a creepy fan with main character syndrome. __ Anna from the crochet workshop is also a creepy fan. I had spoken about how Ginny…
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When I was dating Ginny in 2022 I was not confident. I was really shy and awkward. I was also crazy. I didn’t know how to speak properly back then. Also, She is so fucking hot. I cannot look at her face and speak at the same time. I get butterflies and start feeling dizzy.…
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Based on whatever I saw online and what I’ve understood from my interactions with Pettigrew. I feel she has trouble understanding the code of conduct and also she’s misguided. I also feel she lacks social experiences and is deprived of kindness and empathy. From whatever conversations I had with her I feel she has trouble…
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If I want it, it’s easy and effortless. I’ve said this a million times. I want you to understand it. Because it’s true. I’m not really interested in a disgusting filthy creepy waiter. Also, It wasn’t written on her forehead that she’s bisexual. This is not what one expects when you go to a restaurant.…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. I’ve spoken about every single thing and repeated it multiple times. I’ve cleared, proved and clarified every single thing more than required. I’ve already proved that she’s a liar long ago. I’m not interested in speaking about this anymore.
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I want justice for what happened to me at Askaban and Ministry. I want justice for every single slander and lies that were spread about me. I want justice for every single sexual assault. I want justice for every single harassment and assault. I want justice for the smear campaign. I want justice for every…
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I know I’m repeating myself. I’m literally losing it. I miss Ginny. I need to see a doctor. I cannot exist this way anymore. I’m tired of waiting. I’m so fed up. I’m holding on because of the hope that this will end soon.
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If I want it it’s easy and effortless. I’m not deprived of physical intimacy. I don’t need anything from these vulgar and disgusting women and a boy who looks like an insect. God. I might not be rich and perfect but I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. I cannot believe I had…
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I think Pettigrew’s definition of friendship is different from my definition of friendship. Maybe she considers everyone whom she speaks to as her friend. I need to feel a sense of connection and rapport and trust and safety to use that word. Because a friend is a valuable word for me. Also, We barely spoke.…
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I didn’t understand what was happening when it was happening. This is the only reason I survived whatever happened to me in the past. My mind was not developed. I didn’t know the meaning of sexual assault, rape, betrayal etc. I didn’t know people wanted me dead. I doubted my own sanity for a decade…
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For the record, I don’t have unconditional love for everyone in this world. I had unconditional love when I was young but now I’ve grown up. I have basic platonic love from a distance as a part of my community and society. There is a boundary there. Because I don’t trust everyone and sometimes I…
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I don’t think Draco will reach out. Because she doesn’t have the ability to put her ego aside and apologise for what she did to me. She doesn’t have the audacity to text. Her ego is bigger than her head. Even Rohit. He doesn’t have the ability to put his ego aside and apologise. It’s…
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I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. Starting from prison school up until unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!!!
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After whatever happened with Pettigrew, I honestly miss Draco sometimes. She is open minded and cool and inherently good. Even if we had problems and she bullied me. Most of our problems were because I didn’t have self respect and self love back then. I accepted the doormat treatment silently until one day I couldn’t…
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I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Taunting me now is a waste of everyone’s time and energy. Please tell me what exactly am I waiting for?
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Next time in case something happens, I expect maturity and basic decency. I expect people to handle it better.
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This is what was happening till now. I have explained, cleared and clarified every single thing. I have given proof for whatever I can think of. I’ve done everything in my power to show you the truth. I cannot do anything more than this.
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. You need to understand this. I’m not the fucking problem. Most people suck. __ They are creepy fans but because of this reality that I’m existing in they have a leverage over me. They take advantage of my…
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I have not shared any personal information about Ginny. I have not shared any personal information about people who were good to me as well. I have not shared their secrets. Their secrets are safe with me. Irrespective of the fact that we still speak or not. I just briefly spoke about them. __ There…
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I don’t think we should stop using social media. In this day and age, it is a really important and powerful medium to stay connected with the world and stay updated on what’s happening in the world. And other uses that I mentioned before. Just don’t drift away from the purpose of it all. Try…
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People need to introspect and reflect upon their actions and behaviour. Because my reactions and retaliations are valid, normal and justified. 100%. I want people to be held responsible for their actions and behaviour. Please don’t support the perpetrators. When you support such behaviour, you are enabling it. When you enable it, people will have…
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My reactions and retaliations are normal, valid and justified. 100%. The way people have been harassing and torturing me to forgive the aggressive stalker was inhuman, barbaric and cruel. I despise him to the core of my being for the harassments and pouncing and the theatrics. I hate him every time I see his bloody…
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I’ve already proved, cleared and clarified every single miniscule thing. I’ve already cleared my name long ago. Please stop wasting everyone’s time. When people wanted me dead and tortured me, everything happened so damn quickly. The truth is already out long long ago. Why the fuck is this being dragged unnecessarily? What the fuck is…
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Little context to why my mom hit me on the day I went to the hospital. It sounded bad when I said it, so I would like to give some context. __ Whenever my parents fall sick, they wait for a few days for the illness to go away on its own. If it still…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me starting from prison school up until the unethical monsters at kauvery hospital. I want justice!
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My reactions and retaliations are valid, normal and justified. Please stop hurting me for the benefit of the perpetrators. I have not done anything to deserve it. With me no matter what happens, it’s always a double edged sword. People hurt me, I react, the world hurts me for my reactions. Whenever something happens, the…
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I have nothing against the old man in my apartment. He said sorry and he seemed to be repenting. I’m just not interested in engaging with him or speaking to him. And when he constantly stalks me and harassed me, I feel repulsed and I start despising him. Because he is just a neighbour and…
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These days whenever I google something online, I see overuse of the word “aggressive”. __ When whatever happened with the monsters at the Kauvery hospital emergency ward, I came back home and cried. I spoke to Will cause I couldn’t handle it. When I opened instagram after talking to him, I saw a meme that…
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The person who was controlling my content and surroundings was the real demon. Because that person was constantly torturing me based on lies and manipulations and calling it karma. That person was constantly trying to silence me and bury the truth. That person was constantly psychologically assaulting me and trying to control me. That person…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life, shit will continue forever and ever. You need to understand this. Most people suck. I’m not the fucking problem here. I’ve already explained everything. __ I want convention. Only then I would be able to take control of the situation better. Problems won’t stop.…
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I request everyone to please keep it platonic with me. I’m not interested in anyone. I already have someone that I love. I’m definitely going to reject you. You are not going to like it when I reject you. So please behave. __ I request everyone to please stop looking at my cleavage and body…
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Most women if not all are bisexual. They are lying if they say otherwise. The person who is controlling my content has been giving examples online by using men in my place in situations. If I use your logic, Does that mean most women are actually men? __ Just because I’m bisexual doesn’t make me…
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I didn’t speak to anyone during my formative years. I was speaking to only God. Hence I don’t have certain human emotions. Because of this reason, I also have a lot of problems and limitations. I cannot do a lot of things that others can easily. I learnt how to speak a few years ago,…
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I just wanted to finish telling my story. That was my only intention. I fought through death to say it. It was a long difficult meandering road. Now that I’ve said everything and cleared my name. I’m okay with dying whenever it happens. I want to experience life with Ginny before that. I want a…
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She exaggerated that incident so badly. I kept fighting and didn’t give up. She fumbled and lied on top of lies. Hence I was able to prove that she’s a liar. She’s not a good person.
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She was standing sideways and I was sitting. Her hand was right in front of my face. So when I looked at her sleeve contextually and immediately looked down at my book and coffee. She must have assumed I’m looking at her. It is a misunderstanding. I kinda understand the misunderstanding. __ Please recreate this…
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I don’t understand why I’m being taunted even now. Every single day. It’s unnecessary and a waste of everyone’s time. I’ve already proved my innocence long ago. This needs to end. I’ve been speaking about this for one year straight. I’m beyond fed up. That woman is not even worth my time and energy. I…
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I was going to write everything directly. But whenever I tried to say something directly, my family would keep saying I’m sick and I need medicine. I knew my family was reading my blogs. I knew something was going on but I didn’t know what it was. So I decided to write it in the…
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I didn’t know the world knew me till I watched Jawaan. My therapist told me a lot of things as well. You can ask her. Also, I saw many things online. You cannot doubt me for this because it wasn’t my fucking idea to involve the whole world in my life. I’m good at adapting…
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With me the truth will always come out. Always. If you fuck with me, you’re signing up for your own destruction. Before doing something unethical please think of the consequences and think about things from a bigger picture. Please use your brain. I’ve been extremely clear and I’ve repeated everything multiple times. Don’t tell me…
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Before you point fingers at me, please check if your own plates are clean. Before you fuck with me, please understand whom you are fucking with. __ You can be rest assured that I will never start anything with you. I’m always minding my own business. My first thought will always be to help you.…
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I called kauvery hospital to speak to the head of the hospital regarding what happened. They disconnected my call when I was speaking. When I called back, they disconnected the call again. __ I called the skin deep tattoo studio to speak about how I was treated by them. Even they disconnected my call instead…
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What the fuck am I waiting for? What’s going on? Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? I’m going mad existing in this reality and double life. I’m fed up of waiting. What’s happening??? The whole world is benefitting out of me and I’m suffering. What kind of inhuman barbaric…
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Most people suck. People have the leverage that they can gaslight me without any consequences. They understand everything fully well. They take it one step further and take advantage of my helplessness. They do it intentionally and unnecessarily. They play stupid games and behave sadistic. They enjoy the leverage that they have and use it…
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Everyone in this world does it contextually. No one talks about these incidents because it’s contextual. __ I want justice for every single miniscule thing that happened to me. I want justice for every single unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Starting from prison school till the unethical monsters at Kauvery hospital. I fucking…
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There is a video on Spotify where Ed Sheeran and Shakira are singing which was uploaded yesterday. While Ed is singing Shakira starts to move her hips. Ed is looking at her move her hips for a few seconds. You can check his eye gesture. Which is contextual and innocent. __ Do you want me…
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I want justice for what happened to me yesterday. I want justice for every single miniscule thing. Starting from prison school up till unethical behaviour by doctors.
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People can say anything they want about themselves. It doesn’t necessarily make it true. You should walk the talk man. That’s what matters and sticks. Talks are just noise if there is no action attached to it.
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If a person is funny, they don’t go around saying “I’m funny” like a parrot. It’s for people to decide if they are funny or not based on their interactions with them. It’s the same when a person is kind. They don’t go around banging on the drum that they are kind. It’s for people…
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Is anyone listening? What exactly am I waiting for? I’m scared of my safety. What’s going on? Can someone please tell me what’s going on? Why am I waiting like this?
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Attention to Modi ji.
I was treated worse than an animal by a hospital full of doctors in an emergency ward today. When my rib cage and back was splitting with pain and I was dying. This is how people in India are treating me. They just want the attention and glory that comes attached to me. But they…
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I’m teaching people how to treat me. Until and unless people learn to treat me right, I’m going to be extremely vocal about every single shady unethical behaviour. I’m going to fight for my rights till my last breath if I have to. I’m fighting for my truth, respect and convention. I fucking want convention.…
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I’m so fed up with life. Being with Ginny is the only reason I’m still holding on and fighting. Is anyone listening? What exactly am I waiting for?
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. I want you to clearly understand this fact. I’m not the fucking problem. Most people here suck. I have already spoken about everything and explained it multiple times. I have explained the games and people’s mentality and unethical…
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I want justice for every single thing that happened to me starting from prison school up until today. I want justice for every single miniscule thing. I want justice!!!
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My sister in law was supportive as well. I’m grateful for the kind people in my life. I’m grateful for my community online who are constantly supportive too. These last three days were extremely difficult. What happened today was horrendous and monstrous and barbaric. I didn’t do anything wrong to deserve it. I want justice…
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Dr Mahesh Meda asked me to take a medicine for my pain and now I’m feeling better. This is the third time that he’s saved my life. I’m forever grateful for him. I came back home and cried a lot. I called Will because I couldn’t handle it alone. He was really kind and patient…
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I want justice for what happened to me today. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me starting from prison school till today. I have spoken about every single miniscule thing. I want justice.
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India is getting all this attention because of me and this is how people in India are treating me. You need to clearly understand the truth about what is happening. People just want the attention and glory that comes attached with me. This is how I’m being treated in reality. Modi ji are you reading…
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The nurse who was intentionally gaslighting me was looking at me with anger and hatred and intentionally asking me unnecessary questions to trigger me. Her intention was to trigger me. They were enjoying gaslighting me. They had a smug smile on their faces. They had that leverage that they can gaslight me as much as…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. You need to understand this. I’m not the fucking problem here. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for?
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They were smiling when they were assaulting and harrassing me. Like they were getting pleasure from my pain. They ganged up and did this. They had the leverage that they can gaslight me without any consequences and they were using it to their advantage to the max. __ This is not a behaviour that you…
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One of the doctors in the hospital made a disgusting vulgar expression like a gunda and made a gesture with his hand like he was going to punch me. When I was speaking back to them, one of the nurses held my body tightly to her body and didn’t let me go. She physically assaulted…
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Someone please help me. I’m dying with pain and I was harassed by the hospital. Someone please help me.
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I’m in so much pain. My back and ribcage are splitting with pain. I feel like I’m dying. Is anyone listening? This is what the hospital did to me. Is anyone listening to me? I feel like I’m speaking to a brick wall. I’m dying with pain and the hospital intentionally harassed me. Is anyone…
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This is what the hospital did when I’m in pain and suffering. My rib cage and back are splitting with pain. I’m suffering right now. I know the whole world is reading this. Why is everyone staying quiet? I’m unable to bear the pain and I was inhumanly harassed by the hospital staff.
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They were intentionally gaslighting me because they didn’t want to treat me. They were constantly trying to trigger me intentionally. They were intentionally asking gaslighting questions. When I reacted they used profanity and shouted at me to leave and started harassing me. They ganged up and harassed me.
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I went to kauvery hospital just now because I’m in insufferable pain and the staff started gaslighting me intentionally and when I asked them to stop gaslighting me, they started using profanity and started verbally abusing me badly and started shouting at me. I kept repeating that God is watching. They started smiling and verbally…
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I called my sister in law asking to borrow money because I’m in pain and mother went crazy and started creating drama and started verbally abusing me. She even started hitting me when I’m already in pain.
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I’m in a lot of pain. I’m not able to handle the pain. I feel like I’m dying, it’s hurting so badly. Is anyone listening? I need to go to the hospital. I don’t have the fucking money.
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My whole rib cage and back has been hurting like crazy for the last 3 days. There’s splitting pain. I don’t have money to go to the hospital. Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? The whole world is benefitting out of me and I’m suffering. What the fuck is…
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Father is never going to change. Today is diwali and parents started fighting badly. Father started name calling mother’s mom, so mother did the same back. Father went running to her and started pressing her throat. I shouted at them again and again and again to stop fighting. Now they have finally stopped fighting. Father…
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Dear Diary.
My entire upper back and ribcage have been hurting since morning. It’s hurting so bad, I’m unable to walk or even move without a splitting pain. I don’t know what’s wrong. I’ve been getting severe back pain since my niece Aaru grew up. Every time I lift her up I end up getting back pain.…
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Aggressive stalker might be educated and an ex-professor but father is so much better than him. Father is 100 times better. Father always minds his own business. He enjoys solitude. He doesn’t shit talk about mother to whoever listens. His values are in place. He doesn’t dump unsolicited advices on whoever listens. He doesn’t aggressively…
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I have spoken about every single miniscule thing and cleared it. I want justice for every single fucking thing that happened to me.
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After everything that we went through together a random stranger lied and this is what you do?
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Check the Instagram page of the glambots influencer and check his eyes gesture when he speaks to celebrities. He keeps sliding his eyes on their body from top to bottom. Which is contextual and innocent. __ What will happen if you take it out of context?
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I’ve been seeing so many reels of the Academy museum gala since morning. Amelia Dimoldenberg is speaking to all the celebrities and saying she loves their clothes and they compliment her back. When she compliments them, she slides her eyes on their body from top to bottom and they do the same when they compliment…
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I hope this gets over before Christmas. I’m beyond fed up. Also, I’ve been sick for a month. I need to see a doctor.
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There are too many typos and grammatical errors in my blogs. I was busy fighting when I was being tortured and scrutinized by the entire world and also at home. Also, health issues and heartbreak and other kinds of scrutiny. To add to that, the person who was controlling my surroundings and content was creating…
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Dear Diary.
The disney games that I told you about needs payment to continue. They were a bit childish anyway so I deleted them, besides I don’t have the money. (which is the main concern) I think they are for kids? Ah well. I play the NYT games daily. It’s fun and free. (some of them are…
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I want justice for every single miniscule unjust pain that was inflicted on me. Every single one. Except for Draco and my family. Every single person should face the full consequences for their actions and behaviour. I want justice for every single slander and lie. Every single sexual assault.
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Next time in case something happens, You seriously don’t have to take my side. No, don’t. But until and unless you know both the sides of the story. Please fucking hold your horses. Please show some maturity and decency. Please use your brain. Please. This applies for every single person in this world. Not just…
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I may not be rich and perfect but I’m way too classy and sophisticated for this shit. I need to be intellectually simulated to romantically like someone. Also, there should be a certain level of attractiveness. These vulgar aunties and uncles who are jumping are way beneath my standards. I would never even consider them.…
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Can someone please explain to me what exactly am I waiting for? I’m sick. I need to go to the hospital.
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I’m scared of my safety. Everyone knows everything about me and I speak about a lot of controversial and taboo topics. I don’t have the money to take precautionary measures. Whoever is responsible for this, please look into it.
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It’s been 3 years since we spoke properly. She must have changed and grown so much. Because I have. It’s going to be like getting to know each other once again. I don’t know what will happen when we meet again. But I do know this. I’m not going anywhere. There’s no one else for…
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Ginny is not perfect. Just like everyone else on this planet including me. I’m not interested in speaking about her imperfections on a public platform. But I want you to know this. Her good qualities outweigh her imperfections. I’m okay with her flaws and I can live with them. Hence it’s a fuck yessss. No…
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My success is a slap to a lot of people’s faces. A tight slap. So many people were bitter and jealous. They were burning behind their facade. So many people tried their best to destroy me and bring me down. They threw mud on my name and dragged my name through dirt. They didn’t care…
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If someone who is close to you doesn’t like your pictures but likes and comments on everyone else’s pictures. And it is bothering you. Confront them and take an action according to how they respond. __ If it’s bothering you too much, you can even block and unfollow them for your peace of mind. __…
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I think Rohit texted me and deleted the message. I got notified. I have nothing against him. I think about him sometimes because we were good friends for a few years. If he wants to speak, he has to reach out. I don’t have his number and I’m blocked on Instagram. I think he said…
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Quote of the day.
“In case I don’t see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!” *takes a bow* – Truman
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I’ve been sick for the last one month. I need to go to the hospital. What exactly am I waiting for?
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Note. Adding to this, Our sun will also die one day in the future. Fs. To quote Augustus Waters, “oblivion is inevitable, and that we’re all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we’ll ever…
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I downloaded NYT games and a few disney games on my phone. (like disney solitaire, frozen free fall and inside out game) I play those games whenever I feel a little anxious and when I overthink. And it’s helping me. They are cozy and fun. You can try them too. Other things that help with…
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My so called best friends of 10 years blocked me because I asked them to delete a picture in which I don’t look good. Draco and Pratigya. They treated me like absolute shit for 10 years and kept me under their feet like a doormat. When I asked them to delete a picture in which…
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I like and get along with people who don’t give importance to social media and petty social media stuff. Because I don’t care much about social media. Ginny, my parents, my sister, Will, my therapist. They aren’t social media people. They give importance to people in real life more than social media. People in my…
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When I was going through hell these last 3 years, I was going through something very serious and I was trying to stay alive and busy fighting. So I was not really using Instagram much. I would just see the stories of people I follow and close Instagram. I would also post pictures and close…
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The book the invisible life of Addie Larue is what helped me to understand how to navigate this weird reality and double life that I’m existing in. It was the right book at the right time. I’ve read certain books in my life which have helped me immensely to understand things and life in general.…
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All of a sudden everyone starts wearing green. All of a sudden everyone uses the word aggressive. All of a sudden everyone does something. Honestly, I don’t know what exactly you want from me. You need to be more clear and direct. I cannot understand what you want. Do you want me to forgive that…
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I’m extremely sick. I need to go to the hospital. I’ve been saying this for the last one month. What the fuck am I waiting for? Is someone listening?
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I don’t know what exactly people are doing. I saw something online on Instagram and I’m reacting to it. Honestly I’m beyond fed up. I don’t know what the fuck is happening and why the fuck am I waiting.
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I’m not Jesus. The faster people understand this, the better. The world is desperate for God and hope. So they think I am. But I’m fucking not. You are placing unrealistic expectations on my shoulders. I’m different, yes. I’m good at certain things that are helpful to the world and is healing, yes. I went…
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You cannot control my life and decisions. I decide what I want and what I want to do. Because it’s my fucking life. I cannot betray myself. Please stop being a fucking hypocrite and stop harassing me. I’m already going through a lot and my plate is already full of BS. Don’t add more shit…
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Gracie Abrams used the word aggressive positively in her video. I don’t know what exactly people want from me. Or why people are torturing me like this. You are a hypocrite if you expect me to do something you cannot do yourself. I’d rather suffer every single day for the rest of my life and…
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To quote Augustus Waters, I’m definitely going to get hurt in life. It’s inevitable as a human being. I can’t avoid it. But I do have a say in who hurts me. I’m okay with the people in my close circle hurting me. Because they are in my close circle for a reason. They are…
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Life is not that complicated. It’s quite simple. People make it complicated. Because of their ego and all these unnecessary emotions that consume them.
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I want convention, credit and recognition. I’m tired of suffering existing in this reality and double life. I’ve put in my blood, sweat and tears to reach here. I faced insurmountable pain and suffering to reach here. The whole world is benefitting out of me and I’m suffering. What kinda inhuman barbaric cruelty is this?…
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You should fight for a relationship/friendship only if there is a connection and rapport. Connection meaning, both of you were interested and invested in the relationship/friendship. There is a theory in himym, which Ted Mosby explains as “Dobler-Dahmer”. If there is connection and rapport and you fight for it, it’s cute. Hence Dobler. If there…
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After I became successful, A lot of people who treated me absolutely shitty have been forcing a non existent friendship. Also, most of the people spoke so much slander and lies. One by one I have cleared every fucking single thing. People are bullshitting in front of the world. And putting on so much theatrics.…
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I always speak the truth. I cannot be more explicit than this. I’ve spoken about everything. Please check everything that I’ve said. I’m literally losing it. I’m fed up. I miss maanas so much. I’m literally fed up.
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I’ve been feeling horny again sometimes rarely since December 2024 because my throat is fixed. But not completely because I’m not taking that additional medicine. The prolactin in my blood is still high. I’ll do something about it once this is over and I settle in my new life.
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Since I met Ginny she’s the only person I’ve cared about. When I was saying no to all those hot men who were interested in me, I didn’t know Ginny was going to come back. Even she didn’t know it because she kept asking me to move on. I was saying no because I was…
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Please check my blood test reports and speak to Dumbledore about it. This is a crucial proof. Ask him about the white thing in my underwear. It’s the side effect of the additional medicine. After that I stopped taking that additional medicine. This was in early 2023. I haven’t felt properly horny after I stopped…
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I think I’m overthinking? I think people are not supporting the perpetrators. Because Taylor Swift would never do that. She is the best person I know along with Ginny of course. I love her so much. I feel like everyone in this world is on a group chat and communicating things with each other. Then…
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I’ve gone through a lot in life. I cannot continue to exist like this with no answers and silence. Please someone put an end to my suffering and give me closure. I don’t want to live in this house with that man. I need to go to the fucking hospital as well. I’m sick. Please…
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Someone please tell me why I’m waiting this way. I’m so fed up. Please tell me. What’s going on?
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Everyone is being so hypocritical. Please stop supporting perpetrators. Unless you tell me things I would not know. What exactly is it that everyone wants? What’s going on? I’m so fed up. Someone please tell me what’s going on.
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Why is everyone online using the word “aggressive” positively? Unless you tell me, I would not know. What exactly is it? What’s going on? I’m literally so fed up.
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Also, the day I invited him home, he had stalked me and started prying about my personal life. I told him I’m not interested in speaking about it. He started prying again and again and wasn’t taking no for an answer. So I asked him if he knew my father.
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Whatever that man did to me was wrong. I’ve already spoken about it multiple times. I’m speaking about it again by consolidating everything. You need to understand that there was no friendship between us. We only spoke for a few minutes. He misbehaved with me the entire few minutes we spoke. I ended it peacefully.…
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Even after being vocal about what he did to me, that man did not stop stalking me. He stalked me numorous times. One day I was sitting outside in the park bench and he was going to his house. When he saw me, he came back and intentionally stood in front of me near the…
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In 2024 after things worked out for me. That man suddenly stood in front of me when I was walking and started forcing conversation. I was not interested. So I walked away. __ He smiled at me 2 times and I smiled back because he is my neighbour and he is old and I walked…
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I saw that aggressive stalker at first sitting on the park bench at night in 2023. He smiled at me and I casually smiled back. __ After a few days, I was going out for a walk but it was raining. When I was getting back home, I saw that man near the lift going…
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I don’t know why people are using that word positively. Whatever it is, you have to either tell me or ask me if you want to know something. Instead of playing these stupid mind games. Treat me like a fucking human being man. I’m not an alien or an animal. I cannot sit and decode…
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Taylor Swift used the word aggressive positively in tonight’s show. I don’t understand why she did that. If it’s for the benefit of the perpetrator. I want her to know if he had done the same things that he did to me to her. He would be in jail. As far as I know her.…
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I forgot to tell you, I went to my grandmother’s house when I was in my early twenties during summer. Dudley and her brother were there too. They were around 12 years old I think. Dudley’s brother squeezed both my boobs when he saw me and they both tremendously tortured me the entire summer. I…
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A random stranger lied and everything that I built for 2 years was thrown away in a second. I can never forget what happened till the day I die. I want to know what’s happening and what happened to everyone who did me wrong so that I can get closure and peace. I go through…
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Just because someone is a creepy fan and desperate to be my friend doesn’t mean I should comply. Whom I allow in my close circle is my choice and my choice only based on my personal first hand experience with them. I expect my boundaries and privacy and space to be respected strictly. Also, Before…
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My close circle is sacred. It’s a temple of trust, safety, love and care. Friend is a valuable word for me. I don’t go around throwing it away like candy during halloween. There should be connection and rapport. It takes a lot of time, efforts, actions and shared experiences to call someone a friend. A…
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Quote of the day.
“Late one nightYou dug me out of my grave andSaved my heart from the fate ofOphelia” – Taylor Swift✨ “Locked inside my memoryAnd only you possess the keyNo longer drowning and deceivedAll because you came for me” – Taylor Swift✨
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When I started dating in 2019 till mid 2022, I kept calling Dumbledore saying that I wasn’t getting turned on while dating. I kept telling him that I think I’m definitely asexual. After I met Ginny I stopped because I realised I’m demisexual. Please speak to Dumbledore about this. Back then I didn’t know that…
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When I took the additional medicine for prolactin level, I used to see white thing in my underwear. It was the side effect of that medicine. I stopped taking that additional medicine 3 years ago because of this reason. I was busy fighting. I decided I’ll think about it later and forgot about it. My…
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Quote of the day.
Welcome to my underworld where it gets quite darkAt least you know exactly who your friends areThey’re the ones with matching scars – Taylor Swift✨
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You can get my blood test reports from care diagnostics. My prolactin level is always higher than normal. Because I’ve been on medication since a decade. Please check with Dumbledore about this. He asked me to do the test multiple times. He will explain to you what it means when the prolactin level is high.…
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It’s been a year speaking to Ginny. It was one year back last year that Ginny said she wants to marry me. Which gave me the strength to fight and is the reason I’m alive today. I miss her so much. I start to cry randomly throughout the day thinking about seeing her again. If…
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Stop supporting the perpetrators. When you support them, you are enabling this kinda behaviour. When you enable this behaviour, people will have the mentality that they can do whatever fuck and cross my boundaries. 3 years of relentless fighting is going to vain. Because history is repeating itself again and again and again and again.…
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Growing up I didn’t really know anything about the LGBTQ community. We didn’t really have social media back then and I had not come across any books related to it. One day during college, I was in the auto and a trans woman harassed me asking for money while we were on the signal. After…
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Dhruv is smart, yes. He is also easy to speak to. That’s why I liked him as my friend. He is good like that. I won’t deny that. But it wasn’t working out because he was attracted to me and he kept making it sexual. When I was keeping it platonic. Hence problems arised. I…
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When I wrote my review about the monster at social and the psychopath at the crochet class, People immediately wrote positive fake reviews about those places. People are bullshitting in front of the world. Also, keeping their good name in front of the world at all costs. People are also helping each other. You can…
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As long as I exist in this reality and double life shit will continue forever and ever. I want you to clearly understand this. I want convention. So that I can take control of the situation better. What the bloody fuck am I waiting for?
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Why is stalking not okay when it comes to Taylor Swift or any other public figures. But it’s okay when it comes to me. Have you ever thought about this? Not only is it okay when it comes to me but people also support the perpetrators. Aren’t you seeing where it’s going wrong? Why aren’t…
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I don’t go around calling innocent people names. I speak based on my personal first hand experience with people. That man stalked me aggressively like a psychopath. I witnessed violent aggression, pathology and psychotic mental instability from his end. Whatever he did to me was utterly wrong. If he had done the same things to…
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I see that aggressive stalker when I go out for walks. I want a restraining order against him. I want a restraining order against Dudley’s father as well.
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I’m already suffering and holding onto my last thread and waiting. Please stop supporting perpetrators online and cause further suffering. Please understand what’s right and wrong. Please for heaven’s sake understand what happened to me was wrong. Supporting perpetrators is wrong.
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“I don’t gotta talk, the Lord defends meI watch them all fall for going against me‘Cause me and all my angels shot the devil upWhile you was trying to pull me down, I levelled upI levelled up twice, I levelled up three timesHe tapped ’em and told ’em “she’s mine”So even when I cried I…
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People need to introspect and think about their behaviour and actions. They need to understand what caused my reactions and retaliations. They need to be held accountable for what they did to me. I want justice for every single thing that happened to me. I’m teaching people how to treat me. I want to be…
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I’m fighting for my truth, respect and convention. I want people to clearly understand that they cannot cross my boundaries and space. I want people to clearly understand there’s going to be severe consequences even with me. I want the world to clearly understand what’s right and wrong. What’s acceptable and not acceptable even when…
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If people are using the word aggressive, psychopath, maniac, creepy etc positively online for the benefit of the aggressive stalker. I request you to make a line of all the stalkers who misbehaved and stalked taylor swift and ask their side of the story. You know the sob story of why they did what they…
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I absolutely hate two faced bitches. The ones who project the persona that they are innocent flimsy angel princesses in front of men and the world. But in reality they are cunning, malicious and evil. They are extremely jealous and insecure and constantly try to pull you down. I loathe them. I also absolutely hate…
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I feel exploited and used to the extreme. I know the whole world is reading this. Why are everyone staying quiet and watching me suffer? I do see everyone supporting me online. But why isn’t anyone answering my questions? Why isn’t anyone stepping up and putting an end to this inhuman barbaric torture? What’s going…
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Sometimes when I see father, the trauma of all the sexual assaults washes over me and engulfs me. As long as I’m in this house in close proximity with him, the trauma will resurface and remain. Every time he looks at me, I relapse and try to push down the pain and suffering and be…
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I was humouring the people who called me a cat by saying harry potter is a cat animagi. By using taylor swift lyrics. It was part of the fanfiction. That’s it. But I, the author, am not a cat. I have already clarified and cleared every possible misunderstanding and slander. So you cannot dehumanise me…
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The world needs to stop invading and involving in my personal life and boundaries to this extent and stop exploiting me this way. There is a line that cannot be crossed. It is continuously being crossed again and again and again since a decade. You need to put an end to this at least now.…
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I don’t understand why people are using the word aggressive and psychopath positively online. No matter what people do or say, the truth is not going to change. Whatever the aggressive psycho stalker did to me is not going to change as well. I cannot forgive his mental instability till the day I die. Just…
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People don’t know how to behave around me. So I’m teaching people how to behave and I’ve been extremely clear about my boundaries. But as long as I’m existing in this reality and double life, shit will continue forever and ever. I want you to clearly understand this fact. What the fuck am I waiting…
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I’ve been speaking about this since day one. But the world was brutally gaslighting me every single time I tried to explain the entire August and September last year. This is what I meant by the world is enabling this kinda behaviour and mistreatment. You need to stop wasting my time and everyone’s time. Because…
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Because everyone knows me and knows everything about me, If I just casually look or smile at someone they feel a sense of connection with me and they behave as though we are long lost best friends. Also, because of the reality I’m existing in, they feel it’s okay to overstep my boundaries and space…
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I’ve already proved myself more than enough and necessary. Why the fuck are my books still tampered? What the fuck am I waiting for?
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I’m waiting to move out to hit the gym. I’m not going to the gym now because if I wear gym clothes and step out of the bedroom, father will definitely ogle at my body like a ruthless vulture. He will start finding excuses to look at my body. He is never going to change.…
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Dear Diary.
In a way, I’m glad that I didn’t waste this one year that I was being scrutinized being depressed. I went out for a walk and hit 10k every day, even when I didn’t want to. I took a shower every day, even when all I wanted to do was curl up and cry all…
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Now that the truth is out and the real culprits are out, no one wants anyone dead? Where are all the barbaric cavemen who created riots on the road? Show me your bloody faces. Where the fuck are you?
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Mother’s brother, ie. Dudley’s father, kissed me on my cheek without my consent 3 years ago. He kissed me close to my lips. I found that extremely inappropriate and it traumatized me. I’ve already spoken about it. In case you forgot. He keeps calling/texting even when I don’t respond. I’ve blocked him everywhere. I’ve already…
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I’ve said it before, saying it again. One thing about me is, I’m going to humour you. People need to learn the skill of how to agree to disagree. A person is more important than their opinion. As long as they aren’t causing any harm, I don’t think there’s anything wrong in being opinionated. Everyone…
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I’m sick. I need to go to the fucking hospital. Can someone please explain to me what the fuck am I waiting for?
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Just because I’m bisexual, it doesn’t make me a man. I’m a woman. Making men to sexually assault me based on lies was inhuman. Giving examples of men taking my place in situations online doesn’t make sense because I’m not a man. A man doing something and a woman doing something is totally different. Also,…
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I miss Ginny so much. My heart is aching. Please put an end to this. I can’t handle this distance. Also, I’m sick. I googled the symptoms and it doesn’t look good. Google says I might die if I don’t go to the doctor. Can someone please tell me what’s going on? I don’t know…
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I don’t want to live in this house with that man. Why is everyone watching me suffer like this? What kinda inhuman barbaric atrocity is this?
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I’m sick. I need to go to the fucking hospital. I don’t have money. The whole world is benefitting out of me and I’m suffering. The truth is already out long ago. Can someone please explain to me what the fuck am I waiting for?
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Every single time something would happen in the past, I would speak the truth on day one itself. But no one listened or believed me. People feel it’s okay to do whatever fuck they want with me because with me they don’t have to face any consequences. They cross my boundaries, assault me, misbehave and…
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Something that I cannot wrap my head around is that father just doesn’t change. His behaviour is ingrained deep in his bones. He still doesn’t cover his mouth when he sneezes. I’m sure if I wear shorts and step out of the bedroom, his eyes will definitely be on my body and he will find…
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When I was dating psycho divorcee, one day I was having breakfast with him. I was wearing a deep neck top that day. The staff who took the order looked at my cleavage. After he left, I said to psycho divorcee, that man stared at my cleavage. He asked me to shut up because I…
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There’s nothing I hate more than two faced bitches and incel patriarchal assholes. Also, sex addicted aunties, behenjis and uncles who lust on me and has the fucking audacity to point fingers at me for liking their pathetic faces because apparently they don’t have a mirror in their houses.
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I’m sick and I need to go to the hospital. I don’t have the fucking money. The whole world is benefitting out of me and I’m suffering. Can someone please explain to me what the bloody fuck am I waiting for? When people wanted me dead and tortured me everything happened so quickly. The truth…
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I didn’t know the world was watching my videos initially. So I was bullshitting for the most part. When I think about certain things, I feel mortified. Can’t do anything about it though. Everyone’s already seen everything. I didn’t have any time to fully process my embarrassment as well because I was busy fighting so…
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I don’t have a crush on them. Just to be clear. My bisexuality is really weird. I’m bisexual only 5% of the time. I’m mostly dead down there. TMI I know, but sadly this is my life.
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Do I find Sydney Sweeney and Zendaya hot? Yes. Do I think Pettigrew looks like a potato and find her extremely repulsive and off putting? Also Yes. Am I attracted to women IRL? No. Am I attracted to every tom dick and harry? No. “shade never made anybody less gay.” – Taylor Swift✨ Please stop…
rachana rajan <3 